.:KaTsY wishing upon a star:.

Sayang..

2008-12-02T02:05:00.002+08:00

"sayang" na lamang ang masasabi ko ngayon. nakakapanlumo, ngunit ito na ang nangyari. kung maibabalik ko lamang ang panahon, hindi ko na siguro sinayang ang pagkakataon.

7.5 na puntos ang kulang (kung aasamin ko ngayong semestre ang 4 na qpi ulit) mula sa pagkasama sa honorable mention sa aming graduation.

kung iisipin, hindi ko nasambit noon na makakaabot ako sa estadong ito. marahil naliwanagan na ako ngayon, ngunit ang pagkaliwanag na ito ay naganap ng huli.

sa kabilang dako, masaya na rin ako. ang daming nag-aasam ng kung ano ang akin. pero sayang lang talaga. 5 hakbang lamang ang kulang, at hindi ko pa nagawa. napakasayang lang talaga. at kung tutuusin nakapadaming pagkakataon na maaari kong punan ang limang hakbang na pagkakulang. 5 hakbang na magdudulot sana ng matinding galak.

pinagmuni-munihan ko at ito anf nakita ko na maaari sanag magpupuno sa limang hakbang na pagkakulang.

higit pa sa limang hakbang ang aking nakita, at sinayang ko lahat.

ES 10 - B+ na napakalapit na sa A
Ma 121 (6 units katumbas ng 2 hakbang) - C+ na malapit na rin sa B
Ma 195 G.1 - B na kaya pa sanang B+
Lit 13 - B+ na napakalapit na rin sa A
Lit 14 - B+ hindi umabot ng A dahil sa huling pagsusulit namin
Ma 122 - C+ na maaari pa sanag B kung hindi ako nadala sa pagsasabi ng tao na mahirap ito at sa katunayan, nakuha ko na ito noong ako ay nasa HS pa lamang. ngunit mas napahirap lamang dahil sa proving
Ma 101 - B na alam ko ay dapat B+ ngunit hindi ko na nilaban
Sp 10 - B+ na kayang A ngunit sumabit lamang dahil sa orals dahil na rin sa kaba
Ma 185 - C+ na maaari pa sanag B kung minemorize ko lang mabuti
Psy 101 - B+ na muntikan ng A ngunit bumaba dahil sa huling long test
Ps 32 - B na kaya sanag B+ at napakalapit na
Stat 109 - B+ na kaya sanang A kung hindi lamang ako nag-aalala sa Ma 171
Ma 121 - C+ na kaya sanag B kung mas naging maingat lang ako sa pagsagot
Hi 166 - B+ na malapit na sana sa A
Th 141 - B+ na nadali ng group presentation at group paper na maaari pa sanang A
Ma 186 - B+ kung nagsikap ako tulad ng Ma161 maaari pa akong umabot sa A
AMC 21 - B+ kung mas nag-aral pa ako nung finals A sana
Ma 195 H.9 - B+ nadali ako ng finals, pre final ko ay A

19 na pagkakataon, ngunit 5 lamang ang kinakailangan.

pinalampas ko.

nawala.

malulungkot.

tatayo.

liligaya.

kung nagawa ko lang sana, mas magiging masaya ako ngayon at hindi nag-iisip ng sayang.

bahala na. dapat lumigaya. dapat maging kontento sa kung ano ang mayroon at mula rito magiging masaya.

siguro nasanay lang ako simula noong HS na puro hindi kabiguan. pero pinamulat sa akin ng kolehiyo na maaari pa ring maging maligaya mula sa kabiguan at hindi dapat magpapigil mula sa iyong kabiguan upang makamit ang mga pangarap sa buhay.

kung kaya, I'll keep moving forward muli ang aking motto, upang muling tumayo at subukang makamit ang tagumpay.

hayy, nakakalungkot isipin

2008-10-14T02:22:00.002+08:00

grabeh, nadedeppress ako nagyon. hindi kasi aabot ung grade ko sa DL, kulang ako ng 1 letter grade..so, 3.33 lang QPI ko..nakakalungkot noh..3.35 ung DL..

kamusta naman db..sinung di maddeppress, 3 linggo bago pa magtapos ang semester, napakalaki ng chance na makakuha ako ng mataas na marka. kumbaga mga 3.5-3.6 na QPI pa nga e..

kaso nagbago lahat un, puro kamalasan ang nangyari sa akin..

ung histo ko n pag-asang maka-A, B+ na lang dahil hindi napaganda ung proyekto namin at hindi pa ito napasa sa tamang oras..ewanko ba, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko kasalanan ko ba un..ahay..

math186, dahil na rin sa katamaran, hindi ko na inisip na makakuha pa ng A dito dahil kailangan kong iperfect ang finals para maka-A, alam kong nagawa ko ito sa math161..ngunit iba na kasi ang kaso rito..mas mahirap siya kaysa sa 161 kaya medyo imposible..tapos magkasabay pa ang histo at math186 final exam ko, kaya super stress na ako..

amc 21 naman, nung una akala ko A na ito, hindi pala..ang HIRAP ng finals..pasang awa lang ata ako dito..kaya lalagpak ang grade ko sa B, sana nga maging B+ para may chance talaga na maging DL

th141 - ito ung pinakanilulugmukan ko..naaasar ako nung una, dahil kapag nagbabasa ako walang quiz, pag hindi ako nagbasa may quiz..sa aming lahat ako pa ang madalas magbasa..kapag nakapagbasa naman ako at may quiz, group quiz pa siya..kamusta naman diba..ewanko ba kung tamang sabihing leeching ito..kasi maaari rin namang gawin ko ito kaso malas lang talaga ako..

dagdag pa rito, nung una akala ko napakalaki ng chance na makakakuha kami ng A sa report at paper..kaso lang sabog ang kinalabasan nito..sa katunayan, ang napuntang parte pa sa akin ung nagbigay daan upang tumaas ung grade namin, actually perfect pa nga ung parteng iyon sa reporting at inaaasahan pa nilang gawin ko lahat..ewanko ba kung dapat lang ba mabwisit..tapos ung iba, ok lang sa kanila kung anumang grade, o nga naman..bakit ba nila aassahin pa kung maaari nga naman silang dumikit at humigop na lang..ahay..dagdag pa rito, ilang oras bago ang report at pasahan, nalaman ko pang SABOG lahat..at inayos ko pa ito..kulang pa nga ung ibang parte..ahay buhay..

kasunod pa rito, ok gagawa ka nga ng reviewer at maghahati-hati..ikaw pa ang mamalasin samantalang ang iba sswertihin..ahay..ewanko ba..nakakapanluho lang talaga kung iisipin kasi dahil dun ang A naging B na lang..ang kamalasan pa, 1% lang ang kulang ko from the orals at B+ na ako..kulang lang ako ng .2 sa final grade..napakasakit naman talaga oh..

ang philo naman, ay ewan..sana B+ kaso mukhang B lang ito e..bahala na..sana ma-enlighten si sir..

actuarial..sana hindi ako ifail ng aking pakiramdam..at sana maging ganap ang A ko dito..95% kasi ang grade ko bago magfinals..so kailangan ko na lang ng 81% para sa finals..para maka-A..at mukhang naabot ko naman ito dahil nasagutan ko naman ng maigi ung finals namin..

so kung theo B, philo B, amc21 B, histo B+, math186 B+, actuarial A = 3.33 and qpi ko

ang pinakamataas kung sakali: theo B+, philo B+, amc21 B+, histo B+, math186 B+, actuarial A = 3.58 and qpi ko

ang grado ko ay papatak sa 3.33 - 3.58..kaso mukhang 3.33 na nga lamang ito..naiiyak na ako..sinubukan kong pakiusapan ang sa theo dahil konti na lang talaga e..kaso mukhang hindi ata papayag..:(

sabi ko pa naman sa tatay ko, magdDL ako ngayon..napakasakit din kasi sa kalooban ko pagkatapos nilang ibigay sa akin lahat ngayon..kahit na sabihin na nating luho ko, hindi ko man lng ito masusuklian maski isang certificate..sa katunayan, naiiyak ako ngayon..ito lang ang naiisip kong labasan ng kalungkutan ko..

kung iniisip niyong baka sumunod ako sa mga nagsuicide..hindi naman..hindi ko kakayanin un..pti kung titingnan din naman, mataas na rin ang 3.33 un nga lang kulang ng konting push..sayang talaga..

bahala na ang Diyos..ito na lamang ang makakanlungan ko sa mga oras na ito..nasa kondisyon ako ngayon ng kawalan ng pag-asa..napakalaking kabalintunaan kung iisipin dahil ito ung pinag-uusapan namin sa philo, ngunit hindi ko siya magamit ngayon, dahil na rin sa nararamdaman ko ngayon..baka kailangan kong maging Stoiko para lang maibsan ang sakit..ngunit, napakahirap naman..masyado kasi akong nagbibigay importansya sa mga detalye at hindi sa aking karakter..sana dumating ang panahon at tuluyan ko na itong isabuhay..sa ngayon, kahit anung sikap ko gawin, natatalo ako ng sakit sa puso ko, tila may palakol na sumunggab dito at hindi matanggal ang sakit..

sana maging mabuti na ang lahat..

the truth behind businesses

2008-05-18T19:06:00.008+08:00

its so funny to think that there such people that you just want to kill and get rid of in your life. Some people makes speculations regarding what the real truth is. What if they are living in semblance? is it still the truth? Maybe, for them. But for the ones suffering and knows the real truth - NOT. Come' on, I know its business but how can people do such things and leave even your family relative.

Who the hell are these people? - Manuel and my Auntie. (kakaiba ba, i'm saying such words na hindi ko sinasabi talaga)

Actually this message is for BEN living in Guam and living under semblance and the manipulation of Manuel. This Manuel was saying such harsh words regarding my mom in order to get some orders that are supposedly for my mom's business. HOW DARE YOU?!? mukha kang pera. even my mom's money, you've been using para sa mga kaartehan mo. SOBRA ka na. if you're thinking that we have a lot money - hahaha..you are also living in semblance my dear. Ginagapang ng magulang ko ang pag-aaral namin and now, I'm giving whatever I can in order to help them. I am even thinking of working outside the Philippines para makatulong. My ate, ate angie and I are starting a small business para makatulong din. NOW- tell me sinung may pera.

back to the story, i hope Mr. Ben that you'll be enlightened and be able to know the REAL truth. Even my auntie chose na makipanig to Manuel. Anu un db?!? is that a real family, para sa akin hindi e (Ohana means family and family means no body is left behind). This is the second time na ginanyan kami ng tita ko. and anung gagawin niya sa pera? Palamuti sa pader nila, ni wala nga siyang pinag-aaral na anak na e. They also have a lot of real estates assets, kaya sinu may kailangan ngayon. Hindi ako tangang anak para manahimik at walang kibo. HOW DARE YOU ALSO! I've been looking up to you as my tita, pero you just ruined that respect and trust I have sau.

Masama na kung masama kung magsalita ng ganito. Para makita mo ang magulang mong naghihirap dahil sa KAHANGALAN ng iba ay hindi matatawaran ng kahit anung kapatawaran. HINDI AKO MANHID, HINDI AKO BULAG. AT LALUNG-LALO NANG HINDI AKO HANGAL NA ANAK AT TATAHIMIK NA LAMANG SA ORAS NG PANGANGAILANGAN NG AKING MAGULANG. sino nga bang anak ang may nais na mahirapan at masaktan ang sariling magulang tulad na lamang nila sa atin. -WALA. Ngunit dahil sa pera, may mga taong nabubulag at nagagawang manakit ng kapwa (hayy, pera- the most sinful thing in the world). Mabuti pa na sundin na lamang natin ang sinasabi ni Plato sa THE REPUBLIC- ating pagsilbihan ang bawat isa na parang kapamilya. Pero may malaking bagay na dapat tayong ipagpalit - ito ang ating pamilya. Tama naman siya e, kung wala tayong pamilya at iisiping pamilya ang lahat, wala na sigurong maghihirap. Karagdagan pa rito, wala na sigurong NANLOLOKO at NALOLOKO.

Sana talaga maliwanagan ang bawat tao rito. Ito ang tunay na buhay ngunit may mga aksyon ding namang magagawa.

Anu nga bang magagawa - hanapin ang katotohanan sa mundong napupuno ng mapanlinlang na mga tao.

Ito na lamang siguro ang aking masasabi. Kung gusto mo akong kausapin Mr. Ben (kung mababasa mo man ito), ay makakausap mo ako sa aking telepono o sa aming landline. o kaya sa aking email: katsy09_m@yahoo.com..Hindi masabi ng aking ina ang buong katotohanan sau, kaya mas mabuti pang manggaling sa isang paslit na hindi kayang manloko ng kapwa ang katotohanan.

after a long time

2007-09-24T00:02:00.000+08:00

it's been a year since I posted something in this blog. It maybe because of the tons of things I need to do. Actually, being in college is not what others think of. Since they thought college life seem to be a social life or a party life for them, but actually its not, life in college is difficult to handle especially when you don't know where to go. I don't mean that I don't know where to go to, but as of now, I am quite lost. I may seem smart for others but I am barely hanging of being that smart girl.

how I wish my life would be soo easy. BUT it's NOT. different problems are being bombarded to me every now and then. Problems that are out of this world. Problems that we need to prove that are being accepted by the majority.

oh well, i shouldn't be bragging about this since this is the life i chose.

hayy, I'm not used to blogging anymore, and I don't have any stories to tell. hahaha..now you can see how boring my life is. A life of MATH. hahaha. But I am enjoying it somehow.

One reason is my stat prof is very proud of me since I am one of top scorers in our class for our long tests. yahooo. But sadly to say, Math 171 is so difficult, how could I prove something that is being accepted already. and sometimes we are proving those things that are quite common sense na and if you were going to answer it using common sense, it won't be accepted, arghhh, you need to prove every angle of the problem. the hard part also is it is advanced calculus, who the hell would take it. Well, I did, since it's part of my curriculum.

But despite of the hardships I am facing, I should not lose hope. I will lose this game if I will lose hope, and I shouldn't allow this to happen.

Maybe, I won't reach some of my goals, like having at least a 3 on my qpi. Maybe, I should also let myself experience some things like this and still try to step up once again, and dream big.

hayy, got to go na, need to study pa..finals week is coming and its haunting me and telling me to study more. bye..weeeeeeee...

btw, i have a multiply account na pala, its www.katsy09.multiply.com..:D

nothingness of my mind

2006-09-06T22:27:00.000+08:00

'hah!' that's all i can say to fit whatever mood i have right now..

oh well, i got a lot of stuff to worry but hey, i want to think positive for all the things happening to me..

its been quite awhile since my last post..and now, im trying to type whatever comes out of my head................

hahahaha..but nothing's coming out of my mind..maybe my mind is so tired of thinking mathematical equations, papers and those burdens i need to address to..maybe, im just tired..

and the sad thing about it, even though i've been giving all my time to my studies, it seems not enough..

okie, here is my standing as of now:

math 124 - well, this is the subject i could really be proud of..i got a B+, A, and and an A for our 3 long tests..so i guess there is something i could look up to..or maybe it's my light beyond the dark clouds of my life..BUT, my biggest problem regarding this subject is my prof is not so great teacher..because i don't even understand his lectures so i just rely on myself and study on my own..

th 121 - oh, well..we had our long test last friday and i think i will pass that test..i hope so..*wishing!! oh wait, why should i wish..i should think that i will pass that test! *oh katsy, think positive!!!

math 22 - m super duper sad regarding this subject..i know m lucky to pass all the exams we had since our prof is a super terror teacher whenever it comes to exams..depite that im hapie because he's a very nice prof..he even lent me his copies of the past long tests so that our class could review properly for our other remaining long tests..and i am also hapie because he could see my effort regarding my studies..also, he told me that i must not be sad of my grade since im passing his class and my grade is just ok and its NORMAL daw..but i want to get a HIGHER GRADE!!!:( maybe i need to boost myself MORE on this subject in able to attain my goal..

*but i want to say that sir cabral is the best math teacher ever!!! he's cool, and nice..[and acually, he's also handsome]..hehehehe..shhhhh..but he's not my crush naman, i just admire him as a mathematician and a teacher..:) whoow, this is the first time that i admired a male teacher..hehehe..:)

filipino 14 - hmm, actually im passing naman BUT im not satisfied for my grades..im barely passing his quizzes..oh GOD, give me more strength!!!

*BUT [again] im loving our class discussions because sir samar has a bright mind to share..:) and i just knew from my fil 12 prof that sir samar's girlfriend is a Theresian!!! hail for Theresians!!! hahahaha..:)

english 12 - im love this subject! we do some stuff that are very different and funny..hehehe..:)

*btw, we already submitted our ARP draft last tues, and i hope i could get a high grade on it..

so that's for my academic standing as of now..

how about social standing..social life: ZERO!!! i could not attend parties and treats because of my acads..:( so sad!!!

love standing: hehehe..:) il just smile na lang!!:D hehehe..awabu boss angel dondee!!!:) *di kami huh!!! for those who are asking..hahahaha*

so that's for my post muna, i need to study pa..bye!

sigh..life...

2006-08-09T20:26:00.000+08:00

haayyy, i dunno what i have done wrong..things seemed to be not at my side..

regarding my life, studies etc..

about my studies, well im hapie dat m not failing or so..but it is sad to see that im not getting a high grade..especially in math..um, actually in math 22 lng naman..

paano naman kasi during our first long test, only five of us passed the exam..and i only got a C tapos im the second highest na nun..ahaaayyy..tapos our prof just gave back our second long test today and thank God i passed but im not happy with my score..:( and 5 lang ulit ang pumasa..ahaaayyy..paano ba naman yan db..:(

but regarding my math 124 subject naman, im doing quite good naman coz i got a B+ and an A for our first and second long tests..:) pambawi kumbaga..

tapos for fil, ok naman..but i hope i could get at least a B+ on this subject..plssss God..help me!!!

then theo, sir rosar is being considerate na..and our lessons are so inspiring..kaya ok naman ako sa kanya..:)

tapos eng, ok nmn..dami pinapagawa..haaayyyyyy....

tapos ang pinakasad part is, i won't be able to kulit my boss angel ng husto na..he's grounded because of what happened last saturday sa car nya..:( haaayyy bahala na..

cge, il make this post short lng kasi i need to finish my paper for fil pa e..:( minimum of 5 pages..:( waaahhh!!!

bye!!

debuts

2006-07-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

it's nice to know that some of us already turned 18 and we are now entering the new world of adulthood. we had new experiences and fun times together. also, i am glad that i am sharing those new experiences with the people who've been there for me for years. and i can say that the transition from childhood to adulthood is really essential to us. we were able to look back on those times, where we experienced alot in life and now we are also looking forward to the things that we might encounter in life.

speaking of debuts, i wanna start with dei's debut at moomba last june 10..:D

it was really fun because that was the first time i arranged a debut na hindi sa akin. dondee and i were the emcees. reb was also there and they sang 5 songs, 3 of which are also the songs they sang during my debut (super galing nyo talaga!). and of course the tgis kada is complete! and most of the iv4 batch '05 came. hehe..:D

regarding the food, it is really yummy!! especially the cake and the soup! hehehe..:D hehe..:)

this was the night when prixie became tipsy and loud. hahaha..:) and the next day she had an allergy kasi he drank san mig light, red wine, and blowjob(the 3 layered thing). hehehe..:)

there was a disco part din but i felt dizzy na coz i slept late the night before and i made some stuff pa for dei's debut. hehe..:)

another debut was last night, ib's debut at mcdonald el pueblo..:)

i can sum up the things i realized last night in one sentence: portraying a child is hard but feeling as a child is easy. i realized this because making yourself young through clothes, attitude etc is hard but if you will release or even show the inner child in you it will be easier.

through ib's debut we were able to look back on the things that we had during our childhood, but we were also able to move on when we went to the bar (friends).

ib!! if you are reading my debut, i wanna say thank you for everything. all of the experiences we've been through are really unforgetable and i will treasure those experiences for the rest of my life. your one of a kind, unique and smashing. you can make anyone amaze through your characteristic and attitude because you have the shine that will make people bow to you..:D loveyah ib!! hehehe..:D

maybe that's for my kwentos muna i need to study pa. our first exam in math 22 will be this friday na kasi e..hehe..:D

cge yngats!!:D mwahugs!

overdue

2006-06-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

ok, it's been awhile since my last post. i've been busy with my studies and other stuff. oh well, i've got lots of stories to tell but i don't know where to start..hmmm..

to start of..I'm officially a Sophomore student in The Ateneo na..well, im looking both sides of the coin here, let's say that there are bad and good points being a sophomore student. Regarding the bad points, its quite selfish or so because i think i'm really old na talaga being in second year college. oh well, we can't escape time, i know it but sometimes you will have the feeling that you don't want time to run and pass by.

The good point naman is that i was able to pass first year college and survived in Ateneo even though i didn't had a high mark for my grades. oh well 3 for my qpi is not bad at all naman e, considering that i;ve already taken 12 units of mathematics during my first year.

Speaking of grades, i'm hapie with my summer sem grades because i'm really satisfied with it but there are instances that i would say "SANA" because if i have done those "SANA"s maybe i could get a higher grade than the grade i got.

my grade for summer sem
(let's start with the lowest..hahaha)

Math 195 G.1 (my class with Fr. Nebres) - i got a B pero i'm not quite satisfied with it because i wasn't really able to put my best effort to it..if only i recited or so maybe i'll get a B+ kasi all of my assignments and paper works are graded higher than B..and since recitation is 1/4 of our grade and i have just recited twice..the recitation grade pulled my grade to B than to B+..but its ok, whats done is done right..but this time i should work harder..:)
Literature 14 - i got a B+ but i also have my "SANA" here since i didn't study very hard for our finals that pulled my grade to B+..since my only problem in Lit is our essay quizzes but i passed them naman but its not that high and my other quizzes is satisfyingly high..maybe if only i read the Langauge of Paradox seriously maybe there is a possibility that i will get an A here. but its ok, its my fault and my loss. but i should not be defeated, il work harder as i said earlier..:D
Filipino 12 - im proud of this one - I got an A!!! yahhhooooo!!! ma'm pam cruz is really great!!! hehehe..:) and even though we had our sot of ARP here and other essay thingys, i still managed to get an A..hehe..:D sabi na nga ba, when it comes to writing in Filipino, i really do great than writing in English..hahaha..:D

and for my qpi for the summer sem is *drumroll*: 3.50

oh well, to stop this excitement, the bad news is we can't be a dl during the summer sem even though we got a qpi higher than 3.35[the qpi to be a dl] because we should have at least 15 units and during the summer sem we are only allowed with 9 units..:( haaayyy..but its ok, il just work hard this sem..:D and il show them that i can be a DL with my own sweat and blood..:D hehe..:D

so that's for my summer sem..:)

hmm, regarding my first sem this school year in able to be a dl i should get at least 2 As and at least 3 Bs..

my subjects:

Theology 121- I thought that our teacher is kewl but after our first quiz oh well, i'm disappointed with him..close-minded kasi siya, look its theology and walang mali doon right..and he'll just accept the answer that will satisfy him or which is just like his own perspective or view..so tell me, is he a real theology teacher, i think he's not..i don't wanna blab on his attitude but i think having that attitude won't make him a great theology teacher..but even though he's like that it wont stop me in getting a high grade, il work hard and il make sure that i'm going to satisfy him with my weapon: a weapon that is honed and built during my stay in STC my perspective and view regarding Theology..
Filipino 14 - wooow, our prof is a two time palanca winner but they told us he is a terror when it comes to papers..but i think il make it naman, il just work hard..:)
English 12 - ARP na! maybe il just make use of my ARP in Fili 12 and make some revisions of it..:D
Math 124 - I think i can be able to have an A or a B+ in here since some of the topics in math 124 were our lessons in STC in our advanced algebra class with sir benedicto!! yahhooo!!! this time il make sure that il excel in math! hehehe..:) but sadly, "dudugo ilong naming lahat" since our prof is a foreignor and he can only understand a little tagalog..:( but its ok as long as il work hard, i know that i can do it..hehe..:D
Math 22 - well, this is a continuation of math 21 and our prof is sir cabral and some told us that he's a great teacher but when it comes to exams its harders daw..i hope not..but if il study naman db it wont be that hard..maybe it was just the thinking of others, so i must not be affected by it..:)

so that's to for my first sem, i hope that i could be able to succeed with my goal..hehe..:D

btw, we have our nstp and pe pa pala..

PE 101 - my prof is miss clemente and she's kewl..i think..hehehe..:)
NSTP - every saturday and boss and i are in the same class kaya its super saya..:) hehe..:)

hmm, thats for my stories muna, hehehe..:)

btw, hapie 18th birthday IB!!!:D cant wait for your bday bash in McDonalds..hehehe..:D see yah soon and some of the iv4 batch 05..:D

cge i need to study pa..bye..:D

LICENSE!!!!

2006-05-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

huwah?!? i'm going to get a driver's license na..hahaha..:) GOOD LUCK TO ME!!! hahaha..:D

bahala na..my dad told me that he's going to help me raw..hahahaha..:) *I'm sooo dead..hahaha..:D i don't know if i'll make it right etc..hahahaha..:D i don't have my own car naman so what's the use..i dont wanna use the mirage..hahaha..:) [my tita is going to return our car kasi kaya..magiging 4 na ulit car namin]..furthermore, my parents were still debating if we will take the beatle for my brother..MAS GUSTO KO YUN!!! hehehe..:D *its kyut promise!!! hehehe..:D

nywy when my dad told me about the drivers license, my brother kristian abruptly interrupted..he told us, "hindi mo naman kailangan nandyan naman si dondee"..HA?!? hellow..i also need to learn how to drive noh..its an oppurtunity rin, particularly sa business world..they prefer employees na marunong magdrive..hehehe..:)

my dad wants me take a nonpro license na kasi my students license gonna expire na this june..so un..ahaaayyy..hahahaha..:D

FYI: i need to master how to drive within 2-3 weeks?!? huwah!!!! and i haven't handle the steering wheel for more than an hour!!! PATAY NA AKO!!!!

basta BAHALA NA!!! SO HELP ME GOD!!! AMEN!!

summah time

2006-03-30T12:52:00.000+08:00

at last! it's summer. but i should not forget the fact that i am going to have my summer sem also. having 9 units this summer, and 4 1/2 hrs of class at school everyday.

my classes:
* Math elective class with Fr. Nebres (it is nice to know that I am joining this invitational class. I am quite proud of it, but I am still let's say, freeking sad regarding my math21 subject. I think I am going to get a C+ or B for that subject..haaayyy, I am not the math whiz anymore. :( but some says that i am still a math nerd because for us, C+ and B is already a high grade for us BS MA students. whadaheck, we are learning the theories and concepts regarding calculus and not just solving problems..so i guess thats the problem.)
* Filipino 12 (Its gonna be writing, so no big deal for me. hehe. i love writing in filipino rather than in english(super tideous))
* Literature 14 (I love reading poems naman, and interpreting it. so, i guess i won't have a hard time on it)

oh well, im gonna live with those subjects for a month. its kinda tiring but i think im gonna love it. I am also having my training as PEM(Program of Excellence in Mathematics in AdMU) teacher with rayrand, james, julius and eds. :D I am so excited! hehe..:D

hmm, about my second sem..hmmm, i have nothing to say, since my life just revolved in MATH, CALCULUS, COMPUTER, PAPERS, etc. i think I will get a qpi ranging from 2.97-3.25. i hope im gonna reach at least 3 for my qpi.

expected grade:
Math 21 [6 units] - C+ or B
Environmental Science 10 [3 units] - B+ (oh gawd, di pa umabot ng A but I am happy that I am exempted in our finals. I got 90, which is equivalent to B+, for my grade ni ES10)
Environmental Science 12 [1 unit]- A (hahaha, lab lang, but im so proud of it)
Literature 13 [3 units]- B+ or A (my grade is ranging from 91-92. i hope that its gonna be 92 so that i will get an A)
English 11 [3 units] - C+ or B (haha, i didn't pay attention to it, super tideous, and "parang siya na lang ang subject namin sa dami ng pinapagawa niya..grrr..")
PE 116 [2 units] - A

hahahaha..the brainy katsy is gone..hahaha..:D il just gonna laugh at it, instead of crying. maybe, il just strive harder this summer and the next years to come. ah what, not maybe, I WILL!
stories about my life:

realization: hayy, once i step AdMU for the summer sem, I am going to be a sophomore student already. Time really flies by so fast. I am in second year, then third year, afterwards fourth year, and I won't notice that I already graduated. whatduh! so, to find cure to this hmm, let's say, madness, I am going to take up masteral "para hindi mabigla"..hehe..:)

stories:

*i took 2 final exam this sem..hahaha..:D im so hapie with it. being exempted in ES and having all my time for our paper for English since it serves as our final exam. haha..:) even though i took 9 units of exam last march 20, it is fine with me, since it was just Lit and Math. and i concentrated more in Math than Lit since our exam in Lit is concerning the novel we read: Smaller and Smaller Circles by F.H. Batacan. (This novel is really great, it is as if you were also the invesigator in the stroy. Btw, this is the first detective novel in the Philippines and its setting is just around Quezon City, specifically Katipunan, Payatas, and UP Village. The characters in this novel are Jesuit priests so if you are an Atenean you can relate into it.:D) Moreover, our final exam in Math is quite easy than our Long Tests)

*Story last friday: March 24, 2006: I went to AdMU to pass our project in Math(a program: Who wants to be a Mathematician?) and my paper in English. Afterwards we just stayed at the covered courts since rayrand, mark, mikko, and mike are playing basketball. As for the girls, kat, ayie and I were just talking about the block, boys, relationships, wedding etc. After the boys played basketball, they invited us to play Dota with them, but I declined since I didn't have enuogh sleep(I slept around 7:30am to finish our projects and i woke up around 10am, so I was really sleepy that time). As we were going off to Katipunan, Rayrand suddenly step on me..:( and he wrecked my slippers..waaahhhh..:'( (how will i go home now?) rayrand was confused and guilty at the same time. he even tried to carry me but i refuse. so he tried to fix my slippers and then suddenly i heard ayie talking (*hello, dondee..oo nandito si katsy) and ayie gave me the phone and i answered it.

dondee: saan ka?
me: manangs. bakit?
dondee: hintayin mo ko dyan.
me: HAAA?!? bakit?
dondee: basta, nandito na ako sa circle.
me: huwah!!!
dondee: sige hintayin mo ko dyan. bye.

*hahaha, my prince beautiful*

and then rayrand handed me a hundred bucks and told me to take a taxi and i told him that dondee is going to fetch me and i handed him back his hundred bucks. (si rayrand, nagbigay ng pera?!? *himala..ang kuripot kong blockmate bestfriend..hahaha..:D)

then we decided to go to Yellow Cab and they told me that i should text dondee and tell him to fetch me there, but as we were riding the tricycle, dondee came na.
super sweet talaga ni boss, we lend me his slippers nung nalaman niyang sira ung sa akin. and he walked barefooted. nakakahiya talaga.

when i got home, i told my mom and dad that napatid ang slippers ko. and they asked me how did i got home. so told them the whole sory, wow, good shot si boss ah.

*anyway, dondee fetch me nga pala because while we were testing, i told him that I am really sleepy na, and i wanna go home na. so un.

*story last March 27, 2006: boss and i met at mcdo visayas ave. around 9 am, because i am going to give him the 2k for the ipod (jason's payement)..and sasamahan niya ung brother ko sa swimming pool malapi sa kanila. so after that, we went to their house and burn our time talking and laughing. and we went to sm north to eat lunch and he brought me home na around 1 pm.

*another story for March 24, 2006 - its kuya rome's graduation, kayahe invited us to shang for a dinner celebration. hahaha, antok na antok ako but i still managed to attend that dinner. hehe..:)

Gimicks for summer:

STC - dei's house, cha's house, and prix's house
UP - I am going to join dei but i am not yet sure. this saturday na kasi.
Enchanted Kingdom - This sunday, with my blockmates! and boss!:D
Ktv - TGIS!
debut - gatz! april 8, 2006..:D hapie birthday!:D
AdMU - im not yet sure but i need to confirm kasi sa OAA regarding my brother, Allan.
Swimming Party - at Proj 8, we will going to ask permission pa..pero sana makapunta lahat!:D
Family trip - This Holy week, its either to a beach or to Baguio.

So thats for my summah post! hehehe..:)

yngats! and for the people who's going to have their vacation somewhere, have fun!:D

randomness

2006-02-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

its been quite awhile since the last time i posted something here..oh well, medyo busy kasi..papers, long tests, readings, lab reports..etc etc..and i can't use the internet at home since nagkaspyware ung computer namin..waaahhhhh..:(( but at least, after a month of wait and sacrifice of not using the computer, i was able to blog again..harharhar..:))

hmm..ok, il just list the things happened to me for the past month..

january

*whooowww, here's a date to remember..january 27..it's reb's bday..:D *hapie bday lolo reb!!! and another thing, this is the day that i first went to dondee's house..woah!!! hehehe..:D well..nagulat din ako..hehehe..:) unexpected..i dont wanna elaborate it pa..basta if you want some kwentos, call me or text me na lang..hehehe..:))

ok, what else...hmmm..january..hmmm..nothing much to say..since its kinda boring..puro math, calculus and papers..hehehe..:)

february - love month..harharhar..:D

ok, i wanna start with feb 8, final paper for english..oh gawd, sabog na ko..no sleep..:( and pumunta si dondee dito sa house para ipagpaalam ako for our date..last feb 11..nggaaawwww, pinasama ng mom ko ung kapatid ko..:(

feb 11- we went to eastwood, ate lunch at something fishy, watched fun with dick and jane, arcade..etc etc..tapos admu then tambay dito sa house..hehehe..:)

feb 14- syempre another special day..hehe..:) nilibot ni boss ang admu para hanapin kung nasan kami..he thought that sa manangs kami kakain ng lunch pero hindi..hehehe..:) so un, he went all the way to mcdo just to give me the flowers..tnx boss..:) *mwahugs!!!:D awabu!!!:D

feb 18 - PEM ulit!!! at before that nag-away kami ni dondee..grrr..bad ka kasi!!! tulugan ba raw ako..una sa ym, at ngaun sa landline..*tsk tsk tsk!!! gumawa pa ng palusot..di na lng nagsori at sinabi ung totoo..basta ayun..so after my class, he surprised me..pumunta siya ng admu kahit sa saturday..and he apologized..*sob *sob *sob..so un, i forgave him din naman, di ko rin kayang magalit ng matagal sa kanya, naiiyak lang ako..:( so after nun, we ate lunch..then palibut-libot ng admu until 3 pm..and we went to their house and afterwards hinatid niya ako sa bahay around 5 pm..mejo hindi planado but i had fun..being with him..haaayyyy..i weally love him..:D

so un, tpos ung iba ung normal stuffs: CALCULUS, MATH, PAPERS, at kung anu2 pa..haaaayyy..kaya ko 2..:) oh well, i need to go na rin, i need to study for our long test for math AGAIN!!!:((

kaya ko 2..hehehe..:D bye..:D

spur of the moment

2006-01-22T16:23:00.000+08:00

every second is important..you won't realize until something happened..that second of my life..hmm..let's say, some what made me happie..:)

i was kinda surprised at first but i am happie to know that he's beside me that time..that time also i thought of it as a perfect cliche..and now, i want to make every second that im with him be spectacular..

ok, change the topic naman, some things that happened to me during this week:

it was kinda stressful coz we need to do many things for school..especially last friday..super nakakapagod..i had my pe class and we had our pratical exam..and yahooo, i passed!!! hehehe..:) super hirap kasi e..:D and afterwards my blocmates and i ate our lunch at manangs..then we went to our 1130 class na..:) ES..:) then 12:30-1:30 is math 21..ok, Manila Bay na..:) since ayie need to do some stuff pa for AMS, we waited for her at zen garden until 2pm..and then we went to Manila Bay na..and we went back to admu around 5..then we stroll around ateneo with dondee until 6..sinamahan pa kasi namin sila athan, they have their midterms kasi sa math e..and we also went to sec c to water our plants..:D hehehe..:)

then we went home na..:)

yesterday naman, i taught HS students for PEM..hahaha..:)) nalate ako ng gsing since 1 am na kami nakauwi from my cousin's bday party..and i arrived at admu around 7:30..sowie tlga papa mike..sowie if naghintay ka for 30 mins..so un PEM 8-12..ahaaayyy, wala pa ang magtuturo sa level 1..patay so i need to fill in for james muna..and i dunno what to teach them coz the topic assigned to me is combination and it's for the level 2 PEM students..ahaayyy...and luckily, james came that was 8:30 na ata..buti na lang..hehe..:) natataranta na kasi ako e..:) and then i went to the level 2's classroom..and mike was discussing permutations..and natapos siya ng maaga so we're obliged to give them an early long break..and then i started teaching combination naman around 10 until 11..patay, they should be dismissed ng 12 pa so i told them that we will have our kwentos instead..:)

so after that dondee came para sunduin ako sa class and we went to katips to eat lunch..afterwards we went to my house to watch the video last january 14, my debut..:D haaayyy, i want to be with him always talaga..i miss him already..hehehe..:)

so that's it..mejo boring week, but i really had fun..:) and i did had the perfect moments of my life during this week..:D hehe..:)

sige i need to study for my midterms pa e..:D buhbye..:D

excess: *yeah, ssssssoooooooooooooo sssssooooooooooooofffffffffffffffffffftttttttt talaga!!! awabuberimach!!!:D

im back..my best birthday ever!!!:D

2006-01-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

after a long week of not putting anything at this blog..finally, its time for me to tell my juiciest and happy stories..:D

actually first thing that i can say is that i was super depressed last week because of our reporting at lit..because let's say, our lit teacher is looking for other interpretation and she didn't liked ours..which really made us sad..knowing that we were really engrosed at our presentation, interpretations and study..:( well, i hope she is not reading my blog, but for me, she's so bias because she compared us to the other group of her morning class...because she liked more the presentaion of that group than ours..well, kumbaga gulong ng palad nga naman..:(

after that, we also had our long test 2 for math..which really hmm..made me "walang gana" with math..but i guess that didn't left me a choice but to study for math pa rin since the next day after that was our math midterms naamn..

i know naman that i won't get high score..and il be expecting for that..haaayyyy..but at least i was able to answer the problems naman e..sana nga lang tama..

all of my math blockmates were depressed that time and they decided to eat at gayuma..but for me, i need to go home so that i will have a good rest for the next day: MY DEBUT..:D

oh well, i won't elaborate that much about my debut..kasi this entry will be too long if i do so..

so first, we went to tranquil mode spa to do my hair and make up..and it turned pretty well, because most of them did liked my hair and make up..they don't usually see me like that kasi e..kaya they weren't able to recognize me kagad..:) hehehe..:)

the party started around 7:30..hahaha..:)) late na..dapat kasi 6pm..hehe..:) Pilipino kasi e..hehe..:D so first we had our opening prayer and remarks and afterwards the dinner na..and while eating dinner..may mga performance din..first was my tita minda and my cousin joshua..he's so kyut tlga!!! hehehe..:D then eat..eat..eat..afterwards, it was rayrand's turn na to sing, he sang when you say nothing at all[i really loved what you did with the second voice..its kyut!!!], and wherever you will go..:D after that it was ayie's turn..she sang 3 songs naman..imago..and i forgot the other songs na..:) and at that time, kumakain na ako ng dinner..hehehe..:D *sarap ng food!!!:D

and then ang impromptu na kanta nila dulay at mimi..which is my immortal..at sinabayan naman sila ng tugtug nila dondee, reb and jas[these guys are my bestest guy friends ever, kaya nga kasama kayo sa tgis e]..:D heheh..:D and then the 18 roses followed..:D

my 18 roses are:

my dad
my brother allan -proxy: kristian because allan need to go somewhere that time..:(
tito nandy
ninong lito
tito rene
tito edison- proxy: my cousin joshua
kuya rome
kuya matthew: my twin!!!
kuya jonathan
fidel
papa mike
pareng mark
pao itim
pao puti
rayrand my buddyguard
reb - *cough *cough ang daming nabading sau!!!
dondee!!! my boss angel..:D

then dea sang a song, prinsesa ng puso mo by sara geronimo..:D tnx dei..:D

then the 18 candles na..:D

my 18 candles are:

ate kath
ate yola
ate tetet
mama piling: my lola
jenny
cheska
tin
prixie
dei
cha
illin
poi- proxy: kat dulay..because poi is sick e..:(
tle- proxy: mimi..hindi kasi pinayagan si tle..:(
ate nikki!!!
ayie
rina
kat
janeen

so after that, the best "band" sang na..:D it is composed of reb, dondee and jas..:D [daming nagalingan sa inyo..even my blockmates had a crush on reb na kagad]..hahaha..:D

they sang 5 songs: kung wala ka, you're everything to me[compose ni dondee saakin], rain, my gril, hit me baby one more time[d best ka reb!!!]..and there is also an impromptu song..kasi hiniling ng blockmates ko: hanggang kailan..:D D BEST KAYO GUYS!!!:D you made my debut smashing!!!:D

then after that was the tgis's surprise dance number for me..awww..tnx guys!!! i really love you guys!!! sobrang napaiyak talaga tayo sa 18 candles..miss ko na kayo sobra!!!

then it was followed by the dance party na!!! whoow, there's a jive or rather combination of old songs and the new songs..galing talaga!!! lahat na-engganyong magsquare dance!!!yeeeeyyyy!!!!:D *don't break my heart..blah blah..:D i dont know the lyrics kasi e..:D hehe..:D may mga ballroom dances din kaya masaya..:D hehe..:) and natapos ang lahat ng alas dos ng madaling araw..:D hehehe..:D galing noh!!!

basta i wanna thank the people na super naging impact sa buhay ko..:D super thanks tlga..:D thanks din sa pagpunta niyong lahat!!!:D kahit hindi nakapunta ung iba due to some conflicts na rin sa sched nila..but it's ok..i understand them..:D

katsy..will never forget that day of her life..:D *next time im gonna put some pictures dito..:D

my burpday

2006-01-10T21:19:00.000+08:00

i really had a great time spending my day being with my blockmates and friends knowing that it was my birthday..everyone i know, greeted me with a smile on their faces..which brightened my day..:) even the people who are not that close to me, greeted me which made me to feel great..:)

i just wanna thanks the people who made my life very meaningful and full of wonders..:) lahat kayo nagcontribute para mabuo ang isang katrina mariano na kilala nyo ngayon..:D hehehe..:)

so un..:)

mga kaganapan sa buhay ko:

january 7 - i went to admu to see the result of the acet..and sadly, my brother didn't make it..but expected na rin daw niya coz nahirapan din siya and he took honor courses kasi..:( and after that my mom and i went to mateo to photocopy the sample long tests 2..then we also went to the math department coz my prof told me that he left the handouts that i needed for PEM[for my lesson plan]..but wala pla..haaayyy..and then we went also to ctc 302 para manggulo kay rayrand at makita na rin ung mga students ko..hehehe..:D ang nice noh, studyante ko..hehehe..:)

after admu, we went to a flower shop and then to red ribbon para naman sa cake..hehe..:) for my debut..:D

then by 2 pm..dumating naman si dondee pati si reb sa house para magpractice for their presentation..since jas was not home pa..nandun muna sila sa house namin and it turned out na hindi makakauwi c jas ng maaga kaya they weren't able to practice ng maxado..so instead..dondee and reb played nba 2005 sa room ng brother ko..hehehe..:)

january 8- STUDY STUDY CAAAALLLLLLCCCCCCCCUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLLLLUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSS

january 9- my birthday..thanks sa mga naggreet..:D thank you sobra..:D basta un..:D i really had a great time that day...:) and dondee is sooo sweet..he gave me a boquet of rose..3 roses..awwww....:) hehehe..:D

january 10- i thought my bestfriend neil forgot my birthday AGAIN..but he still greeted me kanina and he told me that he's going to try to go to my debut..*thanks best..:D but if di kaya don't pressure yourself na makapunta..at least i saw your effort of trying..hehehe..:D

*btw, dondee's dad showed me one of dondee's pic when he was five years old..he told me that someone wants to greet me and he showed the picture to me..awww..he's so kyut...:D hehehehe..:D

*basta un, thanks guys..:D ngayon na ako'y 18 na..i assure you guys ako pa rin ang kat na magulo, mababaw, kalog at makulit..hehehe..:D

tiring but fun

2006-01-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

hmm..january 4, 2006..ohh gosh..first day of school after christmas break..well, im really glad to see my blockmates and friends again..:) but it was just that i'm a bit bum pa..and the sad thing is we'll have our long test 2 and midterms in MATH 21 next week..waaahhh..d ble, i was able to open my book naman during the vacation and studied 3.1 till 3.5..so i guess it will lessen the burden na..:) hehe..:)

i came at admu around 6:30 in the morning..aga noh?!?..my class will start kasi ng 7:30..kaya un..hehe..:) so the usual stuff..wait at sec walk..then pupunta si dondee..:) kulitan until 7:30..and after my ES lab which ended earlier[9:00] than the usual[9:30] we went to caf up to rest and have our juiciest stories that are stored during the vacation..then played pusoy dos and ate lunch and just waste our time until 11:30..since 11:30 is my second class which is ES naman..hehe..:) but before that..i saw dondee' blockmates and they sat at the next table of ours..and afterwards there he was again..:) hehehe..:) kulit kulit..*mwah *mwah *mwah..hehehe..:) ang dami nun promise..lagpas pa ata sa 50 ung ginawa mo buong day..hahaha..:) [reason: miss daw niya ako..awwww..hehehe..:)]..i missed him din sobra..:D when it is already 11:15, we went to our ES class..then our next class is CALCULUS..ohhh gawd..WE SPEND ONE HOUR TO SOLVE ONE PROBLEM..which is hindi pa rin tapos..at tatapusin ko dito sa bahay..grabeh..sasabog na utak ko..maybe?!? hehehe..:) i hope not..:) so after that we had our 2 hour break..usually 1 hour lng but we have freecut sa english kaya un..then my last class is lit..:) hahahaha..:) *katsy hindi nagbasa..our teacher didn't told us kasi to read the story..kaya un..but im glad pa rin i was able to analyze the story while we are in class..:) ang saya nga e..im so proud of muhself..:) i dont have any idea about the story and it was quite symbolic and historical..hehe..:) and still i was able to recite..:) sobrang active kasi ako sa lit class namin even at our english class..hehe..:)

anyways after our lit class..hahahahaha..:)) nandyan na naman si dondee..he was dragging tantan[my english blockmate who used to be his classmate during there HS years]..hehe..:)

ang kulit talaga ni boss ever..we just sat at zen garden with my blockmates..:) anyway, there's aim and xandee too..[*cough *cough]..i won't talk about it muna..kasi sa akin pa lang sinasabi ni aim..:) hehe..:) SABI NA NGA BA EH!!! hehehe..:D basta un..:) btw, xandee is also dondee's former classmate noong 1st yr HS..while we are there, aim and i were just listening how they were toturing rayrand back then..hehe..:) *ang sama nyo sobra!!!! lalo na si boss..*about the lock thingy[hahaha..:)) thingy..omg..paolo!!! nahahawa ako sau..hehehe..:)]

oh before i forgot..kinukulit din namin si ayie..because ayie's friend jiza and dondee's former CSO mate, dino, was there..ang liit ng mundo noh!!! because c dino at si jiza..and jiza is ayie's former schoolmate at assumption sa lorenzo..ang galing noh!! hehehe..:) so un..:)

after that we went home na..i think its around 5:30 na rin..hehehe..:)

hmm..basta ang masasabi ko..masaya ako sa first day of classes ko even though sobrang napagod ako..hehe..:)

di bale isang class lng nmn ako every TTH..hehehe..:) so un..:)

*excess: i met reb nga pla kanina and pumayag siya to sing on my birthday..yeeeyyy!!! sila raw ni dondee and jas..:D ang saya..:D hehehe..:D i can't wait na talaga..kahit sila papa ayie and pareng mark..hehe..:D

cge yngats na lng guys..:D i need to study Calculus pa e..:D bye..:D

back to Calculus..papers..reports..

2005-12-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

in 5 days time im going to push myself back to my super serious study mode again..its like that im not that serious at my studies right now..i still feel the air of vacation..a vacation which is away from my paper works, equations, derivatives..etc etc..

anyways, i've been super busy thinking who'll be my 18 roses and my 18 candles..oh well i completed my list na..:) and im super excited about it..hehe..:) i cant wait for my debut..which will be going to be a concert-party-dance debut..:) *yeah..hehe..:) daming kakanta..ang saya..:D hehe..:)

haaayyyy, actually even though we are bombarded with different stuff at school..i still miss school..especially my boss angel dondee..i haven't seen him for 11 days na..and i do feel sad about it..i miss the *punch *poke *pinch *kick..etc..hehe..:) *yeah i miss punching my boss..hehe..:)

but since i have onderza[wala pa ring name ung stufftoy..pangatlong anak namin..our panganay is tin, next is nuknuk..the stufftoy i gave him on his last bday] i can imagine that im hugging him so tight..hehe..:)

basta balik na ako sa pag-aaral..hehe..:)

CALCULUS mode.........hehe..:)

ohh btw..

HUFIE NEW YEAR!!! 2006!!!

my chwistmas

2005-12-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..maybe most of you know about what happened noong mga nakaraang linggo..those were the days that i dont wanna happen again..:(

and i just realized that i do love him so much..siguro nagsimula sa maling move, sa maling pagkakaintindihan..but he apologized naman e..i dont wanna elaborate it more..coz ayoko na ring pag-usapan pa..at pagkuhanan pa nga mga chismis..

hmmm, well, nagustuhan ko talaga ung approach na ginawa niya dun sa rose but when rayrand suddenly told me na sorry daw..parang nagalit talaga ako nun..panu ba naman sincere ba un..NOO..wait wait wait..stop na nga ako..

basta ang masasabi ko lang..sana di na tlga maulit pa un..sana..

hmm..il just list the things happened to me na lang the past days..sobrang hirap if im going to tell you the whole story pa e..

december 6- nag-away kami ni dondee..basta super nagkalabuan..super naging mabigat lang ung issue..

december 9- nagkabati kami

december 12-16- wala nmng nangyari..basta ARAL ARAL ARAL..CALCULUS..ay eto pla PAPERS!!!!! sa english..pamatay si paez..*reb if you're reading this..yeah..nakakaasar na nga tlga ung pinapagawa ni paez..pero kailangang gawin e..:( no choice tayo e..

december 19- dondee gave me his christmas gift..stufftoy..:D wala pa ngang name e..but sabi ni tin gusto niya girl daw..pra 2 na raw clang gurl..since c nuknuk boy na..:)

*ito pa pla..nung morning laurence texted me and told me that daryl's mom died last sunday..at first di ako naniniwala but its true pla..ang sad tlga..even though d na kami close ni daryl..syempre nalulungkot pa rin ako para sa kanila..he's mom is super bait talaga..maybe il juts paray for his mom na lang..

december 20- i gave my gift to dondee sa manangs..and it's a box..designed with stars..and i wrote there: if i could hold one star every time he makes me happy, maybe, i would have the entire night sky in my hands..:D hehe..and inside the box..i placed bigger stars..and i wrote dun the reasons why i love him..:D hehe..:)

*afterwards i went to funenaria paz para dumalaw na rin sa mom ni daryl..

december 21- we went to greenhills..:) and then afterwards to my lola..:D

december 22- ayie, chan, mading and i went to manila bay for our group project..:) and then, i wento to dei's house for our kada christmas party..:D i really had fun..:D

december 23- louie's bday

december 24- dito lang sa house..:) christmas eve..:D mass..:D

december 25- sa tita yoly ko sa fairview..and sa project 8..:D sa lola ko..:D

december 26- nag-isip ng gagawin for my debut..:D *yyyeeeyyyyy!!! hehehe..:D sa january 14 na!!!:D i cant wait na..:D hehehe..:) basta may presentation ung mga blockmates, close friends, relatives..at kung cnu2 pa..im really looking forward to it..:D

so un lang..medyo stressful..but i had fun..:) at school..christmas season..at lahat2 na..:D

hapie birthday Jesus!!!:D hehehe..:D

Kung Wala Ka

2005-12-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

Natapos na ang lahat
Dito pa rin ako
Heto nakatulala
Sa mundo, sa mundo...

Di mo maiisip
Di mo makikita
Mga pangarap ko
Para sa'yo, para sa'yo...

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

Nariyan ka pa ba?
Di ko na madama
Kung merong madaraanan
Pasulong, pasulong...

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig na lulan ng aking pinagtatanto
Sundan mo...
Ang paghimig ko

Ohh...hindi ko maisip kung wala ka
Ohh...sa buhay ko..

excess: waaaahhh..la salle lost at the all star game of la salle vs. ateneo..NOOOOO!!!! 88-85..tsamba lang ang 3 points ng admu..:( anu ba yan, considering that im an atenean im still cheering for la salle..hehehe..:D

Magmahal Muli

2005-12-07T20:42:00.000+08:00

Umaasang magmamahal muli
Ang buong akala ko'y siya na
Kabiguan ang napala
Paghilom ng puso'y hindi madali
Ang malamang mahal mo’y
Walang pag ibig sayo

Ang umasang magmahal muli
Siyang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag-ibig
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating sayo

Hanggang sa tayo’y matuto
Sa kabiguan natamo
Kaya ako ay maghihintay
Sa tunay kong mahal
Isipin ang bukas at kalimutan ang nakalipas

Ang umasang magmahal muli
Siyang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag-ibig
Ito'y darating sayo
Aking naranasan
Ohhhhhhh
Ang pagluha ng tulad sa ulan

Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Siyang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
Ito'y darating
Ang umasang magmamahal muli
Siyang magagawa
Huwag hanapin ang pag ibig
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating
Ito'y darating sayo

Ohhhhhhh…..ito'y darating sayo

my real prince charming haven't find my castle..hope you could build my broken heart..

saying goodbye is never easy, but i should..:(

i love him but i need to..:(

wishing..

2005-12-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

hehe..:) its really great that we don't have classes today (after this very tiring week because of our reports etc etc.).instead we have our ACP day..wherein we will register for our choice of class..which includes politics, business, culture and tradition, lukso, reformation, etc..actually i find it great and useful since these classes will really help us to enhance our skills..but sadly to say, i wasn't able to register for the class that i want since there is no enough slot na..:( instead i register myself at passion for fashion and lukso..and another sad thing is, the passion for fashion class was dissolved because only 22 students signed for that subject, and the minimum requirement is 30 students..:(

so i dont have any choice but to attend the lukso: acp show..it's quite fun because of the bands..etc etc..and the great part is the stand up comedy of jon santos..now, i can write something for my english paper which is due this monday..hehe..:D i thought that i can't write anything about the ACP class..but jon santos is really my savior..hehehe..:) tnx for the learnings we were able to get from your stand up comedy..it did helped me a lot to brainstorm for what will i write for my paper..hehe..:)

enough about that..i wanna tell about the suffering i had kanina..kasi i arrived at admu around 430..and then i went to sec c to water my plant..etc etc..:) when i got to the college covered courts, i can't find my blockmates..i texted rayrand, and ayie and my other blockmates..but only rayrand and ayie were able to reply..and ayie told me that she's still in makati and it is uber traffic so she'll be super late..so i got no choice..:( another, before, dondee and i talked about the acp class.since he doesn't have a class he told me that we're going to the same class na lang which is the acp show..so un..but it turned out that his blockmates will also attend the acp show..so ok lng..but the sad thing..realizing that im all alone at the grounds of ateneo and no one to talk to didn't even gave him the idea to accompany me etc etc..so i got mad at him..because he didnt even checked at me..:(

i got really mad at him, but when i went to the covered court na..i saw him coming..at first im not talking to him but eventually i told myself why should i ruin my night..it is just a childish thought..etc etc..so we enjoy the night na lang..

during the show, the people told us that the band bamboo, cant make it due to their agreement about the payment..awww..:( so they told us that we can get our refunds..but they are telling us that we should give it na lang for the pathways..so since ganun..we have no choice kasi kami pa ung papakonsensyahin..hehe..:)

so its already 9 na..and dondee's dad already texted him asking if where he is..so he asked me if i wanna go home na..sabi ko its up to him..when we are going home na..we need to get our IDs at the attendace area, because we need to surrender our IDs upon the entrance because we can only go home by 9..so enough about that..when we got their, a man gave us our IDs kagad..so i was suprised on how the guy noticed if anu ung ID namin ni dondee dun..it turned out that the guy who gave us our IDs was dondee's intact faci..he told me that sort kinumtsaba nya ang intact faci niya..because he told his intact faci that if ever the number 204 come na ittext daw siya..since once we get in we can never go out until it strikes 9pm na..i was deeply ashamed that time..because i got mad at him because i thought he was not thinking about my situation..im really sowie to think such thing like that..:( im sori..i know he's not reading my blog but i still wanted to say sori..:(

basta ayun, i really love my boss angel dondee..:D i hope it won't happen again..hehe..:)

a late greeting

2005-11-21T20:24:00.000+08:00

it feels great that you have been able to keep a special friend for a long time..like my bestfriend neil..neil and i know each other for four years already..and im really really glad that after all these years, he never failed to make my life meaningful..even though we faced many challenges of life, we still continue to make our friendship strong..as i said before even the bridge between us is dilapidated, we will still continue to make our friendship strong..

i know, it is uber hard to keep someone special as him..maybe the people who are reading my posts for the past year will understand what im talking about..yeah, he's been a great part of muh life..i DID loveD him..maybe, it is one of the hindrances why we can't make our friendship as strong as before..because there is something like a barrier which says that we should not be..as we are now..its so hard..i still love him as my bestfriend..but i dont know what is this hindrance making us apart from each other..maybe, the answer will be the life that we have right now and even the people that are beside us..well, you know who's these people are..it's the people that we trully love right now..i know that both of us are happie being with the person we love..frenches and him..dondee and i..

another encumbrance is distance..if only distance is not important..but i can't change that..he's in baguio while i'm here in manila..even though technology contributed big time in making our friendship strong..technology is also the factor why we made our lives miserable..miserable in such a way that through technology we have learned to cry, pain was also introduced to us and even the word love,which led to our own despair..

i have one message for my bestfriend..if i only have one friend left, i wanted him to be that friend..:) and i wanna thank him for being such a great part my life..:)

i wanna share this song to him: ONE FRIEND by Dan Seals

HAPIE 4th ANNIVERSARY BEST!!!
November 19, 2005..:D

a perfect star

2005-11-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

hehehe, today is what i can say as a wonderful day or rather a perfect day for me..:) i woke up around 7..since dondee and i gonna meet at mcdo around 10 am..hehe..:) *i know it's too early..i thought of waking myself that early so that i won't be late etc etc..hehe..:)

so un, i started fixin myself around quarter to 8..and i finished around 9..then i ate breakfast and i went to mcdo quarter to 10..hehe..:)

then we went off to eastwood..hahaha..:)) dondee is really funny..it was his first time to drive alone..oh not that..it is his first time to drive going to eastwood..so he was saying that sana di kami maligaw..haha..:) so un..:)

luckily, hindi kami niligaw..and when we got there, we saw rayrand and anna..:) *cough *cough..hahaha..:) rayrand? anna? ahem ahem..love is in the air..:D hahaha..:)

so un, we decided to go to the ticket booth first to look what time will be the movie..and we saw that there is an 11am start and another is a 12noon start..since the cinema for the 11am is almost full, we agreed that we'll take the 12noon instead..:) then we bought our tickets..hahaha..:) 150 php na pala sa eastwood..the last time i watched a movie at eastwood, it was just 120 bucks..hahaha..:) *how pathetic katsy, the movie that you're pertaining to is 2 years ago..hahaha..:)

then we decided to eat lunch at fazolis..:) haha..:) rayrand and banana: ate pizza..while dondee and i ate pasta and salad..:)

afterwards, we went to the movie house..:)

and i suddenly realized that i forgot to drink my medicine..so dondee and i gotta rush to buy a drink..so that i will drink my medicine..:) and when we went back..the movie will going to start any minute so sakto lang pala..hehe..:)

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire..waaahhh, ang sad talaga..:( actually the movie is great..it's just sad to realize that someone died..im just controlling myself..controlling myself not to cry..because of my bad experience, when we watched dubai, with my kada and boss..dondee shouted to my friends: naiyak si kat..so better not cry na..sama kasi niya..:( hehehe..:) *joke..hehe..:)

after the movie we went to power station pa..actually i am ot feeling well already that time..but i told myself that i dont want him to worry and make that day smashing perfect..and then, dondee's dad[lolo ni tin]..hahaha..:)) texted dondee na..and his dad was looking for him already..since 4pm na nun..hehe..:) we decided to go home na rin, since im not feeling well na rin..syempre im not yet telling that to him..i dont wanna spoil that moment with him..hehe..:)

i just told him that may sinat na ako, nung bumaba na ako ng car..hehe..:) and since i promised him that im going to rest..i tried to rest kanina..and i didn't notice that i fell asleep..and i slept for 3 straight hours..*nice..hehe..:)

and kanina, we were talking sa phone..and dondee is really tired..you can notice it through his voice..hehe..:) so i told him to rest na..kaya un..hehe..:) ako ngaun ay nakaharap sa computer, at nagpapaantok..hehe..:)

hehehe..:) im looking forward for Exorcist..:) hahaha..:) dondee is afraid kasi with horror movies..kaya yan..harharhar..:D

basta ayun, nakakapagod ngunit isa sa mga masayang araw ng buhay ko..:D

i weallly weally wuv muh boss angel dondee..:D hehehe..:)

escape thought

2005-11-18T09:07:00.000+08:00

well, our first week of our second sem is almost over..im here, typing at rizal lib..making my own view of my stay for this second sem..it's so hard to believe that i'm really growing up..and m not a child anymore that the people need to guide..

it's so sad to realize that i need to make my own decisions, make my own plans, make my future..

before, i thought it was really easy to establish what you wanted to be, but now, i realized that being in college will change some of your perspectives..haaayyy, buhay nga naman..

i thought that what i did during my high school years is already a sign for my good future..but it isn't..i need to strive more this college..and push myself to the limit..or best, if i will exceed my limit and make my limit formula- does not exist..[calculus]

oh gawd, i hope i can..it's so hard..but sometimes we need to sacrifice for our own good..but will it be my own good, if im dying of this what they call, hell year..or should i say a hell course..yeah, my course is really hard and i didn't expect that i will have the hard time with our math classes..because if you'll come to think of it..when the day i started to learn, to count, to read and write..im already good, or rather should i say im excellent whenever it comes to numbers..logic..etc, etc..

but even though that im just an average student that i am now..im still hapie that being average is good, people are not expecting too much of you..and they will also have the average treat that you wanted than a plastic treat just to have an assignment or just to copy your assignment..well, we can't escape that..people are really like that, and we can't change it..:)

nywy today is boss angel dondee's birthday:

HAPIE 19th BIRTHDAY BOSS ANGEL DONDEE!!!

i hope he did like the gift..because it so happened that i had difficulties regarding the bowl because i can't find a small sized fish bowl..and i ended up buying this medium sized one..and the stars that i made is not enough so i have to think of an alternative..

and that alternative is:

before, i've been keeping this stuff toy for future use..or as a gift..so now, i used the stuffed toy and placed it inside the bowl..and this teddy is surrounded by stars, which i made during the sem break..

i also included the booklet that i made for the dedications..:) hehehe..:)

anyway, to add more spice for my story about his gift..yesterday, i was really frustrated that i might not find a good container or bowl for his gift..i went to a pet shop..and they dont have a stock..i went to a candle store..they don't have a glass container..i went to 3 flower shops..and they don't also have what i've been looking for..then to a pet shop again..then suddenly, my tito saw me, and asked me what im looking for..so i told him that im looking for a bowl..so he helped me, and dropped me at UP..lucily, i found one..but the smallest size that they have is the medium sized bowl..haaayyyy..:( but at least i found one..hehehe..:)

and another is i finished his gift at around 430 in the morning of the day of his birthday..hahahaha..:)) *nice..hehehe..:)

so that's it..:)

i gave the gift to him this morning at manangs..around 7:30..and later this afternoon..he's going to fetch me at kotska, because he wanted that we'll go home together..and he doesn't want me to take a jeep..etc etc..just like yesterday..when i told him that i will go home na..but he asked a favor that i'll walk with him..so he told me that he will just dop me off at the nearest tricycle terminal..which ended up, dropping me off at my home..dondee, sobrang kulit talaga..:) hehehe..:) but even though he's makulit..im still hapie that he's beside me..and he'll be there no matter what..hehehe..:)

anyways, im looking forward for our lakad tomorrow..hehehehe..:) with rayrand, banana, paolo puti and a date of paolo..db nice triple date..hehehe..:)

actually it was supposed with dondee nga lang..but rayrand told me that he's going out with anna also..at the same venue, same date..same with paolo..so, ayun, triple date..hehehe..:)

harry potter and the goblet of fiere tomorrow, can't wait..:D hehehe..:D *chuckles*

i gtg..need to finish my assignment for calculus..:) byeee..:)

*excess: i wanna thank you all the people who helped me to finish my gift for dondee..rayrand-for the tips when im already hurting myself while im doing his gift, my kada- for the messages, my blockmates- for supporting my idea etc etc..ralph-dondee's blockmate- for the dedications of your blockmates..reb- for the message..and everybody who helped me..:) THANK YOU VERY MUCH!:D

sick of my life..my worst hapie life..

2005-11-12T13:15:00.000+08:00

hhaaayyy, sometimes i would just end up crying..i dunno..maybe, nasasaktan nga talaga ako..

its like you cant control everything..haaaayyyyy........

maybe, i just need some space for myself..to think..to reflect..and everything..haaayyyy, hindi ako ganito dati..:(

pero ewan..i just need a shoulder to cry on..isa lang ang naiisipan kong makausap ng maayos..my bestfriend..kaso lang ang issue na sasabihin ko sa kanya ay maaaring maging dahilan pa para masaktan ko siya..kaya wag na..kung sa iba..ewanko kung maiintindihan nila..

but im really sad that this is happening to me..and now, i really really really feel sick..hirap ng situation ko kasi kahit ako kahit utak ko hindi ko matahimik at matigil sa kakaisip..:( I HATE THIS SH**..

maybe, i will concentrate on my studies na lang..stop pretending that my life is beautiful etc..because im not happie living like this, having this what they call..lucky life..lucky saan? nakakainggit? wag kayong ma-inggit, may kapalit ang mga swerte sa buhay at yun ung mga burden na kailangan pasanin habang nagiging masaya ka..kahit ang buhay mo ay napapalibutan ng iyak at lungkot..

cge i gtg na..bye..

my bragged thoughts by many songs of life

2005-11-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

many things have been bragging me around by some songs of my life..i just don’t know how to express it..

"should i take one step away?" just like what the song says in the song of parokya ni edgar, which is your song..

what if i find myself coming back?

coming back for what?

for my worst nightmares?

for my saddest dreams?

for my deepest sadness?

what if that step away, would be my step for nothingness in my life..another hole..another black spot..another emptiness..i dont wanna make a mistake..

a mistake that will lead me to my own sorrow..

but another song will turn things into a sad mood..a sudden play of the song of hale, kung wala ka..will bring a new mood to another person..

I am thinking,.yeah..its like I cant live again without you..i cant even think what life would be when your not part of my life..

While im playing these songs, many thoughts, many dreams, many tears..is trying to control me..they even govern my feelings..i don’t know to whom ive been crying for..

For myself? Maybe..but my heart aches, as I listen to these songs..as my tears starts to fill my eyes..i cant control myself to think of my deepest defeat in my life..what if i lose someone..i cant accept that..i just cant..

i just hope it wont happen..

i just wanna continue this dream of my true happiness

i dont wanna go back to the days, where tears continuously flow..

i just want follow the silence..and be able to catch my dream for forever..a dream of my happiness..and a dream for the happpiness of the other people..

anyway, im wrting this post because of the songs that made a great impact to me..but dont you worry guys, im still happy with my life..:) its just that i wanna express what i feel about the song..hehehe..:) but the truth is, magulo rin ung feelings ko about the song..hehehe..:) if ever you notice it..hehe..:)

well, that's all..hehehe..:) super lapit n ng second sem!!! kaya natin 2..:D

chemistry, grades, final marks..

2005-11-07T16:21:00.000+08:00

i was not that upset about my grade..but its just that im expecting that i will have higher grade or so..i got a qpi of 3..and to be a dl, we need a qpi of 3.35..haayyy..next sem, il try na talaga..super try..:D

and another thing my teacher next sem will be mr. winfer tabares, our math 18 teacher's husband..db nice..hehe..:) but the bad news, i heard from rayrand that my lit teacher is one of the terror teachers in ateneo..waahhh..NNNOOOO..

bad news number 2..i can't choose chem as my nat scie because they told us that it would be difficult for us, math majors, to take that subject..i understand them but i really want to take up chemistry..i love chemistry..and i know it would be easier for me if il take that subject..haayyy..bahala na si lord..im just wishing that il get higher grades next sem and another is i wanted to be a dl..kaya ggawin ko na lahat ng makakaya ko..:)

cge till here muna..:) il make kwentos some other time..:D bye..:D

excess: but im still glad that i got high grades..:D even though i dont have an A..dapat next sem mayroon na..:) and that would be all of my subjects dapat..hehe..:D

my own madness..it's killing me..

2005-10-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

i really feel bad for myself..i do miss him a lot..and i can't stop thinking of him..one week of not seeing him..i wasn't able to punch him, hug him etc for a week..waaahhhh..:( i really miss him..

and then he can't make it tomorrow..at stc's family day..:( waaahhhh..

ayoko na!!!! di ko na kaya!!! i can't help it..

every minute, every second..all i can think of is him..HIM..waaaahhhh........

i wanna hug him tight..arrrggggghhhhhh..

why is this happening to me...

maybe, all i can do is to lie down, and rest my mind..

and maybe, dream of my own prince charming..**waaaahhhh, my prince charming..[question: panu magigising si sleeping beauty if she wouldn't allow his prince charming to kiss her? haha]...

ok, ok, better stop this madness..i need to sleep early..im going to wake up around 4am pa..haaayyy..good night..:)

silence..when my mind speaks loud..

2005-10-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

i have something in my mind right now, some thoughts, but i just need to decipher it or just reflect about it..

my life is now revolving in just two places or so..first would be admu, then my home..

i know you guys, knew about my experiences being in admu..being in college..and experiencing the most superb time of my life is the only thing i wanted..being with someone, whom i really care for..etc etc..but is it the only matter i should think about..

maybe its time for me to think, especially for myself..

think, what my existence would be..start constructing my own foundation and begin to strengthening this with my whole power..and some essentials stuffs..

i know that life may be tough some times..but when will i experience this tough time, when i am weak enough? wen im very reliant to everybody?

NO

i just want to stop it..i just want to have my own feet..my own self..

before, im independent to do my work..to make my own thought..to have my own logic..etc..etc..
i just thought of it now, why am i frightened to show my true knowledge..it is not horrible..instead it would feel really great..and comfortable..

i dunno why am i thinking about college during our sem break..isn't it ironic..i just only figured things out, when these things are already done..haaayyyy.....

another, i know that i can make myself to stand on my own feet..i know i can..but how and where will i start..there is one thought that im having, and that can be a possible answer for my own madness..

and this solution will be the beginning..but il try hard enough..ok, last month, our prof, mrs tabares, asked us about volunteering as a teacher for high school students for the program PEM..and i did volunteered myself..it was kinda exciting..coz im fond of teaching people..especially regarding mathematics or other math related subjetcs..etc etc..well, i hope this will be my starting point..i am going to earn 500 bucks per session..

it's not bad..right? one session will just consume 2 hours of our saturdays..:) and half of the time will be given for the students answering the exercises..so i guess it is not really bad..hehehe..:) in addition, since we're going to have 10 sessions i can earn as much as 5k..hehe..:) for just 20 hours..oh yeah..hehe..:)

hmm..anyways, i just want to change the topic, and talk about another thing i am thinking about..

i don't wanna hurt anyone..i guess rayrand was right, i should leave my bestfriend..but i can't do that..he's been my bestfriend for years..and i can't leave all the things we had..
my moments with him are one of the happiest things in my life..

but i can assure you guys that i am really really happie with my life now..i am hapie being with my boss angel..he taught me to laugh again after my defeat..he also taught me to love again..
BUT, its just that i cant do what i should do..in contrast to this, i dont wanna make things worst..but il try to handle things out..i hope i can..

hhaaaayyyy, i know life can be difficult..especially for teenagers like me..oh well..il prove to everyone that im strong..i know i can..

by the way..last saturday, i watched dubai with my highschool friends and with boss angel dondee..sadly, jason wasn't able to make it for some reasons..arrrghhhh..you chose keira than us..:( *bad jason..i have been telling about this gimik for days..and instead you chose to be with her..:( *nahhh, kidding..it's ok, i understand..

i woke up around 10am that saturday, and im quite dizzy because i have been taking care of kail..and then im kinda stunned when i read dei's text..coz she told me to go to sm already..but actually our agreement was we're going to meet up at sm around 1pm..so i gotta call cheska, and text tin and dondee..and leap to the bathroom to start fixing myself..etc etc..

luckily we arrived sm around 12..hehe..:) which is not bad at all..so we ate our lunch at wendys..but the thing is..my kada doesnt want to eat lunch yet, so dondee and i enjoyed our bacon mushroom melt..hehehe..:) waaahhhh..and when dondee heard that i didnt ate breakfast yet and lunch, he gave me his french fries..so i told him that im already ok with my food etc etc..but he still insisted..luckily, tin was the one eating the fries..hahaha..:)) *i owe you a lot tin..:) i m getting fat already..:'(* my uncle even told me that "hiyang ako sa blue"..no...i would prefer green than blue..:D hehehe..:) gets? hahaha..:) *bad katsy..:))*

so after that, we went to the ticket booth to buy tickets for the movie, dubai..:) hahaha..:)) i know you hated the movie tin..na-a-ahhh..you have to watch the movie because we're the one whose going to pay for your ticket remember? hahaha..:)) at least, you're with us..:) and you were the one, who was having reactions and comments etc etc with the movie pa nga e..:) *d b raffy?!? *why is it when we're going to watch a movie, the name of the protagonist is always related to you..remember the incredibles..mr. ROBERT incredible..hahaha..:D and now, RAFFY alvarez? im not sure with the alvarez, but its the only surname coming out of my mind..hahaha..:)

ok, right after that, we went to pizza hut..and ordered 2 pizzas..yummy..hehehe..:D nd while waiting for our food..dondee and i left and went to national book store to find a blue colored cartolina..hehehe..:)

and then we went back to pizza hut..since cha texted already, saying that: oh kayong maglove birds..bumalik na kayo nandito na yung food..hahaha..:)) *chuckles*

so, when we got back to pizza hut, we started to eat..and to our surprise, when the bill came, our bill reached 850 bucks..watduhell..it is because of the service charge, tax and local tax..grrrr....arrggg...actually, we were suppose to pay 690 if only there is no added chrages..grrrr...*bad service charge: 10%, bad tax: 10%, bad local tax: 2%..tsk tsk tsk..

and then we took some kada pics and went to island photo to print it..:) awww..we're so kyut..hehe..:) and then dondee told me that we will also going to print some of our pictures..awww..

afterwards, tin, prix and dei went home..while the four of us were still waiting for cha's dad..so when cha's dad came..we all went home already..hehe..:)

it was quite fun and very tiring..but i really love spending time with my kada..i miss them so much..hehe..:)

oh well, nothing new and exciting happening to me right now, so i dont have any stories to share..hehehe..:) maybe, some other time again..:) hehe..:)

*chuckles* tc..:)

wonders of October 13th

2005-10-15T01:15:00.000+08:00

well, for me october 13 started with the movie, "50 Firsts Dates,"..it's kinda fun coz, for few hours na lang it's gonna be my exam in fil and math..watduh..i took up 9 units of exam for just a day..hell yeah..and another thing, my fil exam was from 7:30 til 9:30 am..while my math exam is 9:30 till 11:30..beat that..sabog kaming lahat!!! hekhek..:)

so, as I was watching the movie, I was kinda amazed with the fact that Lucy got an accident on the 13th of october..and her day is always repeating as it was still october 13 ofth year of her accident..ang galing nmn..HBO really made a good job in making my day kewl even if I'm bombarded with different math equations and selection for fil..FYI: 32 selections..haaayyyy..:)

i finished the movie by 2 am, but i suddenly felt so sleepy..so i decided to take a nap..and when i woke up, it is already 4 am..ohhhh no..need more practice for math..math..math...oh gawd..so after practicing for math for a last minute study[nywy FYI: i've been studying for our exams for weeks na, walang tulugan..math lang..hehehe]..then i prepared going to school na..

while i'm still preparing and fixing my hair..boss angel dondee suddenly called and asked if i wanted na sunduin niya ko..so i told him that it depends sa kanya..but nakakahiya syempre..at biglang..dondee: ok, ill be there by 6:20..oh gosh..its 6:10 na..and im not yet done fixing myself..i haven't eaten breakfast din..so i gotta rush..and when boss came, i'm still brushing my teeth so i told him to wait..grrrr...nakakahiya un..hehehe..:)

ayan na admu na..hehehe..:) libot2..we went to dela costa..to caf..and then to ctc for our filipino exam.."kaya ko 2"..hehehe..:) well, i think i'll survive the filipino exam naman..i was able to answer most of the questions naman e..:) and i'm hapie with it..

after our fil exam, we rushed to faura na for our math exam..the sad part is..i know B lang makukuha ko for that test..i missed 2 numbers..but i hope i could get partial points with those numbers..haaayyyy..at least i'm finish with math 18 A&B..and next "kalbaryo" is Math 21..Alleluia..Fundamental of Calculus here we come..hehehe..:)

afterwards, my blockmates decided to go to gateway and watch a movie..actually, i wasn't able to ask permission to my dad, so i have to call my mom pa to tell them that i'm going to gateway..and they gave me a curfew..watduh..they told me to come home by 6?!? huh...but its ok..since they allowed me to share this day with my blockmates than crying for my defeat for that math exam..haaaayyyyy..d ble, babawi ako next sem..hehehe..:)

we went to gateway and we ate our lunch there..ang saya..ang haba ng table namin..17 kasi kaming lahat..:) and then arcade aftwerwards..then movie time..we watched gigolo..hahahahaha..:)) something that relieved us from stress..hehehe..and have time to laugh..hehehe..:) so un, the movie ended around 4:30 or i think it's 5 ata..:)

then we went back to ateneo and went to gayuma to eat....*drumroll..BTS..the delicious cake ever..:D BTS stands for better than sex..hahaha..: as i remember:

michael: *a little dizzy because of san mig..paano mo malalaman na better than sex yan kung hindi ka pa nakakaranas ng sex?
block: *chuckles..
michael: *looking at julius and janeen..gawin nyo nga sabihin nyo sa amin if better than sex nga..
janeen: g***..hehehe..:)
block: *chuckles..:)

so un, we finished eating na and some of us decided to go home na..oh no..there is still no trace of pao..kaya i waited for pao pa until 7:30..he was going to drive me home kasi e..kaya un..:) so thank god, dumating din si pao..hehehe..:) tnx pao..:)

then sa bahay, i ate dinner and later on nakatulog ako..oh no..before that kasi..my best neil and i were talking sa text and told me that he was going to text right after what he was doing..buti n lng..11 ako nagising and his text is around 10:30..haaayyy..hehehe..:)

so un, neil and i talked..and i called him sa cell..october 13 is his birthday kasi e..and i wanna make it special even for the last hour of his birthday..even though i can't be with him on his special day..i want him to know that il always be here for him as his bestfriend..and im going to be his bestfriend forever..:) nywy as we were talking, we talked about seeing each other this sem break..since my blockmates and i will not push through our plans with baguio trip so baka when neil went here in manila na lang..and the good thing is, he's going to stay at antipolo while he's here..*m so hapie..:) hehe..:D

but the weird part sa paguusap namin ni neil is when he told i love you best..huh?!? watduh..ok..db tapos na 2..its not bad naman e..i do love him also but as a bestfriend, wala na..hehe..:) pero i dont wanna hear anything like that anymore from him..lalu na na may gf xa, anu ba..at masaya na ako sa buhay ko..haaayyy..pero ayun..our talk ended by telling me that he's going to buy a sun sim na..kaya makakapagusap na kami sa sun..:D

so un,.and my day ended with a kulitan with my boss angel dondee..hehehe..:) pareho kasi kaming nakatulog at gising pa..hehehe.:D kaya un..:D

yan ang wonders of october 13..:) madaming kwento, madaming kababalaghan..

nywy start na rin pla na aking 1 buwan na semestral break..hehehe.:D at wala akong gagawin sa isang buwan na un kundi magliwaliw kasama ang aking mga kaibigan..hehehe..:D PS na tau tin[anak]..hehehe..:D TGIS miss ko na kau..:D

kitakits sa family day at sa bahay ko..hehehehe..:) *for my blockmates, ung pupunta sa fam day ng stc..sabihin niyo lng sa akin huh..:D pati i wanna hang out with you guys ulit..nmimiss ko na kayo..:D

for my english blockmates..labas tau..movie with ms. nuñez..:D and fil block..bhala na..tagaytay ata..hehehe..:D basta ayun..cge yngats na lang sa inyong lahat..:D at enjoy sa inyong sembreak..:D

A Shattered Ego of A Theresian

2005-10-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

since i entered ateneo, i wanna prove to everyone that im great or watsoever..

even though i'm not a high average student that i am before..i wanna prove to myself and to everyone..that i can still be one..and will always be..

i know, i didn't gave my best during the first sem..haaaayyyy..i can only get a qpi of 3.17..:( and the sad part is 3.35 is the qpi to be a deans lister..

well, enough for the sad part..i dont need to think about my defeat..instead i should learn to prove to myself that i can give more than my best..

goal for second sem: to be a DL: :D

nat sci[chemistry or environmental science]: A
math 21[calculus]: B+
english: B+
Literature: B+
PE[badminton]: B+

oh well, i know that i can achieve that goal..i just need determination and confidence to face every problem and solve it with pride and brain..:D

i know that God will guide me through this test of life..in solving this crisis of my life..a crisis of failure to meet my expectations..:D

but it won't mean that i will leave some essential things of my life..but i will try to balance everything..and despite the nerdy idea that i will do the next sem, i will make sure to myself that i am still going to be happie with it..:D

and after proving this to myself..i will again stand up and be proud of it..:D a proud theresian in the ateneo community..:)

finals na..

2005-10-02T15:13:00.000+08:00

haaayyyy, m tired..:( but i know that m happie with my life..being with him..everyday..maybe life can't be perfect for someone..because despite the happiness im feeling right now, i still need to worry about my studies.. i need to get an A or B+ for math 18 a&b..but i think it will be impossible..:(

i cant accept it..since my childhood..m proud of myself being great and good in math..but what's wrong..i dunno what's happening..its like my skills and my talents in math is leaving me in this cold average student that i am now..

i cant accept it..i really cant..i need to get a qpi of at least 3.5..i need it..i know i can..but its just that i am not doing my best..but i know m giving it..why is it not enough..i cant show my true self..with my true knowledge and brain..i really dunno what's happening..maybe its the ateneo system of education..maybe..haaaayyyyyy..i hope i can reach my goal..even though im not going to be an outstanding student anymore..i wanna prove to myself that i can still be above average and that i am really good..etc etc..

kumbaga masakit sa ego ko..hindi ako gnito..hindi ako isang studyanteng normal tngnan ng mga guro..haaayyy, i do miss highschool..before kasi m a student who'll be looked up by everyone..whenever they will hear my name they'll gonna say ah c mariano ung matalino..but why is it changing now..changing from the brainy gurl to an average gurl..haayyyy..i wanna be somebody again..someone who can prove that she's great and has the potential to prove that she is good..ganun ako..pero panu ko mababalik un..im giving my best..but my best is not enough..

but kahit anung mangyari..ilprove to myself that i can..

my goal: A for final exams!!! kaya ko 2..:D

pero alam ko namang kaya ko..at dapat kayanin..kung walang tulog..eh d walang tulog..:D kaya ko 2..:D next stop naman ay sem break..:D

my plans for sem break:

swimming with tgis
movie with tgis
out of town with block www [bataan, tagaytay, subic, puerto galera, batangas, and *drumroll* baguio]
out of town wil fil 11-t [tacloban daw]

sana matuloy..:D

at syempre ang pinakagus2 ko is..spend my sem break with the person whom i consider very very special..boss angel dondee..sana..hehehe..:D

cge un lng..byeeee..need to finish my PAPERSSSSSSSSSS..haaaayyyyy..bye..:D

i miss them..

2005-09-24T14:39:00.000+08:00

just finish doing my analysis paper for english..oh my..at last its finish..i've been working for that paper for weeks..hehehe..:D im so glad that i was able to put my best on it, and im so glad that most of the readers of my paper were able to understand my point etc. hehe..:D

haaayyyy, nywy after that we went to tin's lolo's house..for tin's birthday party..hehehe..:D nywy i went to tin's house with dondee and cheska..it was supposed to be with dondee lang dapat but my dad told me that i should bring cheska along with us na..haaayyy, sobrang nakakahiya promise..coz before that dondee and i went to starbucks pa so that sama na umuwi ate ko samin..haaayyy, nkakahiya talaga, promise..basta un..tpos naghintay pa ng medyo matagal si dondee sa house coz nagpalit pa ko ng clothes, tin told us kasi that we should wear skirts..kaya un..hehehe..:D

pero masaya tlaga ung party ni tin..:D i miss my kada na..:D i miss them..:) hehehe..:D we went to rotanda pa para sunduin ung mga bedans..but masaya nmn..:) kasi dumaan din kami sa may stc..i really miss my alma mater..haaaayyyy...hehehe..:D

basta sana maulit ulit ung mga gnung times..nkkmiss talaga..:D i cant wait for our next lakads and gimiks..:D hehehe..:D

basta i miss them, i miss my boss angel na rin..:) hehehe..:D i wanna hug my boss angel..hehehe..:D *sssshhhhhhh..quiet lng kau..hehe..:D i wuv him so much..hehehe..:D

missing..

2005-09-10T11:35:00.000+08:00

its so sad to realize that some people suffer from your happiness..*oh well..its nothing..i've just realized something..coz i read my friend's post..i dunno to whom he was pertaining that post to..but i just want him to know that i want him to be happie..and i'll always be here for him..

another thing..we had our family reunion last thursday..and it was so exciting, coz i was able to bond again with my closest cousins..:D [kuya matthew, kuya jonathan, cheska and jennifer]..i really miss them..:D

haaayyy, i also miss my highschool friends..i wanna go back to stc and reminisce..haaayyyyy...well, you know what, im still and will be proud being a theresian..hehehe..:D haaaayyyy..i wish i could turn back time..where my anxieties of college were not present..haha..:D

i wanna go back to the time where my life is great..being blessed by my alma mater's spirit..haaayyy..i wanna go back when my life is still surrounded by people with one theme..one motto.."Let your light shine and be a blessing!" a true theresian spirit..

i miss being me..being a theresian..a true theresian..and even though i still holds the values taught to me by my alma mater..it is not enough..i wanna be a theresian again..a theresian that stands for her opinion..if you thought that i am a true atenean because i hold for my own view or opinion..your wrong..i am like this because i am a theresian..hahaha..:D A TRUE BLUE BLOODED THERESIAN..that stands out in a faceless world..:D

so if you'll ask me if what will i choose: theresian spirit or ignatian spirit, i rather choose to have a theresian spirit than an ignatian spirit..because i can show my true self by living more on my theresian value..but it doesn't mean that i won't give value to the ignatian spirit..because i am now part of them..and i will live my ignatian spirit by living more my theresian spirit..hahaha..:D

i also miss them..:D

watduh! I hate the referee but I love Cholo..ANIMO!!!

2005-09-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

LA SALLE WON AGAINST UE..

oh well, la salle just proved that they deserve na nasa top..sobrang daya talaga..oh well..it's a long story pa if I'm going to elaborate what hapen kanina..basta I know my stand, I know what is right..

basta ung nangyari nung when the UNDISCIPLINED crowd of UE threw some fans sa court..arrrgghh..they were showing that hindi sila CIVILIZED..oh gawd..basta UNDISCIPLINED CROWD OF UE + MAPANSAMANTALANG REFEREE AT PLAYERS NG UE[sapagkat hindi nila inangal at kinuha ang oppurtunity na malinlang ang La Salle]= ISANG MARUMING LARO

I KNOW THE RULES.. I'm not stupid..but I can say that SOBRANG DAYA NG REFEREE NA KALBO..

supposed to be PANALO ANG ADAMSON againt UP..halatang LUTO ung game nila..and the referees sobrang ang lakas ng loob mandaya, since the game was not televised..kaya hindi makikita ng iba..ANG DAYA TALAGA..d bale, sana talaga sinuntok na nung coach ng adamson ung referee kung hindi lang siya pinigilan ng APAT na players..hahaha..basta ang galing ng game ng adamson kanina..nkikiramay ako sa inyo..ngunit taas noo ko kayong hinahangaan sa inyong kagalingan..kahit hindi kayo nanalo kanina..alam naman natin ang totoo, kaya panalo pa rin kayo..

ok back to LA SALLE..THE BEST kayo!!!!:D basta kaya nyo yan..hope that mkuha nyo ang title na champions for the season 68 ng UAAP..

***hahahaha..its so funny, ako ung pinakanagwawala at sinisigawan ung mga referee kahit hindi ako Lasalista..ngunit sa kabila nito ang paghanga ko sa DLSU ay nananatili pa rin kahit ako'y isang ATENISTA na..mabuhay ang LA SALLE!!!:D ANIMO LA SALLE!!!:D

"changed the way i treat you?!?"

2005-08-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

*yeah, m so sorry, sadyang ang tao ay nagbabago dahil na rin sa panahong lumipas at sa mga pangyayari sa buhay. tulad na lamang nung sa atin..i know, nilayo ko sarili ko sa'yo coz un ung tama..magiging mali ang lahat kung ipagpapatuloy kong iligaw ang sarili ko sa daang walang patutunguhan..maaari ring may nagbago..tulad na lamang ng damdamin ko para sa'yo..pero hindi mababago nun ang matinding pagkakaibigan natin..ikaw pa rin ang magiging best ko..at wala ng iba..

sa totoo lang, napansin ko rin un sa sarili ko, nagbago nga ang pakikitungo ko sa'yo, marahil na rin sa pagbabago sa ating mga damdamin..neil, you don't know how hapie i am right now, and i love dondee so much..but hindi matatanggal ung fact na once in my life, i did love you more than a bestfriend, ngunit habang ating tinutunggali ang buhay, nagbago iyon, pero i still love you, it will just remain as bestfriends n lamang..patawad, siguro un ung hinahanap mo sa akin, hindi ko pwedeng ipakita sa tao ang hindi naman totoo, kaya ako naging ganito sa'yo..pero m trying na sana kahit papaano, maramdaman mo that i still consider you special..a great extension of myself, my confidant..you once saved me from my cluttered world..at hindi mawawala sa aking alaala ang lahat ng pinagsamahan natin..maaaring madaming maling nangyari, madaming away, pero dahil sa ating pagkakaibigan, ang lahat ng negatibo ay nabubuwag..

ngunit best, sana maintindihan mo ako kung bakit kailangang kong maging malamig sa'yo at kailangang kong dumistansya sa ating mga damdamin..mahirap na rin..ayokong magulo ang buhay natin..sana, tanggapin na lamang natin na hanggang dito na lamang ang lahat..ngunit lagi mong tandaan na nandito ako para sa'yo, nandito parati upang makiramay, tumulong at lahat na..:)

nywy best, i wanna thank you, for making me feel special..for giving the light to my shattered world..thank you from lifting me up from my defeat..kung mapapansin nga, dami na nga nating pinagsamahan, at hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan yon..sapagkat mananatili sa aking isipan at sa aking puso ang bawat alaala ko sa'yo..

***haaayyy, neil and i were talking for 2 days already, we were able to share stories..etc..it was so fulfilling that my bestfriend is hapie with his life now, maybe medyo may prob especially with frenches, pero ok na rin daw sila..

haaayyy, sobrang napaisip ako sa sinabi sa akin ni best: may tinanong kasi siya:

Why it seems like you change the way you treated me before?

and he also told me:

You know, things that we always do before..the way we text..or should i say............do you get my point?--> or should i say?---> i get it...

*oh well, gets kita..pero why do we need to talk about these stuffs..para san pa..why do i need to tell that i love you if i dont love you the way i loved you before..mahirap ixplain 2 sa'yo best, ayoko na ang mundo mo at ang mundo ko ay magkagulo pang muli..mahal ko si dondee..mahal mo si marie..mahal kita ngunit bilang kaibigan lamang..ikaw, alam ko..madalas mo pa nga itong sabihin sa akin, pero kung mapapansin mo hindi ko masyadong pinapansin ito..para na rin sa ikabubuti natin..

haaaaayyyy, im getting emo na naman..everytime na naalala ko si best, ito ang nangyayari sa akin..pero ang msasabi ko lang talagang namiss ko siya ng sobra..

..singing my anxieties..

2005-08-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

haayyy, its been long since my last post..i'm really busy these past weeks. midterms, papers, and the sagala ng mga sikat. oh well, tapos na..but i need to study na naman for our upcoming long test sa math..haaayy, buhay bs math, buhay numero, buhay long tests..hehehe..:D
i really miss many things..oh gosh..wala rin naman akong magagawa..pati ok lng, since im making my new world in a new environment na rin..kumbaga ito ang tinatawag na buhay kolehiyo sa pamantasan ng ateneo..

ang masasabi ko lang, im truly happy with my life now, its just that im afraid that this happiness will fade..basta ganun..its so hard for me to accept, what if one day, i may lose the guy i love..no way..ayokong mangyari un..pero what if nga talaga..haaayyy, sana wag naman..and boss promised me na hindi siya bibitaw kahit anung mangyari..knowing that made me happie..pero i felt so stupid to think some things like that..pero anung magagawa ko ganito ako, masyadong EMO..haaayy..

pero isa lang talaga ang masasabi ko, i am really lucky, that God showed me the great happiness with boss..he's nearly perfect..i cant say kasi that he's perfect..kasi its too much na kung perpekto siyang tao..i just hope, i wont do something stupid..that may lead to me melancholy..and anxieties..

basta im praying that my fears won't happen..and i promise that no matter what happens, my love for him wont change..

*hahaha..its so funny, i have just realized that "manhid" pala ako noon, dalawa o tatlong taong hindi binigyan pansin..dahil sa pagkabaliw sa kahapon..ang masama pa rito, isa na dito ang isa sa pinakamatalik kong kaibigan..i dont wanna state his name here..matagal na rin naman 2 e..isang taon na ang nakalipas at ngayon ko lamang nahinuha ang lahat..ang masasabi ko lang: patawad, kung ako'y naging manhid, kung nasaktan ka man dahil sa aking kahapong hindi mabitawan..noong ako'y bumitaw naman dito, hindi sau napunta ang aking atensyon..patawad kaibigan, isa lamang akong taong hindi nakakapansin ng kanyang kapaligiran..ngunit ngaun alam ko na..alam kong huli na ang lahat, huli na sapagkat hinayaan na kitang lumayo sa aking damdamin..ngunit ito'y sana maging daan upang ang kahapon nating pinabayaan ay umusbong muli sa pagkakaibigan..--> hahaha..walang magawa sa buhay..basta, ako na lamang ang nakakaalam nito..

*may nalaman din ako tungkol kay best, nagkahiwalay na pla sila ni frenches..ang labo..bakit ganun..ang pagkakaintindi ko nagkahiwalay sila dahil sa mga lihim ni best..anu 2..lihim tungkol saan? maaari bang may alam ako dito..sa tagal-tagal ng pinagsamahan namin ni best, marami na akong nalaman tungkol sa kanya ngunit..ano naman ang maaaring ilihim niya..sa aking pakiwari, ito'y maaaring tungkol sa amin..sapagkat ang labo, kung ating aanalisa ang lahat, noong naging sila, patuloy pa rin ang pagbugso ng damdamin ni best sa akin, ngunit bakit ganun, sila na..bakit ayaw pa rin niya tigilan ang mga gawain sa nakaraan..ito ang unang pumasok sa utak ko..marahil ba na ito ang dahilan..ay ewan..sana naman hindi..basta wala talaga akong alam na maaaring ilihim ni best..sa pamilya niya, sa buhay niya, anu..annu bang dapat ilihim niya..ang pag-alis niya..di ko talaga alam..best if you're reading my post..if you need help, nandito lang ako..kilala kita, sa mga ganitong panahon, hindi mo kayang mapag-isa..ayokong sirain mo ang buhay mo..kaya nga matagal kitang ginabayan, matagal kitang tinulungan hanggang sa natuto ka muling humarap sa mundo, natuto ka muling maging masaya sa kabila ng iyong mga kasawian..basta, tandaan mo, ako pa rin ang best mo, walang nagbago roon..ngunit maaaring may nagbago sa ating mga damdamin..ngunit hindi ito pipigil upang kita'y tulungan..
haaayy, ang dami talagang nagbago, m trying to conatct best pero i think he's not yet ready..he's sending message minsan..ay basta ganun..i just hope maging msaya na ang mga tao sa aking paligid..un na lamang ang aking hihilingin..

sige, ako'y magpapaalam na sapagkat ako'y madami pang gagawing mga takdang aralin..paalam..

Looking back...

2005-08-01T15:57:00.000+08:00

As i was browsing at my old posts here at my blog..I realized many things..life is really inevitable..'coz sometimes others can forsee what will happen..

I dunno if im going to be hapie or not..but all i can say is i'm really hapie with my life being with someone I love..but i'm having relapses..relapses with my bestfriend..i dunno why..sometimes, i would just remember him, and cry..*ang labo.....i still have the feeling that my bestfriend needs me..i admit, he's not that strong..he needed someone to guide him..yeah, that was my responsibility before to him..but now..we know that there are things that change..and one of them..is being away..emotionally away from my bestfriend..i just wish that my bestfriend would find that great happiness i'm feeling right now..

I also realized that things change..because before, I' m just a little girl who look up her idol..her model..her bestfriend..her baby tito..her superhero..her inspiration..her strength..but as time changes..those things became hatred, anger, hurt..and everything..

in October 13, 2004..i greeted my bestfriend, since it's his 17th birthday..but through our conversation thru text, i felt that he's taking me for granted..which made me very sad..i talked to my friends..and suprisingly, i was able to open up with someone i just known for 4 months..it's boss angel dondee..i found a new shelter..a new shoulder to lean on..a new true friend..that night..i was looking for someone who'll listen..but my friends were too busy that time..even the guy i considered very close to me at that time, reb..so better released my anger..my hurt..and boss was able to comfort me through my hurt that night..i was lucky to have a friend like him..i was not expecting that he'll call and give advice and everything..

anyway, to elaborate more about my story with boss..we met during the SEP 2004..to be exact may 26, 2004..i arrived at ateneo high around 3..and my class will start at about 3:30..so tambay muna sa caf..then, i saw tin and illin, with their SEP classmates [erika and dondee]..as i were listening to their conversation[they were debating if nararape ba ang guys]..tin asked for my help..so barahan kami ni boss nun..kahit hindi pa talaga kami magkakilala..funny noh..so un after debating with him..i went to the next table..to my cousins..since i know that, that talk won't be productive and the guy masyadong bigay at nakakaasar..hahaha..:D *oh db..kakaiba..sssshhhhh...

so un, a month after, illin's 16 th birthday party came..we arrived at jade valley around 6 and the party will start 6:30pm..so un, kaunti pa lang ang bisita..few are familiar..coz dumating na ung ibang iv4..then suddenly, there was a guy at the corner..wearing a jacket..then illin introduced him to me..and i said "aaahhh, ikaw ung guy na nakadebate ko kung nararap ang guys"..everybody laughed..and told me sa lahat-lahat naman daw un pa naalala ko..hehehe..eeehhh un..hehehe..:D as far as i could remember that night, walang kasama si boss..so i decided..samahan na lang namin at kulitin..at makipagkwentuhan..well, it turned ok, since hindi ko na kausap ang wild na guy na nkausap ko sa caf ng ateneo high..hahaha..:D *hayyy, wala pa si tin..si tin lang kasi pati c illin ang kilala ni boss nung time na un e..so sinamahan muna ng buong kada namin si boss..kahit dun sa second floor sa jade valley kasama namin siya..hehehe..:D nice..hehehe..:D

lumaon ang gabi, we were able to talk about many stuffs na..and parang we've known each other for that long..since parang we're ok..parang ganun..unlike what happened during sep..hehe..:D then the party began..with the dinner..intermissions..and the dance part came..we were dancing like crazy..and we never stopped..with our kyut outfits..70's look..hahaha..:D and dancing with iv4 is really fun..:) then suddenly some of my classmates approached me and asked..kat mariano boyfriend mo? huwwaaaatt?!? hindi, sinasamahan ko lang, friend ni illin na pinakilala sa akin noon..so since then, nagsimula na ang asaran sa akin with boss..i thought my life that time was miserable..coz actually, he's not my type kc nun..pati i have just known him for just like hours db..anu b..hahaha..:D

but as the months past by..many things changed..since boss got my email add..friendster account..and cell number..we were able to communicate with each other..and we became..hhhmmmm...close..i dunno if it is the right word..or should i say we became good frineds na lang..ayun..hehe..:D

quotes, quotes, txt, txt, asar, txt, asar, quotes..:D then one time, he called out of nowhere..he just want to know what i'm doing na raw..so it was nothing for me..but my friends were giving it a meaning..especially tin, she told me, sa tinagal-tagal ng panahon, pagiging close namin ni compatibol[dondee], hindi pa ako tinwagan niyan..and as i said it was really nothing para sa akin..so ok he called and what..that's it..no meaning at all..

but when the october 13th, 2004 came..it change my impression about dondee..he's not just a guy who send messages through text, calls..etc..but he's a guy who'll be there whenever someone needs his help..he's a guy with a good attitude..he's a guy who's caring, sweet, and thoughtful..maybe because of that i started to like him as a friend..maybe..i just liked what he did..ay ewan..hehe..:) or rather i like his great personality..

then, we became much close than the few months back..we started talking to the phone, which started the last week of october..and we were able share stories about our lives..stories about hurt, love, failure..our own telenovelas as we call it..:D we were able to share problems and we were able to comfort each other..then he became my boss angel in mid-november..:)
then november 20, came..celebration of boss angel's 18th birthday..:) we went to sm and watch the incredibles..before that something happened..we all met at wendy's sa cyberzone..and boss was waiting there for hours na..hehe..:) then ayun, 10 ang usapan..dumating ang iba ng 12..hehehe..:D while we were walking to buy tickets for the incredibles..my friends were like leaving us behind or letting boss and i walk together..watduh..ok, dondee's nice but guys, walang biruan naman please..so un, at the movie house..even if i wanted to go first sa seats..it turned out pa rin na kami ni boss ang magkatabi..hahaha..:) so iwas tingin na lang ako..hehe..:) and it all finished, with a basketball marathon at the arcade..hehe..:D

so un, december came, we became more close..and we were much open to each other regarding our problems and all the things happening to our lives..he often calls..he usually suprised me to his calls..biglaan na lang kasi e..especially kapag may ocassion sa admu..bigla na lang siya tatawag..

then january came, my birthday..his gift is the sweetest gift i ever had..knowing that i'm special to him..it really feels great..i was so hapie that day..medyo nag-aalangan pa sa isa't-isa because i'm not used to talk to him ng personal..kaya puro tingin, smile..and everything..hehe..:D

then february, valentines he gave me a rose with a note..refer to my february 14, 2005 post..:D then in february 20, he gave me a letter during the JGSOM openhouse..he told to me through that letter that he likes me..that i made him to do things extraordinary..:) that fact made me happie..even if i dont know to myself if i do like him..pero, he's nice and everything..

then March 23, night, he asked me something, if what will i do if he's going to say that he's falling to his boss angel..but nakatulog siya..so march 24 morning, he told me..he asked that question because he thinks that he's falling for his boss angel..i was shocked..surprised..well, actually, i'm hapie to know that..maybe, i really like him that time..:)

April, May..summer..everyday text, everyday talk..etc..:) i'm staring to feel something towards him- ahh wait, this started nga pla february..hmm..ahh wait..january ata..ay teka..ay bhala na..basta un..hehe..:D

May 18, 2005 - i told him 831..whoch means i love him..but i cant tell him directly so i made use of codes so that he won't able to know it easy..

but something happened..a fact..a story..from miriam college..a friend of mine told me something about dondee..about dondee and a certain girl..which made me unhappy..which made me cry for many nights..then,,

june 8 came..after orsem night..my death..he said that we need to give space for each other..which gave me pain..PAIN..masakit talaga..i was cryng all night..even the next day..trying to hold my tears but i can't..crying for him..crying for my lost..crying for my lost love..crying for my sweet memory..

then we were able to clear things out in june 14, 2005, first day of class..the day, when he told me the meaning of 831..which gave me a cliche, a smile..:) and to my confusion..

he asked
boss: anu tama
me: hindi..joke..oo
boss: anu oo
me: oo..*pause..wait anung oo..*[i was thinking all throughout bago ako bumaba ng taxi..baka mali]..

so un, hindi naman pla..buti naman..hehe..:) i'm not yet ready for a commitment..need to concentrate to my studies and everything..but look, am i concentrating on my studies? haaaayyy..i dunno..

and now..through my stay at ateneo..im being with my happiness..my inspiration..my love..my joy..my laughter..:) and i can say that i'm truly hapie with my life now..:) being with my boss angel..:) being with my saviour..who helped and guided me through my saddest times..:) all i can say is THANK YOU for coming into my life..THANK YOU for being my boss angel..THANK YOU for the love you showed me..and I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!:) *oh well, i know naman he's not reading my blog..harharhar..:D

excess: about reb, i know now why he was acting like that before..he wanted to help regarding my problem with neil but it turned out, he's also having problems with me because of neil..reb, if ever you're reading this post..i'm glad that you've been selfless..i'm happy to know that one time in my life, the great vocalist, reb, was been there through my success..even though we're not talking that often anymore..i still consider you as one of my closest friends..kahit na, you told me about something..about the ligaw thing..siguro because of that medyo napalayo loob natin sa isa't-isa..which is happening right now..all i'm wishing is that we could find time, where we could talk, and be able to bring back the strong friendship we lost..i know, i forgot about you..i was not able to guide you for most of the time when you needed someone..but all i can say, you've been a great friend..my confidant..:) hope that we could still be just like before..walang alinlangan sa isa't isa..and everything..it's so sad kasi to realized that we've been apart from each other na rin..i know that you're strong, you accept every challenge in life..and i admire you because of that..hope we could bring back that strong friendship..

Maghihintay sa'yo

2005-07-18T20:01:00.000+08:00

Ikaw ang syang ligaya ko
nagbibigay sigla sa puso ko
o giliw ko, pakinggan mo
ang nais sabihin ng aking puso na...

CHORUS:
mahal, mahal na mahal kita
hindi ako magbabago
asahan mo ito
mahal,mahal na mahal kita
ang puso ko'y iyong iyo
asahan mong maghihintay sa'yo

ang puso ko'y malulumbay
kung 'di ikaw ang kapiling sa habang buhay
pag-ibig ko'y walang hanggan
maghihintay sa iyo magpakailan pa man

(REPEAT CHORUS)

at magbuhat, ngayon at kailanman
ikaw ang iibigin
ito'y iyong dinggin

(REPEAT CHORUS)

hindi ako magbabago
asahan mong maghihintay sa'yo

one week late

2005-07-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

JULY 4-8, 2005

last monday..ok lng nmn..kzo mejo sumakit katawan ko dahil sa p.e. nmin..hehehe..:D ewanko b..bkit kc volleyball pinili ko..haaayyy..sobrang strainuous..

before that, nagkita kmi ulit ni boss sa manang's..hehehe..:D xempre mkulit pa rin c boss..kaso lng pagtayo ko..ncra ung strap ng i.d. ko kc nhatak xa dhil naipit xa sa table..pero ung ncra lng ung metal..at inalok ni boss ung isa pa niyang strap at siya na raw mag-aayos..hehehe..:D

then, after nung pe nmin we went to kfc pra dun kumain, kasa c pao puti at rina..hehe..:D at nakiusap c pao kung pwede siya na lng daw mgdderive nung equation ng ellipse..kaya binigay ko n lng sa kanya ung sagot ko..hehe..:D

last tuesday nman..umulan buong araw..kaya syempre di maiiwasan na mabasa..hehe..:D
tpos nng math nmin, grabeh, nagtataas na nga ng kamay c pao pra magderive nung equation ng ellipse..ayaw pa rin ni miss..kaya nung bgla akong tinawag ni miss..sabi ko c pao gus2 mag-recite..sobrang nkkbastos na tlga xa..gus2ng-gus2 na nga ni pao bumawi..ayaw pa rin niya..grrrr...

tpos nung filipino nmin, we talked about ung sagala ng mga sikat..hehe..:D

and after nung class nmin we decided to go to the covered courts, pra hanapin c mark..pra kunin ung cards..hehe..:D at since umuulan, ang kasama ko sa umbrella ay ang aking buddyguard na c rayrand..hehehe..:D at pagdating sa covered court..xempre akbayan kami since close nmn kmi ni rayrand..at nakita kami ni boss..hahahaha..:D sweet ba?!? hahahaha..:D

last wednesday nmn we had our math gathering..but nung morning bigla na lang akong nilagnat..haaayyy..grrrrr...pero buti n lng nwala..

tpos nung english nmin, we talked about the social issues na nangyayari nagyon sa country natin..ewanko b sa mga tao..d ko n tlga cla maintindhan..

una, they want a peaceful life pero ngmamagaling cla..panu b tlga uunlad ung country ntin kung d cla titigil sa kakareklamo, at the same time they don't know how to discipline theirselves..i2 p, bakit ba sinisisi niyo sa mga politicians ung nangyayari sa buhay nyo..mag-aanak kau ng marami, d nyo rin pla kaya..tpos nun, mas bibigyan nyo p ng importansya ung mga luho niyo..than ur needs..tpos ssbihin nyo d kau nkpag-aral..dhil sa gobyerno..eh kung 22usin, d kau nakatpos kc 2migil kau, kc nghahanap pa kau ng mga bagay na gus2 nyo..panu ba tlga uunlad ang bansa natin,kung namumuhay tau kasama ang mga taong ang gus2 lng mapasakanila ang lahat..i2 p, ung mga mayayaman dyan, kailan kaya sila ma222 na iwaldas ung pera nila pra sa bayan hindi para ipunin at magpayaman lng at sa bandang huli wala ring patutunguhan ung mga perang inipon..grrr..ewanko b..gobyerno b tlga ang may problema o ang tao mismo..

kasi kung susunod naman tau walang mawawala sa atin..i2 p..una, gus2 nyo c erap maupo sa pagpresidente..anung nangyari, gulo lng..umupo c gloria..ok lng..tpos nung eleksyon, natalo ni gloria c fpj..anu ba 2..popularity ba dapat ilaunsad sa bayan natin..hindi db..grrrr..ang kailangan ay kredibilidad, talino at kapangyarihang mailunsad ang bansa sa kaunlaran..pero ang tao hindi tumutulong..gus2 lng nila tumanggap ng tumanggap..oh please..mamulat sana kau..
hayy,better stop na nga..kahit anu namang gawin ko hindi makikinig ang tao..

last thursday naman, hmm..nwala na xempre ang sakit ko kzo bumalik nung gbi..haaayyyy..ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko..grrrr...

tpos tsaka lng nmin nfinalize ung gagawin namin sa filipino..ung sagala ng mga sikat..hehe..:D at dahil the conference room at the library is not available, so we decided to go to manangs na lang..and there, we will finalize na lahat..:D at nung bandang 4:30 n biglang lumapit si boss..since sobrang lapit ng manangs ang covered court at may p.e. c boss that time..:D
hahahaha..palusot..halatang malaking palusot 2 ah..

boss: ay o nga pla ung strap ng id mo nasa akin pa..lika kunin natin samahan mo ko..
me: ok..
boss: (pagkapsok ng covered court)..ay o nga pla nasa car pala..ganito na lng..samahan mo ko sa car, hatid kita pauwi..
me: ha? um..*nod
boss: ay o nga pla samahan mo ko sa escaler..
me: bakit?
boss: plssss...

ok 2 ah..ang strap ng id ay npunta sa kung saang-saang lugar..hehehe..:D tsk tsk tsk..hehehe..:D

last friday nmn, hmmm..ISANG ARAW PARA MAKAPAGPAHINGA!!! *yahhhooo..:D xempre nag-aral din ng hyperbola!!!:D kahit walan kaming pasok..lapit na rin kasi ng exam e..hehehe..:D

cheer rally..animo la salle!!! wink wink

2005-07-02T10:49:00.000+08:00

uaap season 68: dlsu? admu?

yesterday, i attended the cheer rally since it's considered as an attendance for us sa pe kaya no choice ako..watduh..m i cheering for ateneo..nahhh..blue eagle spelling..b-l-u-e e-a-g-l-e blue eagle blue eagle blue eagle the king..nahhhhh...animo la salle!!! hehehe..:D

well, im still on la salle side..yeah..hehehe..:D kuya ty!!! hehehe..:D

well, it turned out something exciting and masaya..hehehe..:D

so un, our class ended around 4:30, so we rushed to the blue eagles gym so that we could find a good seat..but when we came to the blue eagles gym, ang haba ng pila grabeh..hehehe..:D den, for 30 mins or so, nakapila kmi..ang tgal..hehe..:D and den, nung nakapasok na kami..ang dami ng tao..and while we were looking for some seats..may biglang lumitaw na tao, c boss pla..hehe..:D nakita niya kasi kmi na dumaan..kaya un..tpos sumama muna xa sa amin..ang kulit talaga, kahit kailan, tapos nagpabili ako kay rayrand ng drink..at un, naiwan kami ni boss..at nag-usap..at ayaw pa rin niyang bumalik sa mga blockmates niya..mamya na raw..hahaha..:)
den nung bumalik na c rayrand, inabot niya sa akin ung drink..tpos binalik niya ung money..it turned out c boss pla ung nagbayad..haayyy..ang kulit tlga..so i owe him 20 bucks..grrrr..tpos sbi niya babalik na raw siya sa blockmates niya..

tpos habang kinakausap ko c rayrand at sinasabi ko sa kanya, na wag na niya gagawin sa akin un..nasa likod ko pala c boss..at sabi mangungulit muna raw siya..kulit talga..hehe..:D tahimik na lang mga blockmates ko..at nakatingin sa amin..haaaayyyy..

tpos sbi ni boss samahan ko raw siya sa mga blockmates niya..so un..nkatayo lang kami dun, at pinagtitinginan ng mga blockmates niya..panu naman kasi alam pla nung mga blockmates niya tungkol sa amin..anu b yan...haaaaayyyyyy....pra kasi kaming ewan dun,nakatayo tapos hawak lang niya ung kamay ko..tpos nung nkita niya ung blockmate niya na nagpastamp na for attendance..sinamahan niya ako kc hindi pa ako nkkpagstamp..tpos nung nsa labas na kmi..siya n ung fill out nung maliit na paper..haaayyyy..mkulit tlga khit kailan..pero kung sasagutin ko ung tanung nung kaibigan ni boss nung orsem, masasabi kong maalaga nga talaga c boss..hehehe..:D

last thursday

if i am going to talk about my day last thursday..it was quiet ok..since d naman kami masyadong tambak ng mga homeworks..hehe..:D

basta, i was able to see him na lng..and you know what i mean by him db..hehehe..:D he was playing pusoy dos kasi sa may manangs and so happened napadaan ung block nmin dun..hehehe..:D

me: uyyy..
boss: mukhang nakatingin si pao ah..
me: ahh wait lng..*punta kay pao, lika sama ka..tabi ka sa kanya
pao: hiya ako.
boss: kaw na lang..pao 2lungan mo ko..

hahaha..:D pero hindi pa rin..at umalis na kmi at 2mwag ako kay boss..:D

me: sugarol ka tlaga..
boss: sabi mo e
me: lungkot 2loy ni pao d mo siya pinatabi
boss: kaw gus2 ko e
me: d ble ttabihan ko na lang si pao
boss: cge, pra higadin kau ulit..

hahaha..:) akala kasi ni boss it was pao puti ung tinutukoy ko nung hinagad ako nung last wednesday..c pao nevado un..hahaha..:D

basta un, pumunta kami ng mga blockmates ko sa mcdo at dun muna nagstay..haaayyyy..traffic ang katipunan..hehe..at 7 na ako nakauwi..

harhar..im sorry boss..u cant read my blog pa rin..harhar..:D

2005-06-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

boss, alam mo lang ung password but you don't know the username, kaya sowie na lang..hahahaha..:D hmm..if ul gonna guess it, medyo madali na hindi siya..haha..:D

last monday, my first class was volleyball..and its 8-9..but i came to admu by 7, so i've got nothing to do for an hour..luckily i saw, aim..at manangs..:D hehe..:D she was eating her breakfast kasi dun..:D and den i saw boss angel dondee passing by the manangs, so i called him..and un, he stayed with us muna..:D

nangyari un because..last sunday, boss and i talked sa phone..because it was june 26 last sunday at sort of anniv siya na parang isang importanteng pangyayari sa aking buhay kasi..and in june 26, 2004, it was ib's bday party, where dondee and i met for the second time na hindi nagdedebate if nararape ba ang guys..oh yeah..so un, while we were talking he asked wat's my first class sa monday so un, kaya siya ngpdrop sa may manangs...awwww..hehehe..:D

ok, back to the manangs, so un..sobrang kulit ni boss..he was trying to kiliti me kc..kulit tlga kahit kailan..den pao puti and jinno came..at makulit pa rin c boss at kinikiliti ako..at sbi ni pao, ang sweet daw namin at inggit daw sya..hehehe..:D so un, since i have to attend my p.e. class, umalis na ako..hehehe..:D at after my class, d ko na nakausap c boss, he's busy kasi playing pusoy dos with his blockmates..ayaw kong mkigulo..so di na lang ako lumapit..

den, rina was with me nung time na un and we met up with pao puti and decided to eat at mcdo..at naghintay for 3 hours sa mcdo at ngsolve ng equations..:D hehehe.:D

tnx rina, sa libre..:D

tpos boss texted me and he told me that math 11 siya but malungkot siya coz he got a low grade dun sa test..pero kahit na math 11 pa rin db kaysa nmn math 10..hehehe..:D so un, tinawagan ko siya at habang kinakausap ko xa..sumisingit c pao puti..kaya ang nangyari, biglang sbi ni pao "bye honey"..aba-aba..inaagawan ako ni pao ha..hindi pwede..

kaya ang nangyari may the best girl-gay wins..hahaha..:D *pro d bakla c pao sadyang plabiro lng..hehehe..:D

at nung uwian last monday, sumabay na ako kay pao since sa claret siya punta..at malapit lang ako..tnx pao..at sa paguwi, npagusapan nming sknya c dondee 2wing mwf at skn tths..hahaha..:D loko ka tlga pao, kaya tinwagan ko c boss at tnnong if payag siya..at ngloloko na naman c pao at cnsbing kpag d siya pumyag d ako ihahatid ni pao sa bahay nmin, instead..iuuwi niya ako sa bahay nila..haha..:D loko ka talaga pao..hahaha.:D

so un, ngusap kmi ni boss nun and i asked him if payag na siya dun sa agreement, and he told me ako daw pipillin niya kasi di naman daw c pao ung mahal niya..awwww....hehehe..:D so un..yan ang nangyari last monday..:D

long test 1

last tuesday we had our first long test sa math, luckily i was able to answer it all..pero d ako sure..haaayyy..sana pasado..plllssss...

so un, we ate at mcdo na naman..hahaha.:D and den filipino na..:D hehehe..:D

at nung tpos n ung class, cnmahan ko c rayrand sa lib pra dun sa home work nila..tpos cnmhan niya ako sa admissions office at covered courts..hehehe..:D at may nsabi sa akin c rayrand, n hnire raw siya ni dondee to be my bodyguard..hehe..bsta bodyguard pra mailayo ako sa isang tao..hehehe..:D tsk tsk tsk..c boss tlga..hahaha..:D

and un, iniwan ako ni rayrand kc nandyan n ung sundo niya at d pa ako mkaalis ng admu kasi traffic so buti na lang nkita ko c mikko kzo umalis n rin xa kagad at nkita ko c eds..at 2mambay kami sa caf..hehe.:D at tinawagan ko c boss..kc ngmised col..mngungulit daw xa..kaya un..:D kaya kinulit ko na rin siya kasi nghihintay n lang siya ng sundo..at sa paglalakad ko ppuntang overpass..may isang red n pick up ang biglang huminto at pinasakay ako..cla boss..haaayyy..no choice..ngccause cla ng traffic dun pra lang pilitin akong sumakay..kaya un..:D hehehe.:D hmm..ewanko tlga kay boss..nkakahiya talaga ksama pa kc ung dad niya biglang hirit b naman ni boss..kung pwede ba raw humiga sa akin..ayyyaaayyy..baka akalain ng dad niya kami na..haaaayyy..tpos while we're inside the car, sbi niya na s wed na ung promise kong libre sa kanya as long as punyag akong ihatid niya ako sa bahay..haaayyyy..so un, no choice again..kaya ok..hehehe.:D

so yan ang tuesday ko..:D

yum..:D hehehe..:D

so un, since we have decided na today ko ililibre c boss..ayun, kumain kami sa cellos..at ang kulit talaga ni boss kahit kailan..at sa cello nandun na naman ung friend ni dondee na si dan..at tntnung kung ako c boss angel..hayyyy...bkit b..hehehe..:D

tpos inaasar ko pa c boss habang kumkain kmi kasi ayoko pang kumain e..hehe.:D

den after eating at cellos, umuwi na rin kmi..sa passenger seat niya ako pinaupo..sa likod na lang sana..nakakahiya e..dumaan pa kami sa construction site ng dad niya kung saan nakita kmi..anu b yan..hehehe..:D

mejo napansin ko rin parang nddistract c boss sa pagdrive kc madaming mali..kaya tahimik na lang ako..hehehe.:D

but m hapie cause i was with him knina..hehehe..:D sana maulit muli ang mga oras na ito..:D hehehe..:D

basta to sum up my experiences this past three days, masaya siya kahit stressful..bsta i wanna see him again..hehehe..:D

when my world shatters into pieces..

2005-06-25T13:17:00.000+08:00

hayy..i really dont know why im feeling so sad tonight..bigla ko n lng naalala c best..oh gawd june 23 pla kahapon and i forgot..arghhhh..

JUNE 23 - i was not able to greet him..im sori best..been busy for the past weeks..hapie 2nd anniversary..:D

oh well, i forgot about that..kaya pla ako naging malungkot..un pla un..hahahaha..:D

last 2 yrs ago, my world and my dream was with best..and it was our 2nd anniversary as bestfriends pala kahapon..hehehe..:D

everthing shattered when the i love yous began to fade away..but now..ive been completing again my shattered world with a guy whom i know i really love..but im not yet ready..ang dming gingawa sa school..admu is just like stc..haaayyyy..dming ginagawa..ang masaya lang wala maxadong paper works..oh well, i know that i can handle a relationship or watsoever..pero it's not the time pa..need to concentrate more on my studies..

nywy just wanna say sori best..ngaun ko lang naalala..4 years of companionship..2 years of bestfriendship..haaayyy..and now, everything is fading away as you walk away, and as i walk to the path i have chosen..and i chose to be with someone..someone i love..someone that loves me..

when im thinking of this, parang ang lungkot nmn, but i was able to see the true happiness of life..pero it seemed that m a bit affected pa rin about best..

i was able to talk to pao itim and he told me people change and we should accept it..i do accept it nmn but the feeling that a person need u're help at di mo m2lungan..un ang ngpapalungkot sa akin..

i felt that best needs me, my comfort, my prayers..i just hope that he's hapie n rin..:D

oh well, need to talk about my week n lang..2 stop the tears falling..

GAYUMA FRIDAY

we ate at gayuma, ang saya..we talk about many things..hehehe..:D at nakakatuwa c jinno pti michael..hahaha..:D nag-order ng beer..at ginwang pulutan lahat ng kinakain namin..hingi dito..hingi dyan..hahahaha..:D akala mo mga lasing na kasi ang iingay..llu n si michael..hahaha..:D

at sa pag-uwi..ayay..traffic at umuulan p..kaya pag-uwi ko basa ako..hahahaha.:D

bsta yan a ng week with my blockmates..:D

i love our block..:D

and of course i love black..hahaha..:D (alam kong getz 2 ni rayrand..hahahaha..:D)

PIZZA HUT

last thurday, our block ate at pizza hut..grabeh, ang kukulit sobra..hehehe..:D they even got some party hats sa pizza hut..and sobrang nakakatuwa tlga kmi..hahahaha..:D at muntikan na kaming malate sa class nmin sa filipino kasi, dumating kmi ng ctc ngbell n..hahahaha..:D buti na lang ctc kmi..hehehe..:D bsta ang saya ng day na 2..being with my new peers is so kewl..kc sobrang saya ng block na 2..sobrang kwela at the same they do think about their studies..hehehe..:D mga responsible ang nsa block na 2..kya nga ang saya-saya e..hehehe..:D

HMM..OH GAWD, THIS DAY WAS DAMN PERFECT

i was able to say that the day last wednesday was perfect, because i was able to see him..waaahhh..after a week of not seeing him..hehehe..:D oh well, mas ok n rin un, kaysa masawa ako sa kanya db..hehehe..:D

so un, first we had our p.e., which is volleyball..and we need to volley the ball 70 times in a minute..huwattt..hirap nun ah..so i was able to make up to 46 p lng..bsta raw dpat sa july 70 n..d ble kaya ko 2..hehehe..:D ang msaklap lang may pasa ako sa braso ko ang sakit.waaaahhh...

so tpos sa math, d lang kmi ngvolunteer, quiz na kami kgad..haaayyy..sana pasado ako..sana nmn..oh please...

den english..sobrang saya ng class discussion..nkkrelate ako since it was related to the issues sa country natin ngayon, since dati i had the strong determination to pursue legal management..hahahah..:D kumbaga kinareer ko ung bill of rights nung 4th year kmi..even the cases..hahaha..:D oh db ang saya..

tpos nun, 2mambay n naman kami sa zen garden at biglang umulan..haaayyyy..at tumawag si boss and offered me a ride home..nakakahiya talaga but he told me its ok naman kasi on the way nmn daw..but it turned out hinatid niya ako sa kanto ng mabuhay at ang sabi ko sa kalayaan plaza lang at gus2 p niya sa bahay ko mismo..ehhhh..bka magtanong kc cla mama kaya wag na lang db..hehehe..:D but msaya nakita ko xa..:D and im very very very hapie..:D

FIL 11

last tuesday..the good news was that our whole block gonna take fil 11 and ndismiss kmi kagad ng 1:30 khit until 3 p kmi..hehehe..:D naks..sadly, next tuesday n ang first long test nmin sa math..haaayyyy..and thru that malalaman if basic or regular track kmi..i2 p ang nkkatawa..ung mga freshies n mgttake ng math 11..gonna take a diagnostic test p s sat..grabeh, bkit p..look, math 18 is so hard n nga..and sa kanila it's just math 11..hahahaha..:D db, so prang admu thinks that the freshies, cant solve, add, subtract or watsoever..it will be just about algebra, geometry and trigo lng nmn..samantalang kami pre-calculus na kami kagad..

wala lng naicp ko lng..kc mostly ng mga freshies prang natatakot sa test na un sa math 11..kung iicpin naman it's just a combination ng basic algeb, geom and trigo at applications nito..db..maybe kailngan nga nila magbasa ng notes..but that test, i dont think it would be that hard..maybe its like the math sa acet..kaya, kaya nila un..hahahaha..:D

ATENEO MATHEMATICS SOCIETY

last monday, we had our orientation for the ateneo mathematics society..hehehe..:D and masaya xa..hehehe..:D ang mlungkot lang late n ko nkauwi at pra mabilis i rode a cab n lng..and it cost me 60 bucks..but f m going to ride a jeep..that would be 3 rides and it will just cost me around 16.50..laki ng difference..hehehe..:D but ok n rin kasi gabi na rin e..pti takot ako magcommute ng gabi..hehehe..:D

ok before that..nung morning we had our lecture about volleyball sa p.e..hehehe..:D dala ko ung hand outs ko nung high school..hahaha..:D

then math n nmn..haaayyyyy..super nbobo kmi..luckily, nggetz ko nmn ung lesson..hehehe.:D

hmm..still thinking if papabasa ko sau boss..hahahaha..:D wink wink..

2005-06-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

saturday with high school friends..:D

hapie 19th birthday jason!!! hehehehehe..:D

nkklungkot d nkpunta c tin, cha, reb, at c boss angel dondee..i miss them..hayyy..i miss
him..bsta..

but nkpunta nmn cla prix and ches..hehehe..:D at ksama ko c ate nikki..yeeeyyy..hehehehe..:D

so party..wala akong kilala..c benjo, stretch at kaunting tao lng naalala ko..hahahahaha..:D

msaya kc may kantahan, ay d ako nkkuha ng balloon..waaaahhh..i want a balloon..hehehehe..:D

at ngaun, m really tired n..im sleepy, so m ging to sleep n..bye.. nyt..:D

friday with blockmates ulit

friday, ate my lunch around 10 am..12:30 kc class ko e..:D

so un math n nmn..haaayyy..buhay, quiz kmi..oh gossshh..buti n lng tama sagot ko..hehehe..:D

so un, hntay until 2:30 for english..hehe..:D

at dun nlaman kong kclose pla ni rayrand c robert rabuco..naks liit tlga ng mundo..nywy ito p
pla..

last wednesday: nkita ni ayie pic ni dondee at video sa phone ko..haaayyy..
last thursday: nbsa ni paolo ung msg skin nung dondee nung wednesday night..waaaahhh..ung may
831..patay..

at nagsimula n ang buong block sa pangaasar skin kay dondee..waaaahhhh..

haaaaayyyyy, buhay..

at nung gabi, sasran pa kmi ni rayrand sa sun..banana and pusit..ako and black..hahahaha..:D
at mdmi n akong nlaman n nkklungkot sknya..naiiyak 2loy ako..haaaayyyy..

thursday with blockmates

so last thursday, 7 n ako gumising kc 10:30 p class ko..saya noh..hehehehe..:D

10:30 with math haaaayyyy..and we ate lunch at mcdo..hehehehe..:D at ngaun mejo mdmi kmi mga
11 nmn..hahahaha..:D

tpos filipino n nmn..at test n nmn kmi..haaaayyy..grabeh..nkkdrain, pero ntpos ko nmn ung
test..buti n lng,.sana lng regular kmi..pra msaya db..hehehehe..:D

at nghintay kmi sa may jollibee..saya..hehehe..:D dpat alis n ko ng 4..kzo hnintay p nmin ung
sundo ni paolo puti..hehehehe..:D at s pkkipagusap kay paolo puti, mdmi p lng xang kakilala n
kakilala ko rin..saya..hehehehe..:D

wednesday with e23

so un masaya rin 2ng day n 2 khit hanggang 4:30 class ko..hehehe..ngtest n nmn
kmi..haaaayyy..nkkpgod..

tpos ksma ko n nmn ang block www..naks..i love our block

at d2 n ngcmula ang asaran 2ngkol kay friend..hahaha..:D kay boss..hahahaha..:D pasimuno c
rayrand..hahaha..:D haaaayyy...

cant say much about my wednesday..

bsta we had our pe, intact na walang teacher, tpos math n nmn..haaaayyy..sobrang nkkdrain ang
math..d ble kya ko p 2..kkyanin..gus2 kong kumita ng malki pagdating ng panahon..actuarial!!!
hehehehe..:D taas ng sweldo nun..hehehe..:D

bsta un..:D

umuwi ako with my blockmate..at 6 n ako nakuwi..hehehehe..:D

tuesday with block www and hahaha..:D

hmm..ok my day start around 7:45..ang time nungdumating ako s admu..1st day of
classes..hehehe..:D ang aga ko 10:30 p class ko..hahaha..:D kc boss and i were going to talk
that day..sbi nmin 7:30..pero ako..nlate ako..at siya rin..late..haaayyy..he arrived mga 8:10
n..

first, tinawagan ko ang cousin ko n pamangkin ko..kc admu rin siya..saya noh..:D kzo 12:00 p
class nya..awwww..

luckily, i saw my blockmate jinno..yeeeeyyy..may ksama na ako..hehehe..:D
so un, naghintay ako for dondee..at dumating na siya, halatang galit xa..sa tngin
nya..waaaahhhh...creepy...promise, first time mkita c boss n seryoso, nkktkot..kaya feeling
ko glit xa..

dondee: usap na tayo
me: ngayon n
dondee: oo
me: jinno, wait lng ha
jinno: ok

so un, nagusap nga kmi ni boss..

dondee: so anu?
me: bsta, may nalaman ako..
dondee: anu nga ung nlaman mo, kulang oras ntin..9:30 may klase na ako
me: mhiap deretsuhin
dondee: sabihin mo..

at ayun nasbi ko n nga sknya..i dont want to elaborate pa ung mga un d2..bsta gnun..at the
end naayos dn nmin..yeeeeyyyy..im soo hapie..so un, pmnta n kmi ng sec kung san ung class
nya..at nkita n nya ung mga blockmates nya..but it turned out n bumlik kmi s may quad
1..haaayyy..

at naupo ulit..at nagmakaawanghatid ko xa ng sec ulit..haaayyy..at dhil dun..may nangyaring
bgay, kaya ako inaasar ng mga blockmates ko..haaayyy..hintak kc ako ni dondee..so hawak nya
ang kamay ko..atang msaklap nkita kmi ni jinno, n ngllkad habang hawak ni dondee ang kamay
ko..haaaayyy..so un blik ng sec..

at habang naguusap, npagusapan ang 831..nhulaan n daw nya..at pgdting s may schimmt hall..at
dun cnbi nya ung meaning ng 831..

dondee: 831, i love you..

haaaayyy, mukha 2loy akong tangang nakatayo dun at tnitngnan xang
maglakad..haaaayyyy..nksmile akong prang ewan..hahahaha..:D labo ko tlga..hehehe..:D

at pagblik kay jinno, cnu un friend?!?

me: friend lng un
jinno: friend lng b?
me: yupyup
jinno: tlga

so un, 1st class, math..huwatt..axiom 1.1, def 1.1, def 1.2.watduh..anu to..anu
proving..ha?!? waaaahhhh!!! naiiyak ako..waaaaahhhh..

den lunch s shakeys..yeeeeyy..ang saya..hahahaha..:D 9 kming lhat..hehehe..:D if naalala ko
p, c mickey, ako, rina, mikko, paulo, rigel,athan, micheal, at ayie..hhehe..:D dpat ksama p
nmin ung iba kazo ngkhiwalay kmi pumnta ung iba sa caf..hehehe..:D

so next class, filipino..ohhh noo, ngtest kmi..haaaaaayyyy..sana regular kmi pra msaya..pls
nmn..pra msaya..:D

after nun, ngkita kmi ni reb, at ngusap, at biglang dumating c boss..at dpat sana sabay n
kaming lalabas ni reb ng admu..kzo nauna na siya at ksama ko n c
boss..haaayyy..buhayyy..hehehe..:D

so we went to osa p s ateneo high..at nkita ko c tricia..saya ng buhay..hehehe..:D at un nung
nsa osa kmi..pnkilala ako ni dondee sa ilang tao..haaaayyyy..

friend ni dondee: ah siya ba si boss angel
dondee: sabi sau kilala ka di2 e..
me: sbihin ko kayang d ako c boss angel
dondee: tampo na ko (sabay talikod)
me:joke lng..hehehe..:D
teacher: ay may babae rito..hmmm..

at ang teacher, ay alam dn ang 2ngkol s boss angel..haaayyy naku..buhay..

at pagktpos sbay na kaming umuwi ni dondee..since sobrnag traffic s katipunan, sa xavierville
kmi dumaan..hehehe..:D athabang nsa loob ng taxi, klulitan kmi..hahahaha..:D kulit kc ni
boss..sobra..at bglang

dondee: tama b ung hula ko sa 831
me: umm..hindi..joke lng..hehehe..:D yup
dondee: yeeeeyyyy..

at nakakatuwang part bglang pn2g2g ang 1st day funk..hahahaha..:D sayaw boss..ito pang
nkk2wa..npansin ko kc..so gngwa nya ung hand moves nung sayaw..but hawak nya ung kamay
ko..haaaayyyy..saya tlga nung day n un..haaaayyy, sana maulit muli..hahahaha..:D

well, tama c boss that is also my best taxi ride ever..hehehe..:D

monday with dea

last monday, dea went to our house pra kunin ung naiwan nya sa bhay na psalubong sa iba..:D
masaya n rin kc i had the chance pra maglabas ng sama ng loob..ng hirap..ng sakit and
everything...

at ppnu i had the chance pra mapagaan ang problema at pagtawanan ang problema..haaayyy..
sobra, nngungulila ako nung mga oras n un..haaayyy..so sad..i miss him..i love
him..gossshhh..*sssshhhh..quiet n lng tau..hahahaha..:D

so un, tpos i need to go to sm to get my glasses..start n kc ng classes..at kailngan ko ng
glasses..hirap kc ng contacts e..hehehe..:D

so ang nbili kong glasses ay worth 4K at cnusumpa na ako ng dad ko..haaayyy..

tpos nksama ko p c dei sa sm kaya msaya..we ate at wendys..hehehe..:D at d ko naubos ang
frosty ko..sobrang busog na talaga ako..hehehehe..:D takaw ko kc..:D

after that, hinatid na namin c dei sa house nila..

at ngkaroon pa ako ng chance to have a last look of my beloved school, stc..waaahhh..i miss
that school n talaga..haaayyy..umalis nlg kmi, mdming ngbago..

at kmi n pla ang last batch ng iv4..nkakaiyak..bbguhin n nila ang name ng mga
sections..haaayyy...i miss iv4 n..

i miss phoebe, badet, kathy, abby, betsy, roda, ira, tin, mary, kel, jen, dulay, abel,
tricia, jovian, gatz, kay, chiqui, claire, mimi, mau, dei, val, crisa, amor, gia, l.a., cy,
prix, tash, poi, elai, mariae, gcel, ib, kat r, cheenee, gie, aud, roszanne, ches, charmi,
joyce, toots, hanna, bagie, and paula..haaayyy..i miss them..

i miss stc..i miss highchool..

*bummer..sadness fills me now..

2005-06-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

guidance test: 26 people made my day..jollibee..

guidance test nmin..hehehe..:D so un tnwagan ko c trinna pra sabay kmi pmunta ng
admu..hehehe..:D and wen we arrived s room nmin kmi p lng ang block WWW at mayamaya, dumating n rin ung iba..at ngusap kmi ni paolo n..

me: waaahhhh..d ko n tlga alam gagawin ko..
paolo n: ok lng yan, ngkita ba kayo knna?
me: nope
paolo n: nagkita kami kanina
me: tlga, buti k pa..
paolo n: nkita ko lng siya sa baba tpos nkita ko rin siya kahapon sa enrollment
me: aba, iba n yan ah
paolo n: oo kmi n
me: gnun..hahahahaha..:)

nakakatuwa k tlga paolo..tnx..:D

after the guidance test, we all decided to go to jollibee kasi gutom n c mickey..hehehe..:D

at nakalinyang pmnta ng jollibee ang block WWW..

hahahaha..:D ingay ntin..ang saya p!!!:D d best tlga kaung lhat..:D

tpos ang msaya p, nalaman kong kpreha ko ng pe c rina..yeeeyyy!!! hehehe..:D so hapie..

so un, we stayed there for an hour tpos umuwi n rin kmi..umuwi ako ksama c
michael..ngkahiwalay n lng kmi sa may up, kc s SM punta nya..
m so glad that, khit ppnu may mga taong ngpapasaya skin..:D m so glad nandyan ang block
WWW!!!:D the best kau!!!:D

enrollment: 1st time

haaaayyyy, d ako mgcng..late na kc ako n2log..so pinilit lng nila ako 2mayo..
so wen we got to ateneo..hala, muntikan na akong ml8..hehehe..:D
at sa pagkuha ng p.e. ko..haaaayyyy......

i want pe 101, sadly, d n pwede..puno na rin ang badminton at ballroom..

kaya napunta skin ang p.e.116 which is volleyball..hehehe..:D

ok n rin..hehehe..:D

den we went to xavier hall pra magbayad..whoow..55K ang aking tuition..hehehe..:D kumbaga
prang tuition ko n s stc for 1 year kc nsa 60K sa stc..hehehe..:D

ok, tpos n rin ang lahat..

n2log lng ako all day...

tpos my mom asked me bkit daw prang umiyak ako..oh no...i just told her that sa mga tao lng
tao..pero alam ko nmn cguro na alam ni ate kathleen tungkol dito cz nakita nya ako umiyak
last night..at buti n lng ngsbi na lang xa ng mga bgay2 sa pbirong way pra d na ako tnungin p
ng mom ko..

tpos that night..dondee texted me and asked me f kailan me free pra mkpagusap n kmi..so un we
decided dis tues..sana nga lng tlga maayos nmin 2..siya lng nsa icp ko ngaun..haaaayyyy..

orsem day 3: orsem night..a blast..

during the third day of the orsem, i talked to reb and i told him about what i did last
night..i told him n ngmsg ako kay dondee stating kung anung nangyayari ngayon, ung mga
gumugulo sa utak ko and everything..and reb told me that it's better n nga kung mguusap kmi..

so un, kasama nmin ung mga eng block nmin, saya rin, kc iba2 course nmin..hehehe..:D
at nagulat na lang ako ng cnbi sakin ni ate kat ni tin dat addison and pinggoy are studying
at ateneo rin..whoooww...really..m surprised, i thought they are going to study at la salle
kc..hahahaha..:D 2 bad d ako close knla addison at pinggoy..hahahaha..:D oh well, better use
my charisma, and ask them..harharhar..

nywy since we were with our english blocks, 4 lang kaming bs math dun and may classmate kmi
na sobrang kwela..c mahding..astig xa..hahahaha..:D gling sumayaw..hehehe..:D

we really had a great time with our blockmates tlga..:D
at ng mgccmula n ang orsem night..nakitakita kmi ng iilan sa block WWW..yeeeyyy..:D
hehehehe..:D it was quite fun..naubusan ako ng boses..kksigaw for kuya yael..hahahaha..:D

*jeepney

*lunes

*klsp..hahahaha..:D

and while m looking pra sa ibang blockmates nmin, i saw reb..hahahaha..:) i told him dat
ngppakasaya n ko kc alam ko mamya iiyak na ko..den bglang may ngtakip n lng ng mata ko..and
it was boss angel dondee..kulit tlga kahit kailan, he tried to untie my
rubbershoes..grrrrrrrr....haaaayyy, ewanko b..m really happie when m with him..

NGUNIT...

ng dumating na ang oras upang harapin xa..he just told me that ayaw nya muna magsalita
ngaun..oh gawd..ang sakit..d ko kaya..sobrang sakit..so i cried all night..i talked to love
anne, cha, and paulo nevado since old friend pla ni paulo c dondee..

tnx guys sa advice..sa pag2long skin..grabeh, kung wala kau, sobrang mas d ko ata kakayanin..
kaya sa kakaisip, nak2log na ko ng 2:30 am..haaaaayyyy..

orsem day 2

i really has a great time during our group dynamics..

go for daddy javi and mommy kathrese..ah w8..should i say father javi since i was able to
meet our real dadi na..dadi erick..hahahaha..:D

it was though..kazo mejo nakakapagod dn..but sadly, nalaman namin that on the third day of
the orsem, english blocks na ung mga ksama nmin..waaaahhhh..iyakan n ba 2..
during the orsem day 2, i was able to meet more people..

at nagpalabas din ang blue babble..haaayyyy..i cant shout..i wanna cheer for la
salle..hahahaha..:) wen i told kuya javi about this, tumawa na lang siya..hahahaha..:D

haaayyy..sadly, something happened that night..

i got angry to dondee because nagtago xa sa ym..grrr and he even told me that he's going to
sleep n..i really hate those people n nagccnungaling skin..but wat can i do, i cant hate him,

i just love him so much..

so ayun, i decided to message him na rin about the thing na nalaman ko..that kept me bothered
for the past month..haaayyyy..i just hope that its not true..

saying good bye to a sweet memory

2005-06-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

haaay, y do these things need to happen..

llu n we i realized that i love him..ngayon p..

dondee..m not talking about smarla..iba 2..maaring mayrun k pang d nssbi..n nlman ko..maybe galit k skin..ewanko d ako glit sau..kzo lng, nsasaktan ako ng sobra..

llu n ngaun, that we're not going to talk n rin..llung ngpphirap p skin ngayon..

oh gawd, bakit ako ngmahal ng tao, n hindi rin magmamahal sa akin ng tunay..haaaayyyy...

all i wanna do is to cry..sobrang sakit..d ko alam kung kasalanan ko ba..bsta alam ko msakit..

alam kong d nbbsa 2 ni dondee..but i just want to tell him, that m really sori..pero..after nung cnbi mo..nsaktan ako ng sobra, dko alam f mgagalit ako o hindi..prang feeling ko, nbetray ako ng taong importante sa akin..

and now m saying good bye to my..my own boss angel..and saying helo to my greatest fear of losing him..oh gawd, y do these things need to happen..i love him..pero xa..ewanko sa kanya..haaayy..llu akong nsaksaktan wen you told me you need to think about this, y do you need to think about this kung wala kang tinatago..

*bummer*..now i lost the person that i love so much..prang knna lng sa orsem, puro tawa..cguro, tama ung nsbi ko knna nung orsem, n bka un n ung last talk nmin..haaayyy, atleast masaya ako sa last talk ntin..

masaya ako..pero ngaun..naging kalungkutan n..nabalutan ako ng takot, lungkot, at kung anu2 p..

need to talk to him,pra maayos 2, at sana nga lang maayos nmin 2..at ang wish ko lng maayos..d ko kaya f m goin to lose him..hindi ko kaya..i love him so much..masakit para sa akin na mawala siya sa buhay ko..

pero if ang mangyari ay maging magulo, i have no choice but to let him go..wala na rin naman akong magagawa, nasa kanya ang desisyon..at wala akong mggwa dun..kundi umiyak..o maging masaya...

i just hope i would not say good bye to my sweetest memory..to my boss angel..to the person i love..

i love yous so much dondee.........

but.....sa pagtakbo ng araw, at sa desisyon mo dun ko lng malalaman kung magiging msaya ako o hindi..

haaayyyy..i dont wanna say good bye to the person who is everything to me..my laughter, my strength, my happiness...

day 1: orsem 2005: WWW/ triple W/ W WW

2005-06-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

wats the difference..triple W is our name, block W and block WW..block W, for bs math and
block WW for applied math with computational science..:D

orsem day 1 was quite fun, i was able to meet new people..hmm..sa kasamaang palad..isa lang
talaga ang naktiyaga ng kakulitan ko at c miko un..hahahaha..:D

ok, b4 that..i would like to elaborate more wat happened to me today..first, i tried to sleep
around 12:30 am cz i have to wake up 4 am..but i cant sleep, and happily, i was able to sleep
around 1:30 am n..and my mom and ate kris woke me up around 3:50..

mama: *opening the lights..gcng n..
me: yes ma, *talukbung ng unan..

*after a few minutes..

ate kris: gcng n..mlpit n mg4..
me: oo * half asleep

*after a few minutes ulit..

mama: gcng n..
me: opo..antok p ko..

and tumayo n ko ng 4 hehehe..:D

so need to prepare my things and myself..and i had a problem with my contacts, stupid ko
kc..i didnt apply the solution to the contacts after the cleaner, so mahapdi xa..at naiiyak
ako sa sakit..and my mom told me that i was doin it all wrong..so i consumed the 30 minutes
of my time just trying to put on my contacts..haaaayyyy..

so..umalis n ko ng 6..and i came to ateneo around quarter to 7..

and while nsa linya kmi..i saw boss angel dondee..and told me that pumipila ako sa maling
pila..wel, tama xa..k ang pila ay nsa loob, sadyang lhat ng tao pumila sa labas..wel, thnx to
boss' help..hehehe..:D

okie, now, nsan c reb..and boss told me to place my things first sa seat ko..so i did..and
wen i went back..d ko n nkita c boss so i planned to go to the registration area..to see f
nandun n c reb..but d ko mkita..at sumskit n ang mata ko nun..maybe its my
contacts..arghh..at pagblik, i saw boss again..and we looked for reb..at nandun pla xa nkpila
for the change..

reb: kat, lika dito
me: bakit, *pinch or shud i say dinakma ang braso ni reb..hahahaha..:D nmiss kita ah!!
*itong lokong reb n 2, walang mgwang mtino sa buhay, isang tao n lng nsa hrap nya atxa n ung

susunod n isserve s pila..den...

reb: mamya n..
kat: weird mo tlga mlpit k n eh
reb: tntmad n ko..

**haaaayyy, kaw tlga..hahaha..:D and now yuo're wearing a reading glasses..pero actually, mas
gus2 ko f you'll gonna wear the sunglasses u wore last march 6..it really suit you..and he
really looks kyut dun..hahahaha,,:D *quiet...shhhhhhhh..kaya ko nga nging crush c reb for i
think 2 weeks..hahahaha..:D kailangan pumigil, kay cha un..hahahaha..:D

*ooopppssss..eeeennnggggkkk *buzzer..mali..hahahaha..:D cge thimik n lng ako dun..:D
and den we went to our designated blocks n..haaayyy, my blockmates were so passive tlga..i
cant talk..they are to quiet..so i tried chatting with my seatmates..i think it was miko and
jr..hehehe..:D

and wen we have to go for the campus tour, we have to get a partner..and my partner was
miko..hehehehe..:D mejo thimik c miko, but m glad i was able to make him laugh through my
antiques..hahahahaha..:D i was so talkative to him kc..hehehe..:D im so sori.. but at least
we had fun, running around the ateneo campus, and talking about going back to the covered
court because we are really, ah w8..wat i mean by really is "REALLY" pagod n..water cant do
anything even food..all i hope is that i could sit..and rest..hehehehe..:D

and ntpos dn ang campus tour after 3 1/2 ng pagttakbo sa buong ateneo..hehehe..:D

nywy our TNTs are so kulit, and they are so fun to be with..ate katreshe..and kuya
javi..hahahaha..:D and sobrnag daldal..hahahaha..:D

so un, we're back s court..and we ate lunch..*yummy..pero d ko n maubos..

me: d mo n rin kaya?
miko: mdami kasi e
me: o nga e..san kaya 2 pwedeng ilgay..
miko: ittpon daw dun..*stand up, walk
*i followed miko..and we trew out trash..and wen i got back to me seat..i saw boss angel

dondee..ah w8, boss angel donkey..hahahaha..:D s stage, he joined the game kc f cnung unang
mkaubos ng isang pack ng chippy..hehehe..:D and i kept on laughing..and miko was looking at
me..nttawa kc ako..pinipilit ubusin ung chippy..hahahaha..:D

nywy pandagdag sa mga bagong pangalan ni boss: donkey!!!, dati: dindo, dieg, doding
daga..donkey n!!! hahahaha..:D kyut!!! hahahaha..:D

so un, after we ate lunch, group dynamics n kmi, and there i was able to talk to other n rin,
kat, janeen and i forgot ung isa, a ung cmula and shes studying at assumption makati..d ble
mkkuha ko ulit un tom..:D haha..:D

and the good thing, since ngmerge ang W and WW..solo was there..a fellow
theresian..hehehe..:D m so hapieee!!! hehehehe..:D

so there, we played, do you love me, tie the knot, the boat is sinking according to the
category..hahahaha..:D

january: 3
4: 2
qc: mdmi 2..
phone model: wala..ngiisa ako..
i forgot the other categories dun sa boat is sinking e..but it was quite fun..:D

and den we watched a film, and afterwards the sanggu talk take place..:D

den mass, hndi ako nk2log!!! pero, inaantok ako, at msakit n ulo ko at mata ko..

dismissal!!! i looked for ate kat or much known as nikki..ate nikkkiiiii!!!

*hug..
ate nikki: uy, hnhnap kita ah
me: ikaw rin e
*kwen2-kwen2..den i bid farewell..

and s gate, nkita ko n lng c boss sa likod ko..and he introduce me to his friend, and i
forgot the name, or baka mali lng ako, i think its dino ata..m not xur..

boss' friend: ikaw c boss angel
me: nope..m not boss angel..ibang tao un
boss: nktlikod n lng..hehehe..:D
boss' friend: kmzta mag-alaga c dondee
me: ha?!? *question mark , to dondee: anu raw
boss: wala
me: ha?
boss: wala un

at paglabas, nandun c smarla, nywy..i want to amke kwento about smarla, we tlaked last night
kc s ym..hmm..she wanted to talk with me raw..kaya un..tpos un, ngkita kmi knna..hehehe..:D

**haaayyy, d p rin nttnggal ung cnbi ni jas skin...waaaaahhhhh...so after all he's lying to
me..waaaahhhh.....

bsta stop n nga ang drama..

nywy i saw clang!!! yaaaahhhooo..another fellow theresian, m so hapie..hehehehe..:D got to
see my friends..hehehehe..:D

den, hntid ako ni boss s gate 3, need to get a jeep kc..but i told him wag n baka hnapin p xa
ng dad nya..pero un..and instead of getting a jeep ngtaxi kmi preho..kc pngtaxi n lng xa ng
dad nya..and bumaba n lng ako sa visayas ave..and i took a jeep to city hall, then a
tricycle..hehehehehe..:D

and now, my right eye still hurts..haaaaayyy, m wasted, m haggard,
m.........*boogggg..down..hahahaha..:D

..madagascar..

2005-06-05T11:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday, we watched madagascar..and m with tin, pix, dei, jas and boss angel dondee..nkhbol
c boss..hehehe..:D supposed to be kc d n xa ppnta..but nkhbol xa..hehehe..:D
first, dumating cla prix and dei s house ng 10 at d p ako nkaayos..haaaayyy..kaya 11 n ko
nagcmulng ngayos..at isang ktangahan hnatak ko ung isang tali, kaya ngksugat ung kamay
ko..waaaahhhh!!! hehehehe..:D

at next dumating n c jas s bhay nila..buti n lng..(jas our savior!!!) hehehe..:D
kaya npilit n rin nmin xang sumama..yeeeyyy!!! hehehe..:D
at nung nsa sm n kmi ng 1:30..wala p rin c tin..tin tlga khit kailan..hehehe..:D at dumating
xa ng 2..hahahha..:D

first, kailangan nmin tingnan f wat time ung movie..at ang nklgay 2:10..2:15 n..mhaba ang
pila..at bbli p ng food..kaya sbi n lng nmin ung 4pm n lng..hehehe..:D at pumunta muna kmi ng
annex..kc may pnpbili mom ko s derma..hehehe..:D hahaha..:D nkkhiya tlga ako khit kailan, the
lady asked me anung kailangan ko..sbi ko ung soap n may kahoy-kahoy..hehehe..:D d ko kc alam ung twag e..hehehe..:D kaya un..:D

b4 dat, nkita p nmin c cy..naks!!! hehehehe..:D nkkmiss tlga ang iv4..hehehe..:D

den we ate s jollibee/ greenwich..c tin s jollibee, kmi s greenwich..hehehe..:D at ngtxt c
boss hbang kumakain kmmi..nsa sm n raw xa..yeeeeyyyy!!! hehehe..:D kaya ngkita n lng kmi s
cinema..hehehe..:D

yeeeyyy!! madagascar time n!!!

seats..dei, prix, ako, tin, dondee, jas..

jas: kat, plit tau ng pwesto..
me: bkit?!?
jas: malmig s pwesto ko
me: ayoko nga..
jas: cge na..
me: pgiicipan ko..
jas: *counting from 10 to 1
me: cge n nga..(*thinking: ang alam ko mas mlmig s pwesto q pnu nging hindi mlmig dun..loko k
tlga jas..alam ko ung iniicp mo!!!)

hehehe..:D

ang ganda ng madagascar..and i miss my friends n rin..:D kaya un..:D

tpos may mga pnunthan kmi after nng movie..at c boss, ay umalis n nung quarter to 6..dhil may
mass p xang ppntahan ng 6..s kasamaang palad..6:30 xa nkrting ng bahay, dhil sa lakas ng
ulan, at sobrang trffic..at kmi nmn ay nstranded s sm..haaayy..masama n pkiramdam ni
jas..*patay..sobrang bait tlga ni boss..khit kailan he texted me..to say n umalis n kmi kc
wala ng taxi..and everything..xa n lng ngiicp ng praan pra sa amin..hehehe..:D

tpos hnintay nmin 2mila ang ulan kc wala kming dalang payong kundi jacket lng..ahaaayyy..
at hnintay p nmin sundo nila prix at dumating ng 8:30..kaya we planned to go home n
rin..(*escaflowne the movie kc ng 9pm)

*hala..walang taxi..ptay..dhil s pgkgling-gling ni jas..nkgawa kmi ng praan..lumabas kmi ng
sm..at nghnap ng jeep..*patay, haba ng pila ng ppntang city hall..ayaaaayyyy..at may pumarang
jeep s dulo ng linya..kung nsan kmi..at lhat ng tao ay ngdagsaan..kaya sbi ni jas pmnta n rin
kmi..at dhil mdming tao..2 seats n lng ntitira s jeep..eh 3 kmi..c tin, ako pti c jas..c tin
kc mgoovernight n lng smin kaysa pmnta p xa ng valenzuela..kaya ang solusyon..kinandong n lng nmin c jas..hahahaha..:D c tin nkkatawa tlga khit kailan..nktingin n skn lhat ng tao s kktawa
ko..c tin kc e..hehehe..:D

at nkauwi rin kmi ng ilang minutes bgo mg-9..at pgdting s room, escaflowne n!!!! yeeeeyyyy!!!
naabutan nmin..hehehe..:D

at c tin nmn, nilulubos ang bkasyon..ayaw m2log..2m n kc pasok nya..s FEU..hehehe..:D kaya
nk2log n kmi ng 3 am..at s paggcing nmin..bumubusina n ung sundo ni tin..nggcng lng kmi ng
10:30 hahahaha..:D kulang p ng 30 mins pra mging 8 hrs of sleep..hehehe..:D

well, yan ang nkktawa, masya, at kakaibang buhay nmin khpon..hehehe..:D

cge bye..:D

arghh..is it true..arghhh..i hope not..

2005-06-03T16:03:00.000+08:00

arghhh..jas told me something about someone..waaahhhhh!!!!!

oh gawd...why is dis happening to me..waaaahhhhh!!!!

The day you said goodnight

Verse 1:
Take me as you are,
Push me off the road
The sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun,
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming, calling out your name

Pre-Chorus:
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah, you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what I'll do if we say goodbye...

Chorus:
To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need is time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight

Verse 2:
The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down

(Repeat Pre-Chorus)

(Repeat Chorus)

Bridge:
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all right

She's already taken,
She's already taken,
She's already taken me...

The day you said goodnight...

would i smile or cry...

2005-06-02T00:17:00.000+08:00

*sighhh..maybe cha is right..i need to ask him..pero pnu ko ttnngin..haaayyyy..bhala n..

cguro its better f m not going to talk to him muna..

pero d ko ata kaya un ah..haaayyyy..bhala n..

being with him..will really make me hapie..or it will make my life more miserable..or he's gonna be another pain in my life..

arghhh..oh gawd..

bhala n tlga...arghhhh..

better sleep n..cnsbihan n ko ng dad ko..

so byeee..night...

*argh..so confuse of my own reality..

2005-05-30T22:47:00.000+08:00

been thinking for the past weeks..pero it still turned blank..and becuase of this, late n ko n22log prti..and nddmay n rn ang klagayan ko ngaun..i really feel sick..prting nhihilo..and feeling ko mgkktrangkaso p..trangkaso s summer?!? kakaiba noh..haaayyy..oras ng pag2log..10 pm..pero ang isip ko ntthimik lng pagdting ng 1-3 ng madaling araw.

but eventhough gnun..m still glad that i have my bestfriend..neil..n kaya ko p ring labasan ng sama ng loob..problema..but maiintindihan kaya ako ni neil..oh gawd..i know that i miss him so much..pero he changed a lot and he's not the neil dat i liked before..haaaayyyy..

nywy i read neil's message s friendster ko..and i realized n gnun pla kmi kclose noon..but ngaun..prang the bridge between us is shattered..or should i say dilapidated..cz khit sira n..we're still trying to connect pero prang walang use..he's not the best ive known..haaayyy..

ohh yeah..i miss our talks..while m making my own vowel sounds..hahaha..:) ahhh eeeehhhh ummm..hmmm..eeeeeeee..hahaha..:D i could still remember..the good nights..the i love yous..the hugs..the kisses..watduh..should i need to remember those stuffs if i could tell/give this to the person that i truly love now..*siggghhhh..but i cant..

i need to control myself..need to concentrate..need to think more for myself..

m i really lucky?!? i dont think so..m loving a person that i dont know if he loves me for who i am..as his own boss angel..*arghhh..

**ei..m sori..f mejo mgulo mga post ko ngaun..m having thoughts ngaun s utak ko n hndi ko matanggal..*siiigggggghhhhhh..

i have my check up p 2m pero hndi p rin ako nkkpgphinag bcz of the thoughts that kept me hanging..cant see my own destiny, my own future..

m really confuse.....need to think..but i need to rest........

*mood: *singing the day you said goodnight.......

m out....

*watduh..is dis true..or a joke

2005-05-29T14:02:00.000+08:00

ha?!? i answered a blog quiz..a guess wat anung result..i dunno if u're gonna be surprised or something..but it turned something like this..

i dunno if you'll gonna believe dis..

but i was surprised

hahahaha..*letting out my evil laugh..bwahahaha

bhla n kung 22o..

bhala n tlga..

i judt hope hindi mbasa ng isang tao 2,,

wag sana..

m so dead f he's gonna read this..

or i shall change n lng ung mga nksulat pra masaya..

yeah..un n nga lng..

*ohhh goooossssshhhhh...

is he really me soulmate..

hahahaha..:D if so..il be happie..

hehehe..:D he's my angel..he's my boss angel..

bsta i2 n..pls queit lng kau ha..

i2 kc lumbas s quiz..

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

someone*secret*(d pwede sbihin for some reason kc bka mbsa nya hahaha..:)) is your soulmate.

You truly love Charisse.

You consider Prixie your true friend.

You know that Cheska is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Reb for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Jason is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Justine is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Justine is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Justine changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Dea is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Dea has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

i love r2!!!

2005-05-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

hahaha..at last..i was able to watch starwars..episode 3..the revenge of the sith..khpon..yeeeyyyy!!!

and i love r2..he's cute..hahahaha..:D he's funny..:D hehehe..and a very intelligent robot..hahaha..:D

sayang, amidala died..stupid anakin..he cant control destiny..i know that he loves padame..but he must not give himself to the dark side..*oohhh..and he even tried to kill padame..so thats what he wants..to control everything..to take over the world..

change topic..awwww,,ang kyut ng twins..luke and leah..waahhh..it so sad nga lng..amidala died just because of ani's stupidity..argh...

its also sad..knowing that ani killed the younglings...waaaaahhhh...nnnooooooooo!!!! haaaayyyy...

ok..ok..stop n rin ako d2..m still having those asar or watsoever from the movie..haaayy...

but xempre according to cha..hayden is so kyut daw..well, il agree with dat..hehehe..:D but dont wori d ko xa crush..hahahaha..:) hindi p nga pla tpos ung list ko ng crush ko..6 p lng nbbgay ko noh..hehehe..:D ddagdagan ko yan!!! hahaha..:D

okie..bye...

*bummer..i do miss someone a lot..

2005-05-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

last night, my bestfriend and i talked about many stuffs, about our lives ngaun..oh yeah..he changed a lot..and i would like to make an emphasis on the "A LOT" phrase..*bummer..but m happie dat eventhough we separated lives..we're happie n rin..

hehehe..and im hapie cz..we're gonna talk later s phone..hehehe..:D i miss his "batang" voice..hehehe..:D its kinda cute..hehehe..:D i wanna hear some stories din..of course about his pamangkin..andrei..hehehe..:D andrei turned one ata last april 19..hehehe..:D bsta..:D

lapit n nga pla ng june..anniv nmin ni best s june 23..hehehe..:D 2nd anniversary..as bestfriends..naks..hehehe..:D *weird..alam ko kc tlgang weird ako..hehehe..:D

ok, m gonna stop this post n..bye....

i've been blind all along..without the sight of my life..*argh...

2005-05-29T13:13:00.000+08:00

in two weeks time..or should i say..in less than two weeks, m gonna start my college life..*reality check..well, un nga tlga..anu bang magagawa ko..ehhh..m not like the others who wanted to be in college to be liberated or so..

m a person who wanted to be free but with the freedom of control..i want someone to grasp me..and hold me tight..so that i cant do anything stupid or bad..all i want is to do what i think will lead me to my own success..not only to my own success, but also for others..

i wanna make my parents proud of me..being a responsible daughter..to be cautious of my actions and everything..but i know, the time will come when all these things will change..will college life change this? i hope not..if m going to step into college life, i wanna be known for who i am..not seeing my reflection from other people..

*these past few days, ive been writing sad realities of my life..sana d n ito dumami p..cz it really makes me sad..

i wanna walk again to the halls of my alma mater..
i want to be with my friends, kada..

*sigh..anywy, laurence, asked me yesterday, kung pwede b raw mgkita-kita raw kmi ulit..hayy..i just hope that diane's not there..and oh-pls..i dont wanna hear anything from the past..m hapie with my life..

m hapie with someone..

haaayy..hope that someone knows how he means to me..i love him so much..hehehe..but pls..*quiet n lng kau ha..hehehe..:D

a career..that never been traced..

2005-05-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

hahaha..:D m doing this post because of boss angel dondee..:D hahaha..:D nguusap kc kmi knna s phone..because we decided dat khit once..twag xa s house..at tngnan nmin if anung mangyayari..luckily..it went well nmn..my mom didnt even noticed n nsa phone ako because htey are watching ung rplay ng american idol..hehe..:D

while, we're talking, i told boss angel dondee..na umupo at tumayo xa and ibaba ung phone pra nmn mpnood nmn nya ung american idol..instead he told me to give him the direction ppnta sa door ng room nya..ang hirap tlga..

me: hmm..diretso..
boss: *booogggg,,tama sa desk..
me: turn left..lakad..
boss: *booogggg..tama sa computer table..

**promise it so hard to give directions llu n kpag wala kang alam and all u have to do is to visualize ang mga bagay-bagay..hahaha..:D hirap nun ah..

so i got a paper and a ballpen..so i could draw it and it would be easier nmn..hahaha..:D and my drawing goes like this..i just hope that tama ung placing ko ng mga gmit..hahaha..i got stucked with the cabinets i dunno how to place them..kaya bhala na..hahaha..:D

.:boss angel dondee:.

and then, instead of giving him the directions i just told him kung nsan ung door pra mas mdli..*at last, m correct..hahaha..:D

so ito ngaun, sbi ko may mppost n ko s blog..kaya i2..may sketch ng room ni boss..hahahaha..:D
at sbi ko lalagay ko rin ung s room nmin..kaya ito n..hahaha..:D

.:my room:.

***sowie f mgulo..hehehe..:D

so un, connection ng title with this post is that, before..i wanted to be an architech..pero sadly hndi ko n xa tinatahak ngaun..maybe being an architech is not for me..pero m still glad dat i still know these stuffs..kumbaga..gamitin n lng na isang kaalaman sa buhay..hehe..:D

oh well..got my xray results n rin..it says that normal nmn lhat..hehehe..:D

wrong choice america..

2005-05-26T12:37:00.000+08:00

waahh..wrong choice america..

u chose the wrong idol..arghhh..

i still love bo bice..u're still the best..:D

waaahhhh..

but oh well, carrie underwood is still good..its just i dont see any facial expression on her everytime n kkanta xa..arghh..

*singing..inside my heaven..(is dis right?!?) hahaha..*bummer..cant think..hahaha..:D

last night also, i watched escaflowne and falken's sword is so stupid..pra mable at 2mama s heart ni falken..waaahh..vahn is now all alone..but he stil have hitome..hehehe..:D awww..so sweet..hehehe..:D vahn loves hitome and hitome loves vahn..yeeeaaahhh..:D anime jitters..hahahaha..:D

i cant w8 for the vision of escaflowne the movie this june 4..hahaha..:D

bo, my american idol!!! who brought me to my home and to my heaven..

2005-05-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

bo the next american idol!!!

i love yah bo..(ah w8..xempre mahal din kita tin..hahaha..:D and of course i love your daddi soo much..hehehe..:D) *wink *wink..

*oh yeah..you did rock my world..ur the best bo!!!:D waaahhhhhhh!!!! even if i cant go to hollywood to scream ur name..m just scraeam here n lng..hahahahah..:D

u're the real american idol..hahaha..:D

you brought me to my home and to my heaven..

simon..stop criticizing bo!!! hahaha..cz 4 xur, he's gonna be the american idol..*oh yeah..hehehe..:D

i really cant go no, satisfaction..if ur not going to be the next american idol!!! hahahaha..:D thumbs up for yah!!!:D

hehehe..:D

cant wait for the announcement for the next american idol..hehehe..:D bsta bo n yan!!! **yahhhhoooo!!!:D hehehe..:D

chains of my life..a possible hope and light..

2005-05-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

after all these years, prang ngaun lng ntin nrerealize ung khalagahan ng bawat indibidwal sa atin..tulad n lmang ng ating mga ka-pamilya, at barkada..laging nandyan sa oras n kailngan at nghihinaing k ng 2long at gabay..:D

at sa pagbago ng panahon, may dumdagdag s maliit mong mundo hanggang ito ay lumaganap at maging isang malaking mundo kung saan, npapalibutan k ng pagmamahal..:D

hahahaha..:D got weird things on my mind n nmn..kung anu2 ung pnpost ko..hahaha..:D

nywy we got a new puppy..and his name is jigs..awww..he's so kyut..hahaha..:D promise..kyut n sobra..tpos ang liit p nya tpos ang puti..hahaha..:D

***gus2 ko 2loy 2mwa..hahahaha..:D kc kausap ko knna c boss angel dondee s fone n umabot ng 4 na oras at buti n lng hndi ako npaglitan ng mom ko..yeyy..:D

me: gus2 kong mgpost s blog ko..
boss: mamya..(**which is m doing ngaun)
me: wala nmn akong mppost, isa p lng nasa icp ko..
boss: anu nmn po?
me: c jigs..
boss: cnu un..
me: bsta kyut xa, maputi kzo maliit..
boss: ahhh, crush mo?
me: hmm, sort of..gus2 mo mklala? pnta k d2..
boss: sma mo s orsem n lng
me: d pwede..d xa pwede dun
boss: animal b?
me: yup..

hahahahahaha..:D nkktawa tlga..hehehe..:D at dyan ngcmula ang pguusap nmin 2ngkol s mga isda, pusa, aso, chicken, atbp..hahahaha..:D

**so change mood n..i miss my kada..haaayyy...(tin, m gonna use ur drawing huh!) even i dont consider ung isa as my kada..hahahaha..sowie, i still hate her dhil s gnwa nya..and oh-pls, masaya n ko ng tnantanan nya buhay ko..hahaha..sori f m saying dis harsh words..oh i dont wanna waste some blog space just for her..kaya better stop talking about that stuff..

oh well, better paste the pic dat tin made for the kada..yeyyy..hehehehe..:D i really miss yah guys..hope to see all really really soon..

thats my kada..they were been my world and will always be my world..hahaha..:D

nywy loko k tlga cha!!! tntnung 2loy ako ni dondee 2ngkol s bote..ngaaawww..kaya quiet n lng ako..hahahaha..:D so usapan nmin dat m gonna tell him about 831 and dun s bote after 2 1/2 year minus 1 day..pra daw sakto sa bday nya..hehehe..:D hintay n lng kau boss okie..hehehe..:D

cge i have 2 sleep p and its 1 am n..buhbye..hehehe..:D

i miss....

2005-05-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

haay..while i was walking thru the corridors of my beloved school, STC, i realized many things in my life..i realized that i really surpassed many hadships in life..the never ending requirements, projects, quizzess and long tests..

i also miss iv4..my friends..etc..

i also realized the difficulties that are mentors had..even trying to cope up with us..helping us..and teaching us values of life..i miss mommy-o and daddy-o..my second parents..haaayy..:D

would there be another time as beautiful as it was?!? nah..we cant turn back time..but we can make our time today as beautiful as it was by making ourselves useful for the nation and for everbody..

collage slogan:

"The gods envy us because we're mortals. Because any moment might be our last. We can never be lovelier than we are now. We can never be here again."

hayyy...iv4..was been my world for the past four years and will be my open eye for the years to come in my life..:D tnx..for being there always..

.:First year:.

.:Second year:.

.:Third year:.

.:Fourth year:.

short message from the powerpoint for the teachers:

"The lights of our paths have led us into another road to face. And though they levae us in the turning point, the warmth of their love and guidance will keep us STEADFAST and STRONG, ready to face whatever that may come. THANK YOU, for youtaught us, to cherish every moment, for we are all mere mortals. And there will be another time, as beautiful as it was!!! THANK YOU!!!"

nywy tnx nga pla dei dei s write up ko sa annual..:D

"Katsy's the Computer whiz, who loves solving mind-boggling computations. But behind everything is a very spirited pwerson, who's sweet but also very vocal. She's game for anything, from basketball to proms, from partying to simply hanging out. She's cool, and she's ready to lend a helping hand to anyone."

**love yah dei..:D

m really gonna miss my high school life and friends..:D

1,000 words..my song..

2005-05-23T14:35:00.000+08:00

I know you're hiding things, using gentle words to shelter me.
Your words were like a dream, but dreams could never fool me.
Not that easily.
I acted so distant, didn't say goodbye before you left.
But I was listening.
You'll fight your battles far from me, far too easily.
'Save your tears cause I'll come back."
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door.
But still I soar, to hide the pain as I turn back the pages.
Shouting might've been the answer.
What if I cried out my eyes and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to see whats in my heart.

Cause 1,000 words called out through the ages.
They'll fly to you, even though I can't see.
I know their reaching you, suspended on silver wings.

Oh 1,000 words, 1,000 embraces.
They'll craddle you and all of your wiery.
They seem far away.
They'll hold you forever.

Oh 1,000 words (1,000 words) have never been spoken.
(oh) They'll fly to you and carry you home. (Carry you home!)
And back into my arms.
Suspended on silver wings! (On silver wings!)

And 1,000 words called out through the ages.
They'll craddle you.
No more lonely days. (Lonely days)
They'll hold you forever.

Oh 1,000 words...

Delusions of my mind..a sad reality of my life..

2005-05-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

Many things in life that we may not be able to see..or even be able to see things clearly..some may be vague, some may be covered with vast darkness..

Oh yeah..that’s life..a life that cant be seen clearly, I dunno why m doing this post or something..

I’ve been thinking since last night or should I say kanina pang madaling araw..some things kept me think of things that I really don’t know or even don’t understand. These things made me sad..or think of my own sad reality in life..

Well, una I was happie..but just because of one fact I began to think about myself and about my feelings..m I really doing the right thing..or m just afraid to face my world..*sigh…….

I know that I cant answer dis pa ngaun..i just hope I could find the answers within myself..and after finding those answers I hope I could find my own happiness and my own destination.

Last night I dreamt of my bestfriend..ohh..i really miss him so much..these past few days, prang bgla n lng naaalala ko xa..

But, while m thinking of him..prang may pumapasok nmn n iba s utak ko..hindi xa..pero alam ko sa srili ko n ang pumapasok n i2 sa utak ko ay isang taong importante sa akin..*yeahh..i really like this guy..but the question is does he like me bilang ako..o nkikita lng nya ako sa mundo nyang hnhnap at hndi mkuha..*sad reality noh..malay ntin..bka 22o e..d ko rin kc alam e..bsta i2 ang mga bgay n bumabagabag sa icpan ko..

My own reality..i like him and I also love him..but the question is does his reality will be the same as mine?

I hope the answer would be yes..*arghhh..i hate thinking about these stuffs..it does really make me cry…..hhhhhaaaaaaaaayyyyyy………

Well, my problem will stay as my own problem n lng cguro…

Ok..i think m gonna stop crying n or stop na ako s pgging mlungkot at pgiicp..hehehe..:D *gn2 lng tlga ako kpag nksenti mode ako..hahaha..:D

kaweirduhang napasa..

2005-05-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

hahaha..yesterday was quite fun..mejo nkkpagod..but ok lng msaya nmn..hehehe..:D i really had the great time of my life..seeing my highschool friends..and do some weird stuffs..hahaha..:D at maging pasaway sa school..hahaha..:D i miss high school n tlga..haaayyy..:D

nywy good luck sa mga ng-DLSU pti CSB..:D sa monday n nga pla pasok nyo..hehe..:D

nywy my day started around 9 am n..when i arrived s stc..punta kgad ng faculty..walang iv4..kaya punta n classroom..yan n..cgawan n!!! hahahahaha..:D *hala, pdting c sister..thimik..hahahaha..:) afterwards, bumlik n kmi s faculty to get the annual, sadly, d p raw mbbgay ung annual because may prob daw..kaya nxt tym n lng..haaayyy..kaya ung video n lng pti ung mga pics lng daw nung grad ang mbbgay..hehehe..:D kaya un..hehehe..:D tpos nkauwi n kmi ng 12 because nung una we planned to go home n around 10 but ngtxt c joyce and gcel was looking for me daw..kaya blik ng school..buti n lng pumyag cla mama..hehehe..:D tpos hnintay p nmin mtpos ung meeting ng mga teachers..at gumwa ng mga kweirduhan..like opening ung isa pang door sa faculty n akala nmin ay sarado..un nmn pla hndi..**hala lgot..hehehe..:D at hndi n nga nmin nhntay n mtpos ang meeting at umuwi n rin kmi..hehehe..:D

okie..tpos n ang s school..so isang pang nangyari sa buhay ko khpon..hahaha..:D so i waited until mg3..so i watched ung video nung grad..hehehe..:D ang haba..haaaayyy..hehehe..:D pero msaya nmn..hehehe..:D dpat mom ko ang mghhtid sa akin sa katipunan pero kailngan p plang ihatid c allan sa party so maaga clang umalis..ayoko nmng sobrang aga, wala nmn akong ggwin dun..hehehe..:D kaya hinatid n lng ako ni ate around 4..yeyy..hehe..:D

nywy belated hapie 16th birthday cha..:D

tpos un pagdting s expert..ngkita kmi ni boss angel dondee..hehehe..:D at nghintay hanggang mg5 n..haha..:D pnpunta kc ako ni cha ng 4 e..hehehe..:D at ayun..ang kulit tlga ni boss khit kailan..hahaha..:D at wala ng load c boss s globe at kailngan p nyang twagan ang dad nya kaya pingmit ko n lng sknya ung fone ko..since mdmi p nmn akong free minutes..hehehe..:D at last..tpos n rin cla cha..at pmnta n kmi ng yellow cab..hehehe..:D at nkilala kong muli cla mags at jo..d lng ako xur pero alm ko pinkilala n rin skn ni cha c mags e..un ang alm ko..hehehe..:D so un..**much *much..may ntitra ang 2 pizza..hti c mags at jo dun sa isang pizza..tpos hnti ni cha ung isa..at klhating pizza n lng ang ntitira..at hnti ni ches ito sa 3..kaya ang nangyari ako, c ches, at c boss ay nkakain ng 1 1/6 n pizza..hehehe..:D ang saya noh..hehehe..:D

haaayy, at ako n nmn ang png3pan ni boss..hehehe..:D khit kailan..hahaha..:D hnhyper kc..hahaha..:D tpos un, maagang umalis c boss kc hnhnap n xa ng dad nya..hehehe..:D at c cha nmn khit kailan..haaayyyy..

cha: sige n, magpaalam k n sa future boyfriend mo..(*buti n lng d nrinig ni boss)
me: ha? anu k b?
mags: hindi b kau?
me: hndi
cha: kaya nga future boyfriend e
mags and jo: ahh..kung sa bagay..mtalino sa matalino..

haaayy..mga tao tlga khit kailan..hehehe..:D

at hbang nguusap..i2 n ang kweiduhang npasa sa akin..

me: (*attempting to get the bottle ng iced tea n gnmit ni boss)
cha: cga kunin mo..
me: ha? biro lng noh..
mags and jo: kunin mo n..ganyan ang ,mga theresians khit anung bgay kukunin..

*kinuha nga ni cha..haaaayyy..mgatao tlga khit kailan

umalis n rin cla mags at jo..at kming 3 n lng nila cha and ches ang ntira kaya ngpsundo n rin kmi..at ayun c boss ngtxt nsa kenny rogers daw xa kc nkita nya mom and dad nya..hahaha..:D swerte ah..hehehe..:D

so un..and i have 2 rest earlier than the usual time n n22log ako kc sumkit ang ulo ko..hehehe..:D at pgkgcng mejo mskit p rin..haaayyy..

bsta un..cge till here n lng ulit muna..hahaha..:D byeee..:D

mysterious 831..

2005-05-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

hahahah..:) so0o hapie day..hahaha..:)

it went well, kzo mejo sad knowing that hindi nkpunta s swimming c cha, c jas at c reb..waahhh..i miss yah guys..hahahaha..:) hope to see yah all soon..:D

khit ppnu msaya nmn kc nandun cla ches, tin and prix..:) and nandun din c boss angel
dondee..:D hahahaha..:D i hope tlga maulit ulit 2ng swimming n 2..kzo ang msama lng nwalan ako ng maayos n pandinig dhil nllagyan ako ng tubig sa tenga..arghhh..c dondee kc e..hltang hnhyper..hehehehe..:D kaya humanda k skin..buti nga sau left ear mo lng nlagyan ako preho..waaahhh..mdya k tlga!!!:) bsta humanda k skin..hehehe..:)

*sigh..i just wanna scream..i just wanna fall..hahahaha..*labo..hehehe..:) m i inlove with this person?!? haaaaayyyyy..maybe?!? ah w8..or should i say yes..hahaha..:) *knock *knock..ok k lng kat?!? *oh yeah..m ok..hehehe..:) and im inlove with this guy..haaayy..

ok..****SSSSTTTTTTOOOOOOOPPPPPPP...

hahaha..:) got a surprise for prix, i didnt told her that my couzin will be there..hahahaha..:) c kuya matt..crush kc nya dati..hahaha..:D una..prix was annoyed sakin..pero naglaon hindi n..hahahaha..:D haaayyy..

ok..****SSSSTTTTTAAAAAARRRRRTTTT ulit..hahaha..:D

another thing..may pinarinig skin c boss n song n gnwa nya..awwwwwww..i liked it..khit mejo may background n c tin ay ngttnung f pwedeng kainin ung cnamon roll at cnsbing msarap daw..hahahaha..kulit tlga ni tin khit kailan..kaya tawa n lng ako..hahahaha..:D and i need to think p ng title nun..hmmm..anu kaya..hmmm.."cuz you're the onlt thing that i can see.. with you around, darkness cannot swallow me, you are my light, and my sweet surrender.. you're everything, to me..."..wat would be the best title b..hmm..you're everything?!? pwede rin..anu kaya..wat if 831..hahahahaha..:D

haaayy..i dunno how to tell this to him..hmmm..i like him..i love him..but..but..but..i need to prioritize my studies muna..haaayy..i juz hope dat he could wait until lets say 3 to 4 years..hahaha..:Dpero ang mssbi ko lng..m really lucky for knowing him..sobrang iba xa sa iba..bsta gnun..:D haaayyy...he's *i would say* almost perfect..ewanko b..xa n ata ung taong mkikita mong sobrang bait..sweet..at lahat na..hahaha..:)

speaking of 831?!? cnu bang nkakaalam nung mystery n un ahh..hahaha..xempre ako..pag umandar ang kweirduhan kung anu2 naiicp llu n kpag numero..hahaha..:D 8 letters, 3 words, and 1 meaning..hahahaha..:D and dat would be ilove you..hahahaha..:D yeah..hahahaha..:D
bsta gnun..hahahaha..:)

haaaaayyyyyy...i just wanna think about him..haaayyy...

nywy we played doctor quack quack, ang sinimulang game ni jas noon..at hanggang ngaun ay nggmit p rin nmin..hehehe..:D sobrang saya kc niloko nmin c tin..bwahahahaha..hehehehe..:D c boss angel dondee kc e..psimuno..hehehehe..:D

bsta ang mssbi ko lng ang saya ng swimming..hehehehe..:D

sana maulit ulit..at sana mksama ko xa ulit..hehehehe..:D hmm..xa?!? cnu?!? bsta xa..hahahaha!!!:D

831!!!:D

my world, my memory, my dream..

2005-05-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

arghh..i miss a lot of things, my school, my friends..classmates..and everything..*sigh..

i even cant do anything at home..i tried to keep myself busy pero wala..*sigh..can't wait for may 20 to get the annual..and the graduation stuffs: picture, and the copy of the video..haaayyy..

can't think of a thing that will make my summer a blast..i wanna go somewhere but where will be taht somewhere and where will it gonna lead me..*sigh..sadness fill me now..arghh..i hate this when i feel this..all i can do is to lie down and do whatever i can think of: read the reader's digest, make anklets..ntpos ko p ang reader's digest for may kninang morning lng..arghh..but f m gonna try to read a book, i know it will bore me nmn..can't think of the right thing to do..

i wanna be free, i wanna fly..m hapie with my life but it seems something is missing..i dont know wat it is..but i know i do miss something..i dont know where to start..

hayy, wat could be the solution to this madness..a madness that is not known..watduh!!!

stuffs that i can think that i can do:

1. call up my friends
2. go out with my friends
3. watch a movie (either at home or at the movie house)
4. eat
5. sleep (but watdahell, m not the type n m22log all day)
6. read something (but what should i read)
7. watch tv
8. swimming (i hope it would be soon)
9. play ps, ps2, computer
10. play basketball
11. play badminton (ohh, i remember i have my badminton lessons nga pla)
12. surf the net
13. make anklets
14. write something (but i dont know wat to write)
15. fix my blog ( which will take me hours infront of the computer)
16. study?!? hell yeah, i need to study for college..bs math *honors is really hard..
17. go shopping (but i dont have money n, ubos n ngaung summer)
18. go to our family physician
19. go to the park, church
20. txt someone and load my sun..whats the use of having the P100 24/7 card if m not going to use it right..
21. think..think..think all day,,which driving me insane..waaahhh
22. start making myself useful at home
23. learn how to cook
24. ah w8, i wanna bake!!! yes..:D chiffon cake..:D
25. driving lessons
26. watch escaflowne..:D vahn and hitome..they are great..

watda?!? a lot of thoughts came out..but the question is, mgagawa ko b 2..haaaayyy..i miss school..because madmi akong nggwa..khit stress ako..msaya nmn kaysa sa walang gngwa 2lad ko..

***change mood

ei..kada!!! miss ko n kau..i madde some anklets pra sa inyo..maybe il give it n lng f nagswimming tau and i hope m2loy at mkpunta lahat..hehehe..:D dei, bumlik k n d2..we miss yah..:D i hope to see yah all soon..:D

subic escapades

2005-04-30T17:38:00.000+08:00

yyyeeeyyy..going to subic is uber fun tlga..hahaha..:D the sad thing nga lng ako ang pinakabata at wala akong makausap n mtino dun cz ang mga ksama ko is ung mga kofficemates ng ate ko and they were talking about work at bellsouth..haaaayyy..

oki, wednesday night..i went to my ate's office pra dun maghintay..kc morning kmi alis pagktpos ng work nila..waaahhh..may surf control ang internet nila kaya d me mkpagfriendster..atwalang ym..buti n lng ang may seryosong mukha na si kuya leanard ay pumayag para gmitin ko ang comp ng mga team leader..yeeeyyyy!!! hehehehe..:D klzo bwal pa rin ang friendster but pwede n ang ym!!! yaaaaahhhhhhoooo!!!:D nkita ko rin c kuya jr dun..hahahaha..:D

kuya jr: kilala kita.
me: kilala rin kita..
ate hazel: nku, pumupunta ka ata sa bahay nila kat noh..
kuya jr and me: **laughing..hehehehehe..:D

nkilala ko kc c kuya jr nung cnma nmin xa sa echanted last january..hehehehe..:D

so thursday morning around 2 am..alis n ppntang subic..yeeeyyy!!! we arrived there around 5..at kmi ni ate n2log sa sofa until 10 ata..hahahaha..:D at ngkaroon pa kmi ng prob f san kmi titira muna..bsta habang kwento..at buti n lng may nkita kming resort..at sobrang peaceful dun at katabi lng niya ang club morocco..yeeeyy!!! nagswimming kmi dun..and we also planned to go sa isang island kzo lng walang bangka kaya d n2loy..hehehehe..:D so un, pgblik sa cottage, n2log kmi ni ate at d n nkpagdinner..kaya pagkagcng..kain, usap..hehehehe..:D atnaglaro ng tong its..hehehe..:D c manong leanard napaghahalataang sanay sa sugal..hehehe..:D inubos ung money ni kuya chu..hehehehe..:D so un, n2log n rin kmi mga 2 am..hehehe..:D

friday, ako huling bumangon at 9 am un..hahahaha..:D so hintay until lunch kain ng lunch sa house nila ate celeine..at punta nmn ng duty free..yeeeyyy!!! hehehehe..:D but sadly bglang kailangan n nmng mag-ambag at ubos n ang pera ko..at humihiram pa ate ko ng pera sakin..so nbad trip siya skin..at nung dumating kmi sa ocean view..she tol me to bug off..kaya lumayo muna ako..at nghanap ng kausap..knausap n nmn ako ng ate ko..kaya naiiyak ako..at bglaan nmng 2mwag c boss angel dondee..ayaaayy..**pigil iyak..pero nhlata rin niya..dhil daw s tone ng voice ko..hehehehe..:D c cha nmn kulang n lng atakihin at ngttnung f anng problema..hehehe..:D but naayos dn nmn..hehehe..:D so un, nandun lng kmi s ocean view until 3 am at umuwi n kmi ng manila..hehehehe..:D

and tomorrow il be going to laguna nmn..swimming n nmn..hehehehe..:D

hayyy, i only got 6 hours to go to tell boss angel dondee..kung nconvince nya ko o hindi..at sbi pa niya knna mgddasal daw siya na sana sbihin ko n..hehehehe..:D pero dont wori boss ssbihin ko later..hehehe..:D since hindi mo nmn to nbbsa..hehehehe..:D OO nconvince mo ko..hehehehe..:D gling kc ni boss e..hehehe..:D

grrr..what's wrong with my background..haaayy..

2005-04-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

waaahh..there's somethng wrong with my background..sana maayos n kgad..ayaw lumbas nung picture..and i cant fix it right now, cz i really feel dizzy to think..waaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!

i just hope that mbabalik ung background ko or else another 3 hours of fixing a new template..and another 3 hours in fornt of the computer..haaaaaayyyyy..

dizzy..

2005-04-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

hahahaha..:D so we went to kuya rome's office to do some stuffs which we cant tell right now..kaya quiet n lng ako dun..so un..hehehe..:D

we had a great time there..chatting..sharing our thoughts..bsta gnun..:D

whooo00ww..and nkilala ko c helen or should i say ate helen..(joke lng un ate..hehehehe..:D)..she's taking GE kc ung bngay skin ng UP na study grant and when ive learned n mganda rin nmn xa for gurls..hmmm..m thinkn bwt getting the oppurtunity to be one scholars of UP..hahaha..:D kat, dream on..that's impossible..hahahaha..:D

well un..nklla ko rin c ate steph, kuya rome's colleague..and she told me that baka siya maging speaker nmin sa orientation sa ateneo..ah wait..kuya rome told me nga pla that it is THE ateneo..hahahahahaha..:D sowie kuya, im still loyal with la salle no matter what happens..hahahaha..:D so un..hahahaha..:D

ang mlungkot lang..grrrr..inikot ni jas ung upuan ko..at nhilo ako ng sobra..una nwala..but nung nsa elevator kmi..bumalik..grrr..sudden loss of weight because of the principles of newton's laws..grrr..weight, normal force, velocity..arghhh..sobra hilo ko nun..grrrr..

and when we went to the car..ok n nmn ako..but nung ngmove n kmi..hindi n nmn..and they told me to drink the iced tea lemon..n hindi nmn masarap..and when we arrived at powerplant..i told them that m gonna barf n tlga with the taste of the iced tea..grrrr..jas ksalanan mo 2..humanda ka tlga skin!!!!

so un, libot kmi powerplant and my ate bought cookies form mrs. fields n gus2ng gus2 ko..hahahaha..:D sarap kc ng chocolate..hehehehe..:D then we went to dencios..kumain ng sisig..at ako nmn d mhilig sa sisig..hahahaha..:D akala ko busog na ako..but after a while, ngutom n nmn ako..

kaya nung pmnta kmi sa pioneer, pra magbadminton..(aahhh..w8..nung pmnta nga pla kami sa badmintonan..hahaha..(what a term..hahaha..:D)..ayun nhilo n nmn ako..grrr..so i wasnt able to play ng maayos..and i really wanna learn the techniques in playing badminton so my ate introduced me to kuya randolf..cz he's gonna teach me he real badminton game..hahahaha..:D bsta raw txt ko xa whenever i want to go there..yeeeeyyy..i have my coach n!!! **yahhhoooo!!!:D

so next, uwi..and i have to finish the payroll pa..hahahaha..:D at tamang-tama ntpos ako ng 7..hahahaha..:D 7 kc uwi ng mga trabahador..hahahaha..:D

so ngaun, i really need to rest..cz i really had a tough day..hehehehe..:D

surprise..caught yah!!! hahahaha..:D

2005-04-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

hahaha..ok, i got up around 9 to check my parents, because they're going to leave..ppuntang baguio..wahhh..and they are leaving without me..waahhh..dpat kasama ako..kzo it turned out n walang magpapasweldo, so ako ang maiiwan para pswelduhin ung mga trabahador..waaahhhh..

but the good thing is my parents trust me to do the payroll at the same time to handle a big bucks..which will never be mine..waaahhh..i pity myself..

and ok, jas checked on me nmn f masasamahan ko xa..so ok, i wasnt able to ask permission from my parents kc sobrang busy nila so i planned n lng since alis cla b4 lunch and ung lkad nmin ni jas ay lunch so ok..

nywy naalala nyo b ung pnost ko dti about i smell something fishy, well it turned out tama pla ung hinala ko..so jas set me up with dondee at mcdo..haaayyy..bwisit kau!!! pero masasabi ko p rin HULI kau!!! hahaha..akala nyo hindi ako nakakahalata..well..hahahaha..:D
so ito, jas and i went to mcdo around 11:30..den suddenly..ayan, nandyan c dondee..kau tlga..grrrr...

well, msaya nmn e..hehehe..:D sbi nya kc he'll gonna convince me b4 mag-may..hehehe..:D c boss tlga..haha..:D puno ng supresa..:D

so we ate lunch there..haaayy..at sumobra kmi ng isang cheeseburger meal..hahahaha..:D
ang kulit tlga ni boss..hahahaha..:D nung una nga s txt, he told me that he's craving for mcflurry..un pla nandun n xa sa mcdo..haaaaayyyy..tpos he's trying to take a picture of me using his fone..haaayyy..kulit..hahahaha..:D and i love ung pagkakulit nya..hehehe..:D he even record my voice..hahahahah..:D

at c jas, ayan n nmn gurl hunting..at may nkita nga siya..the mysterious gurl wearing black cap and has a p900..hahahahaha..:D informations tlga n nkukuha ni jas..hahahaha..:D

he gave me letter dn..n nklgay 100 reasons why i love you..haaayyy..ggwin tlga ni boss lhat just to convince me huh..hehehehe..:D

nconvince kya ako?!? hmmmmmm.....secret!!!!!!:D

hmm..and about the survey dun sa friendster..sana wag n lng niya intindihin un..but s 22o, 22o nmn nung nksulat dun e..hehehe..:D

since i wasnt able to go to baguio..punta nmn ako ng subic next week..ito 22o n tlga..grrrr..hahahaha..:D

supposed to be..off to bora..

2005-04-17T18:39:00.000+08:00

waahhh..my tita linda told me to come with my second cousins to boracay yesterday..grrr..but my dad didnt allow me..waaahhh..

tita linda: y dont you come with your cousins tomorrow to boracay..they will be staying there for a week..
katsy: um, tita, my dad will decide about that but actually its very very fine with me if i'll come with them
tita: (to my dad)..sama mo n..
papa: **laughing..(which means hindi pwede..grrrrrr)

waaaahh..i wanna go to boracay..waaaaahhh!!!!

nywy next week il be off for baguio nmn for 3 days!!! yeyyy!!! i hope i wont see best there..hahahaha..:D

so this is it, sad summer..with the computer..hahahahaha..:D and of course, with my cellphone..yeah!!! so i could talk to my friends especially to boss angel dondee..hehehe..:D hahaha..:D

7?!? hahaha..he cant figure it out pa rin!!! hahahaha..:D

wvmlvw --> wlmwvv ---> dondee..:D

qmwrvllohmxrnzozmhbzfizn --> jonedisonmallarimunsayac

hahaha..:D d tlga mgets ni boss..hahahaha..:D

**tiring

2005-04-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

haha..my mom disturbed me yesterday, while m having a deep sleep..na sobrang minsan ko lng maranasan sa buhay ko..hahahaha..:D **joke..so gnun..katrina, wake up, we're goping to bulacan for your cousin's wedding..na kinakapatid ko..haaayy.."waaahhh, i dont want to get up"..tinatamad ako ma..hahahaha..

so afterwards tumayo na rin ako..and they told me to wear something formal for the wedding..so un..we left home around 1:30 pm ata..and nkarating kmi ng bulacan around 2:15 pm..whoo00w..ang bilis..gnito na pla s nlex ha..:D but ang taas na ng toll..grrrrr..hahaha..:D but ok lng, mbilis at mas convnient xa..hehehe..:D

so un, ang kipot ng kalsada sa may simbhan, so it was difficult for us to find a nice parking..

arghh..the wedding will be starting around 3 pm p..c papa kc e..ang aga maxado..hahaha..:D so un, hintay kmi..at ngu2m ako..at may bakery dun and they we're selling cheese bread na mejo mainit pa..ang sarap!!! hahaha..:D my mom and i, ate 10 cheese breads..hahaha..:D

waaahhh..ang tgal..3 n..d p rin ngccmula ung kasal..may nauna kcng ikinasal so they are taking pictures pa sa altar..arghh..hahahaha..:D

3:30 pm..at last nagcmula na..hahaha..:D kuya dondon and ate raquel are kyut couples..hahaha..:D my mom kept on laughing because c ate racquel hindi pa raw umabot sa shoulders ni kuya dondon..hahaha..:D sayang wala na c ninong pra mkita ung kasal ni kuya dondon..my ninong passed away october last year..haaayy..buhay..

so un, kasal..ceremonies..hahahaha..:D

ok..tpos na by 5 pm..kainan nmn..hahaha..:D ang sarap ng food..hahaha..:D and we're about to leave around 7 pm n dpat pauwi ng manila..but tita linda heard that we'releaving na and my dad, hindi na makatanggi..so we went to burol at my tito's house..videoke kc..hahaha..:D

so un, dun ko mas nging close ung ibang cousins ko..um..2nd cousins pla..hahaha..:D hahaha..llu na c kuya alex..and he's a teacher and an assistant principal sa malapit na school sa kanila..whoow gling noh..sayang skanya sana ako humingi ng 2long sa p6 and trigo kc un ung tinuturo nya..hahaha..:D gling noh..but kakaiba rin 2ng c kuya alex..mkwela and i asked him..teacher k b tlga..hahaha..:D twanan n lng kmi..so npunta rin kmi s topic na il be taking up bs math..and cla dey were discouraging me coz walang money sa bs math..instead i should take the bs legal management then minor in actuarial science..yeahh..hahahaha..:D saya nun!!! and my tita tess told me i should take programming n lng daw..ayoko..ayokong gwing course ang computer e..whatif bgla na lng mwala ang computer db..and next my tita tess also told me dat its good if m going to take the study gant for geodetic engineering..hahaha..:D no way..engineering?!? gurl?!? na-ah..d pwede..hahaha..:D ayaw din ni mama kc n-expereince raw nya un..since xa ay isang civil engineer..hahaha..:D

another thing..kuya alex told me that m very unlucky for having a very conservative mom..hahaha..:D ayaw pa ng mom ko n may nanliligaw pa skin..hahaha..:D bhala n..hahaha..:D

my dad and my mom tried the videoke..and my dad scored 96 while my mom scored 97..hahahaha..:D gling b..hahaha..:D

grabeh, nanlalamig na ako..m wearing a tube kc e..they told me kc its formal un pla..hindi nnmn tlga formal..grrrr..i was shivering na tlga..at inaantok n ko..hahaha..:D and at first they were offering me drinks..buti n lng d san mig light atyoko ng alcoholic drinks noh..hahaha..:D

so un, d napansin ng parents ko na 12:30 n..kya umuwi n rin kmi..hahaha..:D

***c boss tlga d pa rin mgetz ang 7..haaaayyy..cnu lng b ang taong napakagaling para patawanin isang taong tulad ko..hahahaha..:D cnu nga lng b..hahahaha..:D

***13 days ang counting..hahahaha..:D surprise?!? wat would it be?!? hahaha..:D ayaw sbhin ni boss..hahaha..:D

c 7 c...........................

2005-04-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

whats with the dot?!? characters..?!? space?!? letters?!? string?!?

hmm..c 7..hahahahahaha..:D

i like this person ssssoooo000ooo much..:D *wink *wink..

i dunno why..

he's mabait..
sweet
one of a kind
he's the one that i trust
a friend that will be there always no matter what
he knows how to cheer me up
he treats me like that m somebody special
..xempre pra skin he's special..
he makes me smile always

bsta i hope that malaman ni 7 kung cnuman xa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***ung mga descriptions dun..xempre iba pa rin ung sa mga kaibigan ko at kada..hehehe..:D

mood: listening to ntwine's i hope its you

2005-04-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

hahahaha..tin fave song mo oh!!:D hahaha..:D

nywy i was disturbed khpon..sa text ni reb...haaaayyy..grabeh..kkgulat ka ever..bglaan n lng..(ate nikki alam mo na 2..bwahahaha)..so un, nbsa ko ung text ni reb saying that he'll be gone for 5 days because punta xa ng singapore..pnu nmn kc ako mniniwala sau..niloko mo n rin ako ng ganyan dati..LOKO ka kc..hahaha..:D even with the october 5 thing..napaniwala mo..khit dun sa kwento ng matanda..ntakot ako dun..loko k tlga..:D but ngaun..he's not joking..pmnta k nga ng singapore..hahaha..:D PASALUBONG ko..hahaha..:D ***joke..**wink **wink..

and another thing..dont wori ate nikki..maayos din yan..bsta kaya mo yan..wag k lng iiyak..okie?!? kundi msasapak ko n tlga c jas..hahahaha..:D bsta next time f hhanapin mo ko sa house..wag kay jas, kundi sabihin mo n lng sa mga kasama ko sa bahay..suguradong ttwagin nila ako..hehehe..:D

nywy isang himala, ililibre ako ni jas?!? huh?!? m i dreaming..o msakit lng c jas..hahaha..:D hindi, sasamahan ko lng daw xa..haaayyy..cguraduhin mo lng ililibre mo ko at hndi ako ang manlilibre sau..hahahaha..:D my ever dearest bexfwnd tlga, ang gulo ng utak kaya minsan kailngan mo pang katukin para matauhan..haaayy..bsta ayusin mo buhay mo ha..hhhaaaaayyyy..magicp-icp k n ha..

hhaaayyy..*realizations..college na ko next school year..and for 4 years tatahakin ko ang daan ppntang katipunan..haaayy..at comute ako..saya noh..so wats the use of having drivers license and studying how to drive db..ang labo tlga..but ok lng..cguro pwede ko nmn mpilit si papa..na pwede rin me gumamit ng car..hmm..kaso lng kpag gnun..gngmit ni ate ung L300..tpos ung pick up gngmit nila papa..xempre hindi papagamit sakin ang terrano..anung ggmitin ko..haaaayyy..paa?!? haaaayyy..bhala na..

another realization..il be turning 18 by next year..ah w8..18?!? debut?!? matanda na ako!!! no way..m still a child..hahahaha..:D ayokong tumanda and i wanna live at neverland..hahaha..:D hahahaha..i remember that n nag-away kmi ni best about living at neverland because he wanted to grow up..and he has many dreams sa buhay na gus2 niyang mtupad..hahahaha..atako pangarap ko lng hindi tumanda..labo ko tlga..but now i realized dat d ko tlga mpipigilan ang pagtanda ko..hmm..back to debut thingy..san kaya magandang mgdebut..hmmm..san kaya?!? hmmm...**joke ni papa..villa escudero!!! ooohhhhhhh xuurrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!! hahahahaha..:D ewanko dun..sana tlga dun..i love that place than fernwood..hahahaha..:D llu n kpag gabi kasi paglabas mo ang lamig at ung mga ilaw dun gmit lng nila ung prang mga torch..hahaha..:D saya noh!!! hehehe..:D oohh plllleeeaassseeee..dun n lng..hahaha..:D

**kazo lng dream on kat..may money b cla papa ngaun..arrrghhh..mayrun yan sana..:D pti i heard that my tita gave my dad 50k pra skin..wwwhhhoo000ww..bkit kaya?!? hahahahaha..:D kzo lng cla papa p rin ggmit nun..waaaaahhhh!!!!!! madaya!!! hahahaha..:D

cge till here muna..m gonna listen to hale's broken sonnet ulit..and afterwards i hope its you by ntwine..hahahaha..:D

yyyeeeyyy

2005-04-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

yyeeeyyy..m gonna get my student permit today..yaaaahhhhooo!!!! pwede na kong mgdrive..hmm..maybe by may pa ata ako mag-aaral but masaya n rin noh!!!:D

and another accomplishment is..ntpos ko ung powerpoint!!! hahaha..:D i hope dat mgus2han un ng mga teachers..hehehe..:D sayang nga lang wala nkpagsend skin ng grad pic ni tash kaya ibang pic n lng nlgay ko..soowie tash..

hhaaayyy..i watched finding nemo last night..i love that movie..hahaha..:D especially dory speaking whale..hahaha..:D shes soo kyut..:D at the same time, boss angel dondee and i tried speakin whale through text..hahaha..:D kyut!!!:D yan kasi ang ngagawa ng mga malbong tao 2lad ko..hahaha..:D

grabeh, d pa rin ako nagssawa sa broken sonnet..waaaahhhh!!! i really really love that song..:D hahahaha..:D

ok..16 days to go..hahahaha..:D

cge un lng..buhbye..:D

life..love?!? people.....

2005-04-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

hhayy..nlulungkot ako ngaun pra kay ate nikki pti kay tin..d ble ate nikki maayos dn po yan promise..kaya smile n po kau ha..:D

tin, alam ko nmng u like him e..and we know that he also likes u..kzo lng pinilit mo ung sau n wala xang narramdaman 4 u..d ble tin..ok lng yan..malay mo mtupad ung fairy tale mo as tinapay..hehehe..at ng iyong angelo..hahahaha..:D tama b?!? hehehe..:D d ble mllaman dn nya ung nrramdaman mo..hehehe..:D

hmm..april 12, 2005..

started thinking around 12 am..thinking dat april 11 pla khpon..d ko npansin..napansin dat its been a year na rin, the last time i saw my bestfriend..he was standing, staring, wearing a cap..its around 3 am..it was sooo cold dat i kept hugging myself tightly..and the good thing is he was there, i felt that he was just right by my side even though he's 2-3 meteres away from me..i miss him..but i know to myself dat i dont love him anymore..yaaahh..tama..but i cant leave all the memories behind..il treasure those memories forever..even if m tellin myself that il forget him..sori ha, malabo tlga akong tao, gnito ako..

but as i was thinking..i thought of someone else..someone..waiting outside our house, calling..singing my fave song..staring..it wasnt cold as it was..its 4:30 in the afternoon..but i also felt the happiness that i felt before..and now he's beside me..not 2-3 meters away..[hahaha..c jas lng ngplayo..hahaha..:) bka raw pagalitan ako ng dad ko kpag nkita kmi ni boss n mgktabi..hehe..:)] so un..realizations..

hmm..anu p b..d pa ako tpos sa powerpoint presentation na ibibigay knla mrs obillo at sir talens..kailngan ibigay today ng umaga..hahahaha..:D at mlpit ng mg-1..hahaha..:D at kulang p ng grad pic ni tash..

nywy i wana thank mariae, for the grad pics..illin for the msg..at abby, n sna msend mo skn tom ung pic ni tash..hehe..:D

and llu n s iv4..:D for being part of my life for 4 years..:D d best kaung lhat..:D miss ko n rin kau..:D

cge un lng..ttpusin ko p ung powerpoint..hehehe..:D

17 days to go..mconvince kaya nya ko?!? anu kaya ung plano ni boss?!? hmmmmmmmm...

cge..buhbye..:D

broken sonnet

2005-04-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

i really love this song..:D hehehe..:D hhhhhhaaaaaaayyyy..:D

hahahaha..

2005-04-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

hehehe..ive never expected na mgkikita kmi 2day ni boss..hahaha,,:D sobrnag bglaan lng kc e..:D its like this, hbang ngccomp ako pra pagicpan ang ggwin ko s powerpoint..bglang ngtxt c boss at nngungumusta..and i told him n nkikinig ako ng mga music..hehehe..:D n pwedeng ilgay..

hehehe..5 npili ko..but d pr in mkpili..kaya sbi ni boss try ko raw ung our lives pti dont dream its over..kzo wala nmn ako nun..at sira ung our lives ko..haaaayyyy..i love the calling..hehehe..:D tpos un, bglang sbi nya punta raw siya dito..naku PATAY....

ha?!? ok k lng..hndi ko alm ang dpat sbhin kaya un n lng..hehehe..sowie f ang labo ko..bsta gnun..so un..patay..pnu ako mgpapaalam knla mama..so ito n..may kausap c mama..pnu kaya 2..hmmm..***kalabit..ma, punta friend ko ibibigay ung cd n kailngan pra sa ppt..and my mom asked me if cnu..***whispering..c dondee po..hehehe..:D mama: cgurduhin mo lng na iaabot lng ung cd ha..at ako yes ma..tpos ***ngiti..hehehe..:D labo ko tlga ever..hehe..:D
bsta un, tma nga c boss ggwan nya tlga ng praan pra lng mgkita kmi ulit..hehe..:D at ayan nagkita nga kmi ulit..hehehe..:D

at ayan na 2mawag c boss and tellin mlpit na xa..ayan..ta-da..hahahaha..:D usap2 muna..hehe..:D at umlis dn xa 30 mins after ata, kc hnhnap n xa ng dad nya..hehehe..:D kaya un..:D

19 days and counting.......

hahahaha..may 19 days k p pra kumbinsihin ako..hehehe..:D ah w8, do u stil need to convinnce me f m really convinced na..hahahaha..labo noh..:D secret ko n lng un..bsta after 19 days ko n lng ssbihin sknya..hehehe..:D

cge got to go..need to finish the powerpoint by tomorrow..hehehe..:D bye..:D

sooper dooper grad party

2005-04-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

hahaha..we just had our grad party at illin's kubo..yeeeyyy..it was uber saya..

swimming..sa knlang kiddie pool..hahaha..:D ang gling nga e..because when we came there around 12:30 ata..ung color p nung water ay malinaw..but nung gbi na, we realized that sobrang dumi n nung pool..hahahaha..:D gling noh..ang dumi pla nmin..hahaha..:D pnu nmn kc mga 15 ata kmi nligo dun..hahaha..:D

tpos ung iba ng-sing-along..hahahaha..:D pataasan ng score..and ithink ang pinakamataas na score ata na nkuha is 98..nila gia, mariae at kat roxas..with the song loving you..hahahahaha..:D

srap din magphnga dun sa kubo..presko p..hahaha..:D

but ang mlungkot nga lng..21 lng ata kmi nandun..cna badet, abby, roda, ira, abel, mau, val, gia, L.A., me, cy, mariae, gzel, ib, kat r., camille, ahhh, ches, charmi, jessa and hanna..ay mli..22 pla..hahahaha..:D bsta un..:D sayang d nkpunta ung iba..hope dat mgkita-kita ulit tau..hmm..sa may 20!!! hahahaha..:D

hhhaaaaayyyyy, gus2 ko ulit mag-swimming..srap!!! sana next week..yayain ulit nmin cla poi pra msaya..hahahaha..:D

waaaahhh, knna ko lng nlman dat abel is going to study na sa canda..waaaatttt?!? waaahh, m gonna miss u abel..:'( hhhaaaayyyy..

cge i need to sleep n rin, pnp2log n nmn ako ni boss..hehehehe..:D hahahaha..too bad d p in pwede bshin ni boss ang blog ko!!! bwahahahahahahaha..:D sana nga lng d tlga nya bnbsa 2 noh..kundi PATAY ako..hahaha..:D

ok, bye, nytnyt..:D

i know

2005-04-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

hayy, life is really unpredictable..:D

d mo nmamalayan ung mga bagay na nangyayari sa buhay ntin..hehehe..:D

haaayyyy, f only i have the courage to tell him..

but i can't

ewan..nhihiya ako..

hhaaayyyy, i wish, ******* ** **** ***** ****** ** ***** ** ** ****..hehehe..:D but pnu nmn mtutupad un kung d ko ssbhin db..ang labo tlga..haaaaaaayyy..

d ble m hapie n rin nmn ngaun e..hehehe..and i just hope na hindi na mabago tong happiness na 2..hahahaha..corny ko..hahaha..:D

*sigh..i just want to see him again..i hope that it would be soon..:D hahaha..:D nywy forgot to post last wed dat he sang my fave song ngaun and it is broken sonnet by hale..:D yeahh, i love that song khit mlungkot ung msg nya..:D

hahaha..i also forgot to post that kail hugged him kc bglang nhulog ni kail ung guitar nya..hehehe..:D ang kyut..hehehe..:D

bsta un n lng muna..hehehe..:D need to sleep n rin..pnp2log n ako ni boss e..cge nytnyt..:D

hapie

2005-04-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

hahaha..tpos na ang swimming party..woshuuu..sayang wala c tin, mas masaya kpag nandun xa..hehehe..:D

but ang masaya rin nmn..nkpunta nmn ung iba..hahaha..:D

ok..dis wonderful day started at around 8 AM, wen cha texted me sayin that.."kat paalis na kmi"..so ok..tntmad ako bumangon..bhla n..and wen they came..hahaha..:D they thought na 2log p ako kc nktgo ako sa ilalim ng kumot..hahaha..:D gling noh..hahaha..:D den, prix and i ate breakfast..ayw kc ni cha e..srap p nmn..den mejo kulitan and afterwards nk2log n cla..llu na c prix..hahahahaha..:D

hala kat quarter to 12 n, mag-ayos k n..nku, hndi pa ako ngaayos at kailngan 1 nandun n kmi..so ok, bilis ligo, bilis ayos..at nghintay ng mga taong ssbay pa..

1 n.."boss, nandito na po kmi sa tpat ng tennis court"..c boss..PATAY..wala p c jas at c ches..patay n tlga..sowie boss..:D at ayan na nandyan na c jas, wala pa c ches..nku lpit n mg-2..

bilis!!!! waaaaahhhhhh!!! patay n tlga..

ayan, nandyan n c ches s wakas..at dumaan muna kmi ng eunelaine to buy some food..at kmi nmn ni cha ito, ito, ayan, pwede na..ok n..hahahahaha..:D at pagbyad sa counter..hahahaha..:D thank God, umabot lng ng 330..hahahaha..:D c boss nmn.."boss nand2 lng kmi s mcdo"..cge ok lng, bumibili pa kmi..hahahaha..:D

ayan liko visayas, liko congressional, liko shorthorn, liko paradise..at ayan na bahay na ni tito..hahahaha..ahay, nandun n rin cla boss nghihintay..hahahahaha..:D sbay kalabit nmn c cha..kat oh..ha?!? anu?!? hahahaha..:D bglang knausap ng dad ni boss angel dondee, dad ko..hahahaha..:D wala lng..c cha kc e..hehehe..:D ayan n kmi n lng ntira..yahhhhooo!!! swimming tym n!!!:D yey..:D aba..nauna tlga ang mga lalakwe..hahaha..:D joke..isa lng pla ang lalakwe dun c jas..hahahaha..:D joke ulit..:D so yun, nagplit n rin kmi..hehehe..:D at hnintay c poi..aaaahhh, wala pa c poi..so swimming n tau!!!:D

afterwards nandyan n c poi, so siomai tym n..yeeeeyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! kainan n!!!! hahahaha..:D sarap tlga ng buhay n walang adult n nagbabantay!!! hahahaha..:D adult?!? c jas ang pinakamatanda!!! hahaha..:D

so ayan, walang tgil na swimming hanggang mg-gbi!!!saya noh!!!

dumating c ate with kail..yeeeeyyyy!!!

jas 6:05 n..aalis n c jas..waaahhh..buhbye..at umahon na rin c allan, c ate pti c kail..

ghost story tym!!! hahaha..nilalamig na kming lhat..at c boss d n nkyanan kya umahon na..hehehe..:D at kmi rin umahon n rin after..hahahaha..:D ang saya sabay2 kming 5[poi, prix, ches, cha at ako], mligo..hahahaha..:D saya noh!!!:D hahaha..:D at pagktpos nun, hntay ng sundo ni poi..at ayan n..

alis n rin kmi..patay, wala p sundo ni boss..kaya sumama n lng xa samin s bhay..hehehe..:D at kumain ng dinner..hahahaha..:D at cnundo n rin c boss at sumunod cla prix at cha at huli c ches..at ngaun nand2 ako s tpat ng computer at ngttype ng istorya ko s buong araw..waaaahhh!!! m really hapie..i dunno why, bsta hpie ako!!! hehehe..:D maybe, maybe, maybe....alt 129 alt 129 alt 129!!!! un n lng..hahahaha..:D

cge antok n ko..sleep n ako!!! hehehehe..:D nytnyt!!!:D

***pahabol may ksunod pa 2..grad party knla illin!!! yeeeeeyyy!!! s saturday..:D hehehe..:Dpti punta ako ng schl next week..yeeeeyyyy!!! hehehehe..:D

isa pa..hmm,o nga noh kailn ko b ulit mkikita c boss..hmmm..tomorrow..sa susunod n bukas..malay ntin..sana mlpit n..hahahaha..:D bhla n..i hope n it would be soon..pra msaya!!! hahahaha..:D

***grabeh, sowie cha, sobrang nhihiya tlga ako sknya e..ayko xang lpitan kc anu nmn ssbihin ko db..hehehe..:D bhala n lng ulit..hahahaha..:D

tma n phabol, m22log na q..hehehe..:D nytnyt ulit..:D

yeyyy

2005-04-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

swimming party tomorrow..yeyy..cant wait..:D hehehehe..:D having fun with my friends..yeah!!!:D hahaha..:D

sana talaga pumunta lahat noh..sadly, reb_ats can't come because walang maghahatid sa kanya..waaahhh..we don't have a bokalista..wahhh!!! but the good thing is we have our gitarista, bahista and tambolista!!!:D galing noh..so ang mangyayari na lang, kaming lahat ang bokalista..but il surely gonna miss u're great voice reb_ats..hope that makasama ka ulit sa amin..cz we miss our clown, our magician..hahahaha!!!:D **kiddin..hahahaha..:D

hmm..haaay, hindi ko pa rin mcontact c poi..but sana makapunta xa tomorrow pra masaya!!!:D

whoow, for the first time, sasama ang rabuco ni tin..ahhh..ahem ahem..im gonna sing..TINapay ng buhay..so here it goes..***singing loudly, ikaw, Hesus, and TINapay ng buhay binasbasan hinati't inialay..hahahaha..:D tin, i wanna see ur curly hair!!!:D lets give a big whoooowww to tin!!! yeah!!! hahahahaha..:D

yeyy..boss angel dondee, will be there also..hahahaha..:D isnt that great..hahaha..:D

i bet this swimming party will be wonderful..hahaha..:D a day of happiness..a day with water, music, and fun..hahaha..:D

so u guys[tin, ches, prix, cha, poi, dea(sadly, d k mkkpunta..i miss u a lot dei), jas, rabuco and boss angel dondee]..hehehe..:D handa nyo na ang inyongmga swimming gears..hahaha..:D

see yah tom..

pahabol..2mawag c tin, tin dpat pumunta ka..kundi lgot k skin..khit pmunta ka dito at gcngin mopa ako ng sobrang aga..ok lng..hehehe..:D bsta pmnta ka!!!!!!!!!!

naksss!!! pwede bang c .:7:. n lng!!! hahahaha..:D

2005-04-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Your Colorful Life in the OPM Industry by mireille_akiko
You are..
You are a member of..	Mayonnaise
Your alternate band is..	Sugarfree
Your bestfriend is..	Yael Yuzon
Your boyfriend is..	Yael Yuzon
But unfortunately..	he robbed your house.
So you'll marry..	Yael Yuzon
The number of children you'll have:	2
You'll name your first child..	Puso
And you'll form a band together called..	Styro

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naks nmn!!!:D hahahaha..:D aaahhh, w8 pwedeng c 7 n lng hahahaha..:D another number trivia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha..:D secret!!!!!!!!!! ulit..solve nyo n lng..hahahaha..:D cz he robbed my heart not my house..hahahaha..:D d best c 7..kcornihan ko ulit..hahaha..kasama c tin!!!!!!! hahaha..:D db, ikaw hesus, ang TINapay ng buhay!!!! hahahahaha..:D kiddin..:D

tnx boss for helping me doing my letter of request..kaw tlga kahit kailan..hehehe..:D :x?!? getz nyo?!? hahahaha..:D yan n lng sgot ko dun sa huling smiley ni boss..:D hahahaha..:D

cge got to go n rin..mejo hhanda ko p things ko tomorrow..hahahahaha..:D

bwahahahahaha!!!!

2005-04-03T20:31:00.000+08:00

whoow, i'm going to Ateneo tomorrow to confirm my slot at the same time, to ask for a request for a change of course..from BS Legal Management to BS Math..haayy, another thing, i'm not yet finish with my letter of request..WALA AKONG MAISIP..hahaha..:D sobrnag blanko utak ko..sana mtapos ko xa tonight..hayy, bahala na..hahaha..:D

kaya yan!!!:D

hahaha..:D got LSS, with the song i hope its you..which tin downloaded from my computer..haha..:D lkas talaga ng influence mo tin ever..hahaha..:D even with the MY MEMORY of winter sonata kahit hindi ako nanonood nun..hahahaha..:D

arghhh..got a problem with the sched for the swimming party..haaaaaayyyyyyy..buhay...if we will schedule it on april 5 and bwal ay c reb at c prix, if april 6 nmn c jas at reb, at kpag april 7 c robert at c boss angel dondee ang wala..haaayy..bhla n tlga..wala n akong maicp n praan..grrrr..kpag april 8, malamang bwal kc aalis ng april 9 for the grad party at illin's place..haaayy..at ang prob p walang mgawa ngaung summer..grrrr...

summer?!? plans?!? BHALA na tlga!!! hahahaha..:D

so life..bahala na rin..hahahaha..:D

i need to finish my letter pa..okie..buhbye..:D

wondering

2005-04-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

*sigh..i really don't know what's happening sa sarili ko..if i am going to be happie with the things that are happening with my life or not..m confused..between my mom and about dondee..i want to obey my mom but i can't, hindi ko alam kung bakit..arghh..i really hate this feeling..*sigh..kung tutuusin hindi naman expected lahat 2ng nangyayari sa buhay ko ngaun..if may magagawa lng akong paraan..and sana maayos ko to..:D

nywy we had our grad kahapon..grabeh, masaya but sobrang tagal..arghh..hehe..:D hahaha..:D unexpected award..hahaha..the certificate of appreciation for having a perfect attendance for the whole high school life..hahaha..:D weird..hehehe..:D but dun sa OS expected nmn..hehehe..:D and now, i have a gift certificate from maxx!!! yeyyy!!! food din un..kzo lng.."kat, tutaba ka na, tama na ang kain kaya exercise nmn ang gagawin ko"..hahaha..:D

haayy, hindi na rin namin naayos ung powerpoint na dapat message pra sa whole batch..hehe..:D

so ito n lng..

friends together, soon to part, once we grew, we shared, we lov"ed but now we bid farewell because high school life as we know is over. good life, good love, good looks..:D

SENIORS' 04-05..

now signing off..:D

.:**:.

2005-03-31T10:45:00.000+08:00

in 28 hours..it will be our graduation na..whooow..:D hehe..:) graduation n tlga..hindi na mkakatakas at hindi na mpipigilan pa..:) cguro sa pagtanggap ng diploma hanggang sa katapusan ng bawat seremonyas..tlgang maalala ko ang bawat alaala na naransan ko s stc..stc molded me..and showed me kung anu ba tlga ang buhay..maaaring mali kung minsan pero un ung buhay e..hindi rin nttkasan ninuman..hehehe..:D

sa pagtanggap lng b ng diploma matatapos ang lhat..HINDI..kc hanggang tau ay nbubuhay, may ntututunan taung pnibago sa buhay..hindi man kailngan ng mhabang xplanasyon..mdli nmn itong ntututunan gmit ang ating mga karanasan..hehe..:D

anu b 2.bkit b ako senti ngaun..haayy..hehe..:D

tpos d ko pa alm ang ggwin ko dis summer..hahaha..:D f pwede sana ppunta n lng ako sa mlmig n lugar at dun muna ako pra masaya..hehe..:D sobrang init kc e..hehe..:D

pti bkit ba ako npapaisip..hmm..ewanko ba..hahaha..ang labo kc ng buhay e..hehe..:D bsta..:D hehehe..:D

cge magbabasa n lng ako..wala kc ako mgwa d2 sa bhay e..hehe..:D

graduation

2005-03-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

life really runs by so fast..as it was said in our grad song, our time to fly..and now, m going to face another world..a world full of mysteries, and full of wonders..sana malagpasan ko and at the same time sana masolve ko ung mga mysteries na un..so dat it won't be difficult for me to face this life..:D

hahaha..nywy and daming nangyari this past few days..and the mystery about the 3.678 ay nsolve na ng isang npkagaling na tao at un ay c boss angel dondee..haaayy..wag sana nya mbasa ung nkpost about 3.678 noh..pra masaya!!! hahaha..:D

another thing..m confuse about UP and Ateneo..ayyy..bhala na..bsta may college n mpsukan pra masaya!! at least..hindi nangyari ang knatatakutan ko noon n bka sa ibang country na kmi at dun na ako mag-aaral..hahaha..:D

grabeh nkkpaos p lng mg-project ng voice, at lagyan ng force..khit ilang try, d ko tlga mkya kc sobrnag knkabahan ako at mejo mliit boses ko..haba rin nung bbsahin ko dpat sa grad ah..hehe..but buti n lng hindi n lng..kasi sobrang knakabahan ako e..hehe..:D hirap din noh..bglaan nmn kc..if nasabihan nila ako a week before pra nmn mkpagpractice ako ng todo sa pagproject ng voice db..hehehe..:D but ok lng..dat means that my teachers trust my credibility khit ppnu..hehe..:D

nywy grad na namin this friday..*sigh..nkklungkot but we have to accpet it kc..pti we know that lhat ng bgay ay ngbbago at dpat tnggapin ntin ung mga pagbabagong un so that umunlad tau sa buhay..:D hehe..:D

and after grad, we're goin to have the sooper dooper cool grad party at illin's kubo..hehe..:D and xempre mgsswim kmi sa 2 1/2 ft n pool nila illin..ang kyut noh..:D and after that, we're going to have a swimming party p ulit sa houz ulit ng tito ko at sana mplano na ito..:D hehehe..:D

cge sa uulitin..hehe..:D

i hope its you..

2005-03-26T13:41:00.000+08:00

hahaha..thinkn bwt 3.678..hahaha..hirap pa rin ba i-solve..hehe..:D i really hope its you..hahaha..:D wala akong mgwa ngaun!!! grrr..hindi n2loy ung 3p nmin sa batngas so ito..nand2 lng me s house..thnkin..thnkn bwt 3.678..hahaha..:D

d ble, next week nmn alis n tlga kmi..haha..:D and i hope it would be baguio pra malamig..or khit saanmang mlmig..:D hehe..:D and sana magkaroon ulit ng lakad ang kada!!! swimming party ulit pra masaya!! db!!!:D den jammin..and i hope n mkkpunta lhat but sadly 4 xur d mkkpunta c dea..waaahhh..ngaun nga pla alis nya ppuntang states..waahh..m gonna miss u a lot dea..i hope that you're readin my blog..hehe..:D

well, srap kgbi..movie marathon sa hbo..hehe..:D i stopped n wen it was lotr n..sobrang haba kc e..hehe..:D at ntpos ako mga 3 AM n..hahaha..:D

cge till here n lng ulit..byeiii..:D

yeyyy!!!:D

2005-03-25T13:32:00.000+08:00

haaayyy, daming bagay ang nangyari this past few days..haaayyy..but xempre hapie nmn..hehehe..:D

first, masaya kc alm ko na i really like 3.678..hahahahaha..:D wala lng ang labo ko noh..hehehe..:D sadyang ganyan lng tlga ako..llu na kpag walang magawa sa buhay...hehehe..:D

second, we had our visita iglesia last night..and it was so amazing..kc may npuntahan kming chapel malapit sa tita ko..kc under renovation ung church dun kya sa chapel kmi na prang garden..grabeh, ang ganda niya!!! with the music and lights..sobrang nkkrelief tlga ng sama ng loob..its like prang mag-isa ka..pro hindi..hehe..:D

third, we're goin to batangas sa 2m..khit hindi 2loy sa baguio ok lng..helo?!? ilang tymz n q nkpunta sa baguio..nkkasawa na..hahahaha..:D pti anung ggwin ko dun..tatakbo pra hindi mkita ng isang tao..hahaha..:D but masaya n rin kung sa batngas..kc beach kmi..yahoooo!!!!:D

lastly, boss angel dondee told me yesterday that he's fallin for his boss angel..haaaayyy..oh God, he's so sweet tlga..ewan ang lbo ko..pro ganun..hehehe..:D

at xempre kailngan ko rin magluksa para sa holy week..hehehe..:D cge got to go..bye..:D

arghh..

2005-03-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

my mom didn't allow me to go to beda's grad ball..argghh..haayy, bahala na..mom ko lng nmn ang ayaw..hahaha..si papa nmn..hahahaha!!!:D bad gurl..hahaha..:D d ble maayos ko rin 2..hehehe..i just need to think if pnu cla m-convince..hehehe..:D hell yeah..i should think of a way para pumayag cla..hahaha..:D para masaya..:D

nywy change mood nmn..ang saya..the resolution of my phone is really amazing..oh yeah!!! i love this phone..eventhough it doesnt have an mp3..but who cares..i could put some music p rin nmn dun..but through computer lng nmn..at babalik pa ako sa SM so that malagyan nga xa ng music..:D hehehe..:D pti ok lng..nbuhay nmn ako sa teleponong walang mp3 ah..hehe..:D bsta m glad na rin dat i have this unit..cz its really amazing..hehe..:D and xempre c jas[um..correction daw..jace the pogi nga pla]..sobrang ngus2han ung resolution ng cam ng phone ko..hehehe..:D pero bibili na ata xa ng sony ericson k700i..preho cla ni boss angel dondee..hehe..:D

speakin of boss angel dondee..nasa laguna xa ngaun..haaayy, buti p cla ako sa friday p ata alis nmin..arghh..tpos c reb nasa fontana nmn..haaaayyy..sarap ng buhay nyo!!! hehehe..:D cge till here n lng muna..hehe..:D

age..

2005-03-23T10:36:00.000+08:00

You Will Die at Age 85

85

Congratulations! You take good care of yourself.

You're poised to live a long, healthy life.

What Age Will You Die?

***yeyyy!!!

2005-03-22T14:40:00.000+08:00

i have a new phone at last!!! ***yeeeyyy..khit samsung E310 lng..hehehe..:D masaya na rin!!!:D ****yaaaaaahhhhhoooo!!!!!!!!!!!!:D

.:*KaTsY wishing upon a star*:.